Amber Curtis

Amber Curtis May 2017

Where he is
Is where I will be
Soaring past clouds
Or swimming in the sea

High above or
Down below
Where he is
Is where I will go

May 2017

Penelope Winter

those in love

those who say it's a beautiful feeling
to fall in love
have always been loved
in return

- p. winter

#love #poem #poetry #relationship #sad

May 2017

Lady RF - Rosalie Fayad

Soul Tired

My mind has switched off
without giving me
any notice at all,

I find myself staring
into thin air,
I've blended into the wall.

My thoughts are blank,
I'm lacking motivation,
my inspiration is bleak,

I'm lethargic and dull,
I'm feeling very, very weak.

I'm not myself,
or maybe I am,

I'm beyond confused,
my soul is tired;
exhausted is what I am!

I want to cry,
but I 'm too tired,

I want to scream,
I'm frustrated;
I feel like
I need to be rewired.

I'm on edge,
my knees are shaking,

Sweaty palms,
my heart is breaking!

I'm never going to get
my **** together,

I've been trying
for what feels like
forever!

As tired as I am,
I know I'll never give in,

I'm too determined to quit,
even though I know
I'll never win.

My mind has switched off,
I can't figure anything out,

I'm full of emptiness,
I'm going through
an emotional drought.

I want to cry,
but I know my tears
are all in vain,

I'm mentally exhausted,
I feel a terrible sensation,
a mental strain;
a relentless
invisible internal pain.

By Lady R.F. (C) 2017

Amber Curtis May 2017

What falling out of love looks like

Sleeping in the same bed, but different worlds
Eyes fluttering away to dreams of being somewhere else, anywhere else,
Both hands on the steering wheel, instead of one in mine,
Taking every given chance to be somewhere else, and avoiding the "I miss you too's",
A cushion between us when we sit on the couch, watching tv just to ignore each other, wanting to speak, but the words are trapped so deep down my throat that it is easier just to swallow them,

These two different worlds that we are living in are fighting a war,
And no matter who wins, the war will come to an end and I don't know if I can handle the battle wounds left over.

Amber Curtis May 2017

Draining Myself

When did "sure baby, I'll snuggle"
Turn into "nah, I'm more comfortable this way"?
When did "what's wrong Honey"
Turn into "what are you crying for, you have nothing to cry about"?
When did "I'll always be here for you"
Turn into "you were taking too long to get ready so I went by myself"?
When did the shoulder to cry on become the back turned away?
When did the "I love you's" become so heavy that it takes everything I have not to let them fall away into the cracks of my broken heart?
When did you realize that the love you had for me was not love at all,
That it was just a thought in your head?
Every day I try my best to give you what you need,
What you deserve,
And I'm trying to fill you up,
But I'm draining myself in the process.

Amber Curtis May 2017

why are you crying

Because when it's all said and done
Who is there to love me
Who is there to give me their all,
To shelter me from this storm inside my head

When I repeat myself, trying to make you understand, to help you see why I'm hurting so deep,
I just want you to pay attention and care about what is causing me so much pain, but instead

Instead you say "why are you crying?"
And fall asleep facing the wall instead of me,
Without even waiting for a response

— The End —