Who knew I could fancy a man to care
No one had ever dare to rise to the    
     occasion
And now
I am the apple of his eye
No matter
       How I feel
             What I wear
He wants my affection and love when  
     I'm not there
He sleeps with me till dawn on  
   occasion
Showing me he cares
I am the apple of his eye
No matter
       If I'm teary eyed
           If I'm flying free without a care
I know that he is there
In his silent way
Sometimes with a touch and hot kiss
By the hand or loop of my pant
   When another has had to much of  
    my time or attention
He reals me back into his arms
I am the apple of his eye
He'll never let me forget
No matter
       Our breaking points
                Pits of dispair
No matter
       How much I doubt
               He would set me free
     But,    I am the apple of his eye
Like he said before many times in all
                          honesty.
"I'll find you no matter where you go. You're the one that I love. You're the one worth fighting for."

It's not that I can't write
It's just that
I lackluster
Anything that could happen
Has happen
I'm not shiny and pretty anymore
I'm lost confused and burnt to a crisp in confusion

You said: you'd never leave me
But now I find myself standing
Here with the shadow of the man that walked away.

(My Love,)
If you could see yourself when I touch your face
You'd be familiar with the echo
The expressions come when you close your eyes
Your need to be loved
                      Your need to be accepted
Your craving needs for my affection
You're beautiful
               You're vulnerable
                             You're the blushing of your cheeks
                                        Desiring me to love you
                Kissing the redness of your lips
The heat of your hands
          Telling me you are mine
                    And mine alone to touch
    We are one in the darkness of where we stand
      Time sits still when I see your waking eyes
              Glittering as gorgeous as they are
     Oh the lightness of a smile staring back at me
Obliterated sadness  Now it's gone without a trace
              In these moments you are all I see
                                                             ­      (Your Love.)

It's clear to me that
                                     that girl is a problem
She feels nothing
Speaks nothing
But hears what she wants and spreads the lies

Is where my brother lays his head
Maybe once a month or when ever he's sick
One of three
Lays in a white bed with a white sheet
Called a A Hospital bed
He's the strongest one of our messed up family
The baby of the Sum of Three
I think about him often
Wonder why but fail to understand
How it's not fair to see someone you love laying there
Slowly dying when there are others should be where he is laying
The brusies will fade from the needle jab, I.V. bags
I just don't understand in a world that can be so cruel
Why this is happening to you.
Lover of Jokes, Lover of Animals, Lover of people
and so open hearted How your dreams can't come true
When the medicine they give to heal you You said feels like firey acid inside of you
You're the strongest piece of a broken whole
As the oldest I want to do more
Wanting to help you endure
Fate is never in my favor
But I waiver my attention from you
I am sorry
If I could stop the hands of time and press rewind
Maybe things could be different
Maybe I could be there with you
I just want you to know that I love you