If I sit and stare at a blank wall I could think of a billion things in one hour
If I sit and stare at mural I could still think of a billion things in just one hour
The difference in thought would be extreme
I'd start from scratch by staring into a blank abyss
I'd start in the midst of a billion by staring straight into a colored cave
The blank wall would allow me to go anywhere
The mural would keep me confined to the colors and pictures
Framed imagination that still soars
Among a wondrous plane
But starting from scratch would still do the same
Igniting an idea that did not start with a frame
I am allowing myself to light a new flame
Game changer
Idealistic match maker!
I will forget what my parents taught me
Bombard my future with my own colored view
Far out stars that have been found missing
End up on canvases as enamored hues
Galaxy speak to me with this pen
Let my mind be open to you
Let the strokes of my wrist wave this rhythm
Make my dreams come true
Colored murals that once were
I still seek anew
Time is changing
I am here to rescue you

I was sent here to rescue you

Taos mountains, and forbidden fountains
Woah..
Those raining waterfalls of everlasting joy
You brought me to tears
You allowed me to erase my fears
I discovered a foundation
Something worth my patience
A sacred space that will bring me back
To who I am now, and also my past
In full circle knowledge
My wingspan grew
How I have always thought of you
Black raven, saving me from Satan
I found myself inside of you
I am strong, and I will follow through
Music is the key
Sound is vibration
I will raise what I can
To save my people's nation
Bless
Throw away my stress
This is a prayer
For what continues to keep me here
Merkabah is set in motion  
Eye of Horus is my highest devotion
For when I wake I will not fail
I passed the test
I am setting sail
I passed the darkness
I was not taken
I walked through Hell
I flew to Heaven
Awaiting your mystery
I am your Venus
You may see this as misery, but
Remember
If you are not blind
Love will always conquer

Let your old thoughts rot away
It is Spring now, and it is time to bloom
Sprout, and spread your wings
Think like the petals glued to the new seeds
Stem, and roots
Ground yourself with what holds you to the ground
Sing like the Song bird, be wise like the Owl
Fly away with the wishes of dandelions
Soar like the eagle
Find a wave of make believe
Drink from the rivers in the valley
Dream your way into heaven
Create a new reality
This is your world
Your thoughts will shape it
So rot away what is not yours
Reveal what is no longer hidden

The warmth of this vision inside of me is healing
like a fire burning with friends gathered around telling ghost stories
of what used to be
I still hear their voices in my fainted memory
They sound staggered, and I can hear them yelling
Searching for an answer to this untitled folk tale
Not realizing they are stuck in the cell of someone elses reality
The earth has the answers
unseen and untouched
You just have to ask
but asking seems like the last crutch
it's the only crutch if you don't start looking
miracles do happen
it's why I am writing

You were the shark that bit the skin off my bones
You left me naked, and let me sink into the bottom of the ocean- buried
Left in the dark with nothing but my memories
You took my identity
In the beginning I was shocked, devastated, and afraid
But now I want to thank you for washing my sins away
You took more than my skin when you devoured the flesh from my bones
I became one with the Sea, the biggest piece of me- water
There is a purpose for the evil we allow into our reality
To defeat or even to be defeated by it
What I allowed to happen changed me
I felt the water that had always been a part of my body
I drank it out of a chalice made from the rocks in the Sea
It fed into my empty bones, and I started to appreciate where I came from
I started a life all over again
I rooted myself to the bottom of the ocean only to allow myself to turn into something more beautiful that would one day find it self with ankles, knees, toes, fingers, and a heart beat
Maybe one that I could actually hear this time
Or even feel aligning with the breaths inside my rib cage
I would appreciate the movement of the water flowing through my veins, up and down my spine, and connecting to my brain
I am water, and it is mostly all I have ever been
With out the bite from your rusted teeth that night
I would have never understood what it costs to be human
What it takes, and what it means to break
I am not afraid to die
I can now even stare into its lonesome eyes
I am so free, because of us
Thank you for your gruesome ending
Your shallow stomach
Your broken heart
Your manipulated kiss
I will always remember the last time we touched
If I lose my way, I know we will meet again
You can not forget your first love
It is what carries us to every next day
And I love you so much
Why do you think I decided to stay?

