‪My mother told me when your heart beats fast it's because you love someone. ‬
‪That's how I knew I was in love with you. ‬
My love for you is growing, I think I need a bigger chest.
‪I was made to always be there with you when the sun rises and you feel like you can conquer the world. ‬
‪I was made to always be there with you when the moon paints the sky and the world has come crashing down on you. ‬
‪God made me for you. ‬
‪I vow to never neglect, and to always protect your heart, and when things get too hard I will never regret this love. ‬
‪I've been living life with only half of me, you came along and now I live life to the fullest. ‬
Thank you for picking up all the pieces every time I break.
Thank you for showing me real love instead of fake.


- Happy Valentine's Day - Analysa Marie

I don't blame anyone or anything for all the hurt I have suffered from because I know I am the one who allowed all of that pain into my life. As years passed by I became adjusted to the comfort of pain. I made this mistake where I made myself a home to toxic people and situations in my life. After much disappointment I tried to figure out why I was the one who would always end up crying myself to sleep, but all along it wasn't rocket science to see that the only one who was hurting me was simply me. It took awhile to see that there was no knife in my back because I already planted it in my heart. I learned and came up with the result that I am the only one who can control how I live my life, so if I wanted to see a change then I had to be my own change. Own your mistakes, but don't be your mistakes. Be the result of what your mistakes have taught you. It's normal to see the light in the darkest people but as long as you learn that you are the sun, you'll never let a dark cloud block your rays again.

⁃ Analysa Marie

Be with you again?
I can't even imagine myself thinking about wanting to be with you again.
I'm doing good now actually I'm doing great now. Not that you care because let's face it the only time I was allowed to be happy was when I was with you.
But I was never happy with you.
All the times you had my mind running wild I mean you even had control over my dreams.
It was like every ticking second you were there to remind me of who you were. Like you were some **** trophy.
But you're not. You're more like aluminum foil you crumble the second too much pressure is put on you.
I prayed to God so many nights to make my love for you disappear because deep down I knew how sick you made me.
When I was with you I felt caged in.
Now, I found the key and I feel so free.
I feel so free that I can stand on the highest mountain and just scream because that's how powerful I feel.
I have control over me when for so long your hands were wrapped around me with the tightest grip I couldn't feel my blood circulating anymore.
The boy I'm with now actually you were the boy I was with, but the man I'm with now makes me blush and gush with emotions.
He makes me feel so beautiful.
You just made me hate myself.
I looked in the mirror and it's like I had to find a way to make myself look attractive that your mouth will just start watering every time you looked at me.
That's my fault.
I made you too hungry and when you starved I was right there for you to devour me.
All you ever did was make me weak.
But NOW I'm strong.
I'm strong enough now to look you in the eyes and say I don't love you anymore.
You were all wrong.
I got too caught up on wanting to see you win I let myself fail.
You taught me one thing in all the years we were together.
You taught me that the kind of man I deserve isn't you, but the opposite of you.
But most of all the biggest lesson I've learned that I had to reach myself is that I need to love myself more and love you not at all.
But just know you didn't win.
You walk around so proud to have all these broken hearts in your hands but you lose.
You lose because you lost a girl who saw heaven in your eyes when really it was hell.

- Everything I should have said to you. - Analysa Marie

Why does it feel like I'm not where I belong?
Maybe I could be somewhere else where I could never be wrong.
My heart beats for you, sometimes I think it beats more for you than yours does for me.
I look in the mirror and try to see the person you want me to be.
Am I just not enough? Or do I make your life too rough?
I just hope you think about me and try not to give up.
If I was to run out that door would you chase me with open arms and make my bags hit the floor?
I need to know because all my life I've been chasing people who gave up the marathon a long time ago.
And a long time ago I told my brain to tell my heart to stop beating so fast for people who leave me in the past.
Because I told them...I'm like glass
And if you break me your repair is gonna be half ***.
You were the type to walk on edges just in case things got too hard you can jump away from the messes.
That night I told myself if I had to second guess it then he wasn't the best fit.
I wasn't something you can start to explore and decide to call it quits.
So I'm saying my goodbyes to you tonight and by the time I wake up I hope I can see the light that the only person I needed to love was me and maybe then everything will turn out right.  

- Dear you, From me, I have to escape before it's too late again. - Analysa Marie

Remember when you asked me what my favorite color was and I said it was blue? It wasn’t. I didn’t even have a favorite color until blue was painted all over you. There’s a blinding light inside of you and I know with all the pain it seems impossible to fly in the rain, but I’ve seen you get torn apart and put back together again. I get it, we live in a city of broken dreams instead of building a team we go against each other and throw each other in streams, but you’re different. The way you can sing and make the whole ******* world stop and listen to a Queen. You’re able to change everyone’s mind about life and make the hardest situations right. You have a persona of gold and a voice that’s so bold it’s impossible to forget you. When your hands are in mine you slow down time. You’re the reason why I have all these rhymes and the reason I go blind because you shine like no other. Man, I couldn’t have asked God for a better lover. You silent my mind when all of my thoughts are piled together. I know the sun doesn’t shine forever, but I swear you and I can survive any weather. You keep my heart beating and I swear baby I’ll never have you out here competing. I’m always on my way to you and if you ask me about love I say mine for you is always true. Baby you're blue but I love you.

- Analysa Marie

I am happy that I've endured pain.

I've accepted it.

I've learned and I've grew into the person I prayed every night to be because the thought of who I was just felt too uncomfortable to even think about.

I can't even count how many times I sat on the bathroom floor crying or how many times I cried into a pillow so no one can hear me. I can't even count how many times I've exploded and wrecked my whole room just to put the pieces back together, but I could never put myself back together.

My pillowcases were soaked by the end of the night. I couldn't even fall asleep unless I cried for 5 minutes straight first. Sleep was my best friend, food was my enemy and happiness was an unknown language.

Have you ever felt your heart actually break? Well, I've felt it being crushed.

I didn't care to know love or invite love into my dark life. I couldn't even remember the last time I genuinely laughed or smiled. Forcing myself to laugh and smile used to hurt.

As soon as I saw the sunrise I just wanted to see the sunset...I don't know if that was a metaphor for my life.

- Analysa Marie

When I am sad, I pour down so hard your umbrella will fall apart. When I am angry, my flames cannot be put out. When I am happy, I become as bright as the sun it's hard for you to look at me. But when I am broken, I cut you open so deep stitches can't even fix you, but I wish this pain I feel was something stitches could heal.

- Analysa Marie