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Anique Prinse Jan 2016
Im sorry

If i hurt you in any kinda way
I just want you too know
that when you look at me
I aint the same

Im trying to be the best that I can be
not to mention its our loves that drives me
Im changing for you and me

Im taking a chance on responsibilities
Please don’t walk away ill be a better person
ill promise you that
but remember me and all the things that we’ve shared

Never believed I could feel this way
but uptill now you keep provin me wrong this way
again I’m sorry
it aint easy for me to open up to you

Even when I know
you will never do me harm
its my inner self that had been damaged
way too far

Again,

here I go and try to make excuses
but I keep on remembering the pain from the bruises
Felt like I needed to be strong
But it just hit me

I’ve been strong all along
I guess I just needed to be reassured
it wasn’t my fault that my body was his burden
such a long time ago but still so short in my feelings

Its been a long time but my wounds are now just healing
Its like im stuck in a room with no door too flee in.
but If I fled its just another room
im going insane over not being able to deal with the past.
im going crazy
hope this feeling doesn’t last

Make it stop
make it stop
I don’t want to feel
all these feelings inside of me that just wont heal

Lord give me strength, give me attitude
for maybe then I will never again be treated like a *******
what was I gonna do?
was in no position to step away from him too.

I guess that now you can say im doing alright
I've found a man that loves me
And keeps calling me his wife
I find comfort in talking too him
He makes being with him feel like home

So only when im away i still feel alone.
Anique Prinse Dec 2015
To love and to hold is something I never could.
I did not feel appeal in beïng misunderstood.
So I grew tired of not controlling my own life.
I knew I had let myself become an option.

But if that is what I am to you then I do not think I have the will to go against it.
Because beïng with you is so much more than optional for me.

So I ask you again!

What is it you want? What is it you need? Am I JUST one of many?
Or should I just be pleased with the time granted from you?


x--

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