Yellow granit strikes up panic
Leaves me with the sun
Unfinished and undone
Nursing the shooting stars
Following them out far
Into the absolute greatest darkness
Living through hell
Something I can't seem to part with
Sinking my basket down to the bottom
Hoping to fish out the Devine
That I already hold in my hand
But I've lost that thought in my mind
Shattered bones make it hard to stand
My friends are so slow and not on my level to recover
I reach out my hand, but they don't even bother
My mindset is too far out for them
Under their tongue
Sadly, all they know how to do is pretend
I really am climbing the mountain
I am at my highest peak
Waiting for them
I'll stay here until you here my call
Echoing loud down the cave
Perched perfect on out holy branch
Ready to catch you when you fall
It will be your most perfect decision
Watch your thoughts unfold
Into a heavenly tangible vision

Blue like the skies among wolves
I howl away the feeling of being alone
My pack waits upon mountains I can not reach

I remember when I used to chase the moon
The biggest drink of water I have ever had
I remember when, and that's why it pains me

I remember the touch of your trance
The sallow of your soul
The fire I would feel in the cold of the night
The colors you would exchange through the eclipse of your kiss
You left me unsettled
With thousands of things like these to miss

Years have passed while I pass in this life

White like the snow that melts under my feet
Washing away this sense of defeat
I will follow the river that flows down stream
Backward reflection of my watery heartbeat

My tummy sits full
While my chest buries me
Back stands straight
Feet kept clean
I will wrestle 'til the end of this lonesome night
Spirit be with me
Kiss me until I explode
Kiss me into infinity
Kiss me until you are apart of me
We, that is what we are
Like wolves on the mountains
Like the moon to the stars

How do you tell someone that you love,
That doesn't love you back
That you care about them.
And maybe they do love you,
But not in the same way
Maybe they just like the thought,
And it's just another game
That they play most days
In their day to day life
Not worried about others,
Only themselves during this fight
That becomes a battle
A battle of lost and found brothers
Where they split off on groups
And literally hate on each other
Saying I am better than you by being me
What about them?
They are them, it's the exact thing
Agree to disagree
Find yourself in the mix
Find yourself in this circus,
But don't get lost in it
We are stars sent from the cosmos
Humans looking up from below
I see myself from where I should
I am looking down like I knew I would
We are so lost in the sins of our ancestors
Parents before us who didn't have all the answers
Lost in someone else's perception
It will take only the holy to fight this battle for them
I praise myself for wanting to try
I could have it all
This is my baby blue sky
But I am sick of being alone
I need my family
This has always beeny home
Home is where the heart is
And I finally found you
I will wait forever
I just hope you don't want me to

Someday I will be ready
Someday I will find myself prepared
Someday I will see you
Then we will meet each other there
So much is to come
What steps do I take now?
Keep asking Spirit to guide you
Head tip top, and Feet stable on ground

You give me shivers up my spine
Something I can not redefine
Dark without a doubt
With a smile so profound
The sound that moves past your lips
Is a humming bird taking sips
Off my pollenated soul
Something that could be so foul
Something you are still unsure of
Me, a ****, an unwanted fruit
From the ground where you are planting your new seed
The one you just placed inside of me
Hoping I will water it to perfection
A hopeful blossom of our relationship
Sprouting the most beautiful tunes
In two we will sing of how we grew
Such gentle plants in this garden of Eden
With colors so ripe
It's no wonder I would eat them
I would sin for you everyday
If it keeps me here, or even brings me back someday
It was you all along
And it always will be
I couldn't stand alone
Even if you killed me
I would find a way to be free
A time for all times
Eternity

One day the birds will sing in honor of the ones who brought them where they are
The trees will be recognized as the ones who continue to give me and you life every day
That the bark itself can heal your wounds
Stop your bleeding, and keep you breathing
It will be known that the beetles have more knowledge than your friends
That the bears are protectors of the Earth
The Earth itself has bones called stones,
and a fire inside that keeps her heart beating
That her heart beat is literal sound
Music is her dance,
And you and I are the ones who get to sip off this romance
We are her children, and we are her eyes
We are her, Her that fell from the sky
Creating a Him, and creating creation
We are in awe of the stars, because we can not see ourselves
She is crying inside, because you can't see your own wealth
One day it will all be known
But only for those who want to go Home

