efni - Hello Poetry

Dec 2020

Colm

I've been so quiet and tired
so cold and concerned
with somethingness
that all I want is warmth
and a nonexistence for a little bit

nothing in this somethingness

efni Dec 2020

strong enough

I won't let you **** me
but I can't seem to get better

I suppose I am strong but
just strong enough to suffer

02.12.20

you dont live or die in limbo.
you just wait

efni Dec 2020

sorry, my bad

the only things I had were
these broken shards that
don't fit like they did before

dont hold too tightly
or you'll bleed

dont let them fall
or I'll break

I knew I shouldn't have
given them to you
in the first place

02.12.20

this is going to end badly again, isnt it? I should have warned you

efni Dec 2020

graveyard of plastic troops

my mind's fist delivers unabating
gut punches rocking my lonely stomach
accommodating only small plastic soldiers whom
i often beg to choke me on their way to their losing war

01.12.20

empty pill bottles are piling up, why am i still getting worse?

efni Dec 2020

floating

i am somewhere in between
my drowning and my burning
free of familiar frost and fire

a new frame where I can float
swimming through the stars
dotting this constellation

the brightest darkness i have ever seen

01.12.20

them

efni Nov 2020

i have nothing to say

im tired of saying 'im tired'
and my 'why's have run dry

im all out of burning questions
and acid tears for me to cry

i wont say please, i wont say stop
i wont be angered when i drop

i wont ask when, i wont make noise
i will not scream into that void

i will not scream
into that void
anymore

21.11.20

nothing

Nov 2020

Salmabanu Hatim

Clumsy

My heart is clumsy,
It has two left feet,
It has a way of falling,
As waves rise and fall in the ocean.
Useless words spill from my mouth,
Scattering across the floor.
Let me kiss you,
So I can paint all my feelings for you vividly.
1/11/2020