i know it's a big ask
i know i'm a lot to bear
but do you think you could stay?

just for a while

just long enough for me
to memorize your face by sight
and every inch of your body by touch

just long enough for the
sound of your voice to become
my favourite part of waking up every morning

and just long enough
to know you and love you
for lifetimes

09.29.24

when the night is settled and the sky
though as dark blue as 2am
4am echoes the sunrise
that is just around the corner

it is 4am
and i'm okay

09.29.24

your name is on my mind a lot
but not enough, i think

it’s only whenever my pen touches paper
to journal or write poetry, and
whenever my mouth opens to speak.

it’s only what my ears can’t help but hear
between the lines of love ballads and,
what my eyes search for in the morning,
the moment that they open.

08.16.24

mother and father,
how selfish you are, now,
to finally turn and look my way

and stare at my eyes but not the
scars and scabs on my palms and feet
forged from your negligence

mother and father,
how pitiful was i, then,
to plead to coldly turned backs

as i crawled and stumbled through
sharp shards of ice, forced to learn how
to how to stand on my own

mother and father,
were my outstretched hands
too repulsive to stomach?

were my tears too tiring?

if my arms had gone limp
and my eyes dry, earlier

would i have been worthy to be your child?

07.17.24

if you hold me too tightly,
you'll feel that i'm hollow  
scraped empty from the inside

if you watch me too closely,
you'll see that i'm rotting
and covered in dried blood

it doesn't wash off.

i'd give you my heart
if my ribs weren't just an
empty chamber with a shadow
and i'd give you my life
if i had any left

07.17.24