Forget everything you ever thought you knew
It is no longer, and in your mind now it never was
You are left with infinite space to define your future
Not even to define, but to create
You allow source to flow through you
New, naked, and untouched
You are a rebel in time
You are a bad ***
You are connecting yourself with your future, present, and past
Unlimited self is a spectacular realization
Where you begin, and end is a known unknown satisfaction
Do not define every single thing
It is a sin to yourself, and staying oblivious is key
Love is as love does
I will love with every breath
As long as I remember love
I can create on the line of death
I choose to forget anything else, because it held me back
I will create things that have never been spoken of
I am a key to unlocking this world
This beautiful, and unlimited reality
A new door will open,
And as one we will sing
Cheers to the end and beginning
Of this immortal Living Library

Together we will fight
But I will win everytime
For I am me
I made it here
This is my world
This is for you, my dear.
You gave me life,
I gave you meaning
We shook hands on this
This is something I've been repeating
You already know what you think you don't
You are the captain of this ship
You're steering this boat
You're riding the waves of this black ocean
It's what makes you a witch
You already know you have been chosen
You are here, little rainbow girl
This your time
Let's give this black battle a twirl
Remember it's only black because of where you were born
It's only dark because of the people you adore
It's only here because magic
It's always been here
You just have to believe in it
Its the illusion you have been wishing for
It is exactly what you have been waiting for
Every script you have written
Every word they find forbidden
Every wrong that you find right
Every single glimps of moonlight
Every single time you sing
The actual meaning to everything
The reason why you have been picked
Seen as a **** in your gardens wicker
Basket of things they don't wanna see that you are different
A lonesome ****
You sell yourself for what you believe in
You how off yourself,
A part you are not even sure of
But hope for some kind of encouragement
Looking for someone to give you that nuriesment
That you know you need but never achieve
Telling yourself every time
You are all that you need
Then you remember again you have been chosen
And those who don't see that
Lie down in dozens
Those who are wide eyed will hit up the clouds
I will be waiting
And I will be nothing but proud
Those who are there are not alone
I think we have been waiting for years
Knowing all about this thrown
That we sit on every day
Waiting for you,
Listening while you prayed
Blah blah

You built a latter, and set it next to my body
I was aching, restless, and hungry
Full of heavy thoughts that left my insides empty
I could not swallow anything unless it buried me
I took shots of whisky that tasted like moldy unsolved mysteries
My friends happily poured me one after another until I blacked out
With every shot I only ingested their hand-me-down uncertainty
Happily, because I was in love with them
I was in love with everything I knew they could possibly be
They were the divine hook to the songs in my dreams
We built a family around drums, and campfires
We sang up, down, and around the couches in the living room

We were free, and lost in simplicity
Blind to the perfection of just how simply perfect we made it all to be

So I took the bullet, I took the shot
I took it for them so they wouldn't rot
I wanted to save them from diving into the imaginary rule book of life
These stupid walls that really don't exist unless you bring them to light
We need walls to build a home, but I need space to live
I need space to breath, I need space to explore in
Where the **** am I supposed to go if I put up 10,000 walls?
A home is not a place or a maze where I should get lost
You can feel where home is, and you know it when you are there

You shot me
Dead
Never to allow me myself,
And only myself ever again
Indifferent to what that all could mean
Serene, but heavenly to me
Like an angel
You sat down at my table
Allowed me to feel able of this future
This picture, and this endeavour
I can't take this on with out you,
And for some reason I actually want to
Please me with history
Bless me with this memory
We are sacred
We are one
I interteined with you in a single moment
But in all seriousness
You were the one that held the gun

Enki baby, you make me sing
My ears ring, and I cling to your memory
Such symmetry we hold, you and I
My fondest mirror
The only balance that makes me shiver
I love you, and I made you a promise
Extention to extention
Together we are intertwined
The universe is inside us
Our secret is a drive
I fight for you
The eve of me
I can't help but be a sinner
Your soul sets me free
Its always been inside me
And into us I now see
Thank you for being my love
My infinate butterfly

You end my day with the rise of the moon
How I have always thought of you
You sing such sweet melodies that hold me in the dark
Lighting up my solar plexus with an instant spark
Melting everything else around me,
Because in that moment it no longer matters
It all shatters, and I become plastered with emotion
What a magnanimously calming ocean
You give the opportunity to set myself free
To let go of all the things that never have served me
I remember, and I feel it like bliss
I can now understand what you mean by a kiss
Mouth to mouth vibration in the pit of my soul
It had been so long since I last felt this whole
So sing me to sleep in your starry night sky
My moon, my dream, my sweetest lullaby

