A chill in the air awoke him
And he pulled his blankets tight
The ***** was running strong
It had been a good night

He felt sick and tried to sleep again
Relaxed and breathed a sigh
The room was dark and silent
And he could still taste the rye

He laid there dazed and lazy
But something was not right
He felt the need to investigate
The darkness in that night

He sat up and rubbed his eyes
And looked over at his side
When he didn't see her
A fear crept up inside

He knew something was wrong
She is never up this late
Now his curiosity
Would make him investigate

He strained his ears to listen
Hoping he could hear her
But couldn't hear a thing
Only his heart beating fear

He stood up and walked to the door
And pause one more time
Again he heard no sound
But saw a dull lights shine

It came from downstairs somewhere
And he knew she must be here
He went down the stairs to find her
And grab another beer

He went down the stairs slowly
And turned the corner to the hall
Took two steps to the kitchen
Two steps that was all

He stopped and stood silent
His body frozen in shock
His mind trying to comprehend
As time ticked off the clock

He watched the look of pleasure
The passion in her eye
As she took everything he had
And gave it to another guy

His body began to tremble
His emotions ran hot
He was going to **** them
Right there on the spot

He walked into the kitchen
And tried to grab a knife
He wasn't going to listen
Just going to take their life

They heard him open drawers
And panic filled the air
They were caught red handed
But could only just stand there

He screamed at them and threatened
And smashed everything in sight
This was it for him
He would deal with this tonight

She tried to walk up and grab him
But something held her in place
She knew something was wrong
By the pain on his face

He fell down on the floor
Overwhelmed with grief
He knew it was too much
He would find no relief

The pain was too much for him
And he began to fade
The anger in his blood
Spilling out along his blade

All the screams became silent
And he felt no more fear
This day would never shine on him
For he would not be here

He prayed the dark would come
And take him away
He would not have to feel this
For even one lonely day

His body shook and he knew
That his time was near
When she came to hold him
And whispered in his ear

I'm sorry love, you know I am
Please don't leave me now
I'm so sorry, please don't die
I'll make it up some how

She told the man to call for help
And tried to save his life
His last words to her were
I wanted you to be my wife

He wanted to be her everything
then it happened

Do you know a life of loneliness and one filled with pain
living a life with nothing to gain. Surrounded by darkness
Overwhelmed with shame. A life without peace with no one to blame.

Do you know of a place unseen, a place that holds only shattered dreams, A place filled with sorrow with no end in sight, I am given this gift each and every night.

Do you know of a place so cold, this is the place I call my soul. A place without hope or comforting dreams, a life not worth living wouldn't it seem

Do you know of a life, that should have never been, and the feeling that today, this life has to end. One more day of sadness is much too hard to bare, I am tired of living a life of heart ache and despair.

Do you know a person with so much pain inside, or the feeling of loneliness when no one hears your cries, maybe when the tears are gone, and I can clearly see, the only question left will be..
DO YOU KNOW me

Timeless thoughts of a winter's stare;
eyes gazing over a landscape bare.

Memories drift on a blustery breeze;
dying light ushers in the freeze.

Reaching out for a grasp on the present;
stillness sets in, alone, and desolate.

Future unknown, outcome uncertain;
brilliance shadowed by a drawn curtain.

Path now set, laid before me known;
closing light now emanating from home.

Enter my homestead, heart filled with glee;
two eyes of the future peering upward at me.

Trusting in him to forge forward until fulfilled;
Basis of strength, values I have instilled.

A weary mind at last permitted to rest;
reflecting on the realization of how I am blessed.

It is scary for a writer to not know what to write
it is like you are lost at sea
with no way home
sailing for days on end
no food no water
just you and the fish

If you saw me on the street
would you stop and talk to me
or would you look right past me,
a stranger you didn't see?

I often think of you,
do you ever think of me?
one day I hope we meet again,
you'd be so proud of me.

I want to share so much with you,
like all my favorite things.
There's so many things we could do,
so much you haven't seen.

Ten months ago,
you left us all alone.
Not even five months old then,
mommy six weeks pregnant
and alone.

I always wonder why
my daddy went away.
Mommy says you love me,
and you'd be back again someday.

So do you ever think of me,
the way I think of you?
Mommy says I look like you,
do you think so too?

Time goes by so fast,
I'm growing everyday.
I'll look very different soon,
that's why I wonder everyday...

If you saw me on the street
would you stop and talk to me
or would you look right past me,
a stranger you didn't see?

written for Mazzie my love