Angelica Tanaquin

Angelica Tanaquin Sep 2014

Sometimes I just lay down.
In my bed.
Lights off and silence.
And I close my eyes and think about you.
I think of everything from the first time we began.
To the smallest details that hang on every strand of my memory.
No matter how much I want to hate and forget it all.
My guard always falls.
The memories flow in like a river of endless water.
There's no drainage that can control this mess.
Every time I see you I think about you more.
I guess I'm angered by the memories because I don't think your mind does the same for me
And it *****! It really *****!
Because I'm stuck.
Stuck to memories that were just that.
Now I'm ashamed cause you don't think the same.
Cause your smile still makes my day.
And cause you just won't go away.

Angelica Tanaquin Sep 2014

strangers to friends again

It's strange how someone can change your life
Especially when your heart has been torn with a knife

You try to forget all your sorrow and pain
But in actual life it sticks like a stain

Trust isn't always a very easy subject
But in times like this, I must object

When it comes to trust from me
Then no one but you it will be

I am your friend and forever will be
If you promise to always remember me

I met you as a stranger
I got to know you as a friend

Angelica Tanaquin Sep 2014

Taking Chances

Give them your turst untill they
Give you a reason not to..
Then thats great
For you
But my trust and my heart have been
Abused amd mis-used to many times
I have learned to protect myself
I have put up a wall and
And only let people get so close
Then someone like you comes along
Loving,caring and willing to be there
Wanting to be there
And i get scared
I dont know how to let you in
I know its unfair to you
To have to pay for the mistakes of others
To have to deal with the pain they left behind
But im asking you to try
I believe that love is about letting go
Putting all of your trust into that other person
I believe that when you hold back
You miss out on the possibility
Of experencing something great
Maybe im not ready to take that leap
But i am willing to try
Theres so many thoughts,questions and chances
That this could all be fake
Thats what my head tells me
But my heart is telling me that you mean
Every word that you say
And that your worth taking that "chance"
You wanted honesty and thats what you got
So there it is out in the open
Just lingering in the air
Where do we go from here?
Take the next step
Make the next move
Are you willing to wait for me?
I dont want to loose you and
I dont want push you away
So can we both make an effort to try?
For you to have patients with me
And for me to give you that trust you need
We dont have to know everything now
I guess its all up to time
But just remember that i love you
I know that i dont always make things easy
I just need to know that you will be there.

Angelica Tanaquin Sep 2014

Trying to forget, my friend

Yes, I always make you smile, before.
Yes I make your day wonderful, before.
Yes I am one of your close friends.
Yes I am the only one who can understand you.
Yes I care too much, before.
That's because I love you.
But today, Everything was change.
Promising that I will not care, too much.
From now on, Goodbye feelings.

Angelica Tanaquin Sep 2014

oh dear

When I first saw you, i was starstrucked.
The first time we hang-out, I was totally excited.
And today, from that 7 hours we've been together, I was very happy.
We talked, we laughed, do some weird moments.
Our eyes met, we smiled to each other and my heart begins to pump so fast.
And from that I think I'm falling for you.
Oh dear, please let me love you.

Angelica Tanaquin Sep 2014

Mr. Bully

Please help me God, I feel so alone
I'm just a kid, how can I take it on my own?
I've cried too many tears
I wake up every day, don't wanna leave my home
I'm just a kid, I don't want no stress
My nerves are bad, my life's a mess
The names you call me, they hurt real bad
Yo mister Bully, help me please
I'm flesh and blood, accept me please
Hey mister Bully, I don't know what to do
My mind, it can't explain what I did to you
Mister Bully, take in all my please
Every single day you bring me to my knees.
Hopeful, yes, I am
Hopeful for today
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away
And be hopeful, hopeful
And He'll make a way
I know it ain't easy, but, that's okay
Just be hopeful.

Angelica Tanaquin Sep 2014

Jelly Baby

Jealousy* is more than an emotion,
It's a way of showing you care, or wanting for something you know you can't have.
This is jealousy...
When you hug another person,
I became jealous.
When you are walking side-by-side with that person,
I'm jealous.
When I see you talked to another person,
I'm jealous.
I;m jealous because I want to be that another person!
The person you hug,
Or the person you walk side-by-side with,
The person you always talk too.
This is jealousy!