Angelica Tanaquin

Angelica Tanaquin Oct 2014

I remember how it used to be
when nothing else matter but you and me.

I miss you, I wish you could see
although you are here, I miss you and me.

I remember when you said how happy I made you
and you really meant it.

I miss those days when it was so hard
just to say good-bye for a while.

I remember how wonderful it felt the first time
you held me in your arms-and how after all those
days you still made my heart melt.

I remember when time simply stood still-
when in each other's arms is the only place
we wanted to be... forever.

I miss us as I remember how it used to be...
when nothing else matter but you and me.

Angelica Tanaquin Sep 2014

don't judge me

There are a very few things that anger me, they assume nothing makes me angry. Just because I am cheerful, I am not allowed to feel low. Just because I am less often seen in a bad mood, they assume nothing can spoil it. I don’t react to everything that happens around me, they assume I have no opinions whatsoever. I am not harsh on anyone, they assume I am meek. I don’t punish, they assume I can’t. I forgive, they assume I forget. I don’t brood over the past, they assume I am ‘blessed’ with memory loss.

When I come across people assuming things about me, I try not to lose heart and tell myself, they are doing the easiest thing they can do, which is ‘assuming’. Assuming is equivalent to not understanding. Those who fail to understand, either because they are unable to or because they don’t want to, are the ones who assume.

**So, don't judge me.

Angelica Tanaquin Sep 2014

you are still there

Oh I still think of you
In the quietness of the night
And every time I see couples around
I wonder how we could have been
Oh how my heart could have been
Jumping up and down within
This tiny cage a chest that's mine.

I still think of you
Your picture saved in
My alter reality - somewhere 'Us' happened
Your name still found
At the back of my notebook written
Oh you are still there
I don't know when you'll last.

But I still think of you
And I'm giving you that chance
Do something, move forward -
For us - so that in this reality 'We' exist
My patience running low; I'm getting impatient on you
Thinking is never enough, I should have done something
Only that I'm a human, I could just wait..

But hey know that today
Just like all the days before
And probably all the days after -
I am thinking of you
Oh and that every thing in me
Every hope, every dream
You are there, you never left.

Angelica Tanaquin Sep 2014

I want you, Bae

I don't want new cool stuffs.
I want to spend time with you.
I want to walk with you.
I want to count the starts at night with you.
I want to watch the sunset with you.
I want to hold your hands in public.
I want you to be proud of me.
I just want you here.
This love is true,
you must know that.
All I want is you.
Only you, *bae.

Angelica Tanaquin Sep 2014

Still Do

Im jealous

Jealous that I
wasn't the  one

Jealous
of  something that wasn't mine

It was all  just  my mind
playing tricks on me

Dear me
So foolish to think it was me
I should have  known

Now my heart's breaking,
cracking, splitting into 2.

And im
still
jealous.
Yep. I still do.

Angelica Tanaquin Sep 2014

just like programming

Loving you feels more natural than the keys I type on all day.
Yet my feelings are more complicated than a two dimensional dynamic character array.
When I see you, my heart skips a FLoating point OPeration.
If there's anything you want, all other task priorities drop.
When I'm with you, my heart performs realtime.
After being about all day, I want to be your \n
I just can't compile how you make me feel that way.
But love runs on it's own, without language or syntax.
For you, all my procedural rules are relaxed.
To you, my dear, I will always be (boolean) 1
For all my love are belong to you.

Sep 2014

Frustrated Poet

The Poet Painted

I sat on an old bench
Near that oak tree
Searched for the ideal spot
Provide the perfect lighting
From where I shall picture the view.
I stared at the vast blue blanket
Listened to the beautiful noise it makes
The atmosphere hovered with tranquility
I am at peace, drifting in serenity
I watched as the sky turned to
fiery red to comely orange
Slowly indigo creeps in
with a touch of navy blue
All shades of strong hue.
I took a deep breath and sighed
Another attempt to interpret your loveliness
On a blank canvass
I see it clear in my mind
And I started to sketch.
A stroke tinted to perfection
Lines and circles to describe affection
A shade to remind me
how bright your eyes glistened
Down to emptiness shown by your eyes' darkness.
It'll take a lifetime to draw
Something as stunning as you
I'd paint the universe, if I can
Of my love for you

When the sun sets and gives the earth its daily kiss
What lovers watching sure will miss
You're the inspiration for this moment of bliss
Your existence is art and I call it masterpiece.
I'll call it a day
And put the brush down
Another praise for she
Who has the crown.

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