You are my every waking thought
I swear time collapses when I think of you
Melting me down
Memorizing parts of me I forgot
All I want to do is be with you

I do not smoke because I am addicted, as the smoke begins to make me choke
I began smoking because the smoke fills my lungs, allowing me to feel like I'm breathing something besides this sadness, it fills all the empty holes in my soul that you put there.

I'm so
tired of the rain
because it reminds me
of you
the way you would
never cry
and the day I left
I got your message
and you said
that your eyes
opened like the skies above
the Maryland bay
where my body now rests.
I'm so
tired of the rain
on the ground
enough to get my feet wet
but not
enough to let me drown.

a.m.p.

He's my 3am thought,

tired eyes, blinking lights
cold breeze, dry lips
but it's worth it
if it's him

She's my 3am thought,

firm hands, dark room
heavy sighs, pale skin
but it's worth it
if it's her