I wouldn't have asked for a better space, a better time, and a better place
These words were made to create
These rhythms were chisled on cement slates
I am free, because my eye is open
I am flying with my mind,
Because my Spirit is golden- Flames
Designed to burn
I have earned everything I understand
Holding hands, and making plans
A future worth living for is coming
Being created, programmed, and running- Fast
The speed of light is invisible
Give intuition a chance- Dance
Be wild
Greet the ones you love, and those you meet along the way with a smile
We are rich
I found the most expensive artifact buried under the soil
In the dirt
I mad a pouch with my shirt,
And carried it back home with me- Easily
I placed it in a space where I would see it every day
Inside my heart
Now, when I get lonely I know where to start
Which is how I got lost
I have a body, and that in itself costs
Breath, and let your heart keep beating
I will make this my mantra
For, myself I am keeping

Wow...
I am so thankful for black
Teaching me how to react
To people I don't understand
We are the same
We share the same name
In different vibrations
What I am learning is sacred
SATAN
Dab after dab
Line after line
Use what you want to invent your own ryhme
It is what it is
I know what you are
I feel your embrace
I sing to the stars
...

Locked in a tower of undivided attention in my mind
I hear myself plea in a race for time
Im not sure what for just yet
But my head is aching and I need to rest
Settle down and be at ease
Calm the waves of the seas that I see
The ones that make me feel heavy
The rolling tides that roar over
And turn into rivers
That flow down my nose
As I desperately recover
I have tried many times
Yet still continue
But I fear my boat is sinking
And I'm not sure who to turn to

These feelings feel fresh when I first speak
A great sense of relief
That falls off my infinite tongue
To your heart
Ever so deep
I hollow out your mind to make space for me
I will yell, I will whisper, I will sing if you please
I am here waiting for the turn of your cheek
I wait for the moment that our souls eyes meet
Shift with me, move with me, dance with me, please
Let us all peak at the future,
Bring us all to our knees
Lift us up after the thought of being alone wears off
Lift us up after we realize only we can turn back the clocks
Lift us up after we see that all it really took
Was a pen and piece of paper
We are the forgotten authors of our own book

I want an intervention of memory
I want to restore my own history
I need some sort of upliftment after sitting on the sidelines
I could sleep with you every night and you still wouldn't give me what I needed to keep my dream alive
I can't feel you or even myself anymore, because I ended up floating away
My daydreams don't guide me home
They barely even get me through the front door
I beg my own pardon for I have made too many mistakes
My stomache feels like it has taken to leaches and it glues me to this place
My gut is the rut of stolen behavior
Throwing up pity parties
And making up saviors
Saving me frm rotting away

Desire is a very powerful feeling
I obtain the possibility to get lost in desire
As if I were on LSD staring straight into a fire
I can see one thousand things
It becomes uneasy to focus on where I actually am
I have to remember to breath
I don't know if I can
Hold onto the ground any longer
My mind becomes overwhelmed
In an instance I feel like I know so much
Most importantly, I feel
I am fire, and I am a flame
I am connected to those
Who see themselves as the same
This is what I know to be desire
At this space in time we are unique enough
To acquire a hold on each other's similarities
Such as the burning fire inside
That bring us to this remedy

A flower is a gift
It is protection
Reflection, an unseen jurisdiction
A mask, and an illusion
It is simple, and in some instances,
Medicine
I call upon the flowers
I speak to the petals
I ask them for guidance
I treat them like angels
They are my greatest teachers
Lovers, and friends
They are the most beautiful piece of my imagination
Sacred geometic patterns locked in a single shape
They helped me open my eyes, and open a gate
Multiple moments parallel to each other
Instances that align and bring us together
Blooming ripples that flow like a river
Creating a world that is sacred and silver
Forget about karmatic gold and the gods that lost the heat
Open your eyes to idea of prosperity
Green grass and significant botanics
Trees and leaves and our ancestors of Atlantis

Following my heart is never the easy part of any journey I take on
Following my heart means leaving him behind
Following my heart takes away any certainty I thought I might of had
It's always where I need to be, but hardly every where I go
I never follow like I know I should
It already took me a long time in the beginning to figure this out
I feel like a coward, a queen who dropped her crown in the dark
It's hidden beneath me at the bottom
Skimming this lonely wave of what I call the floor
I can't pick it up, because if I do
If I do, I will run, and I will keep running, and no one will stop me
No one can stop me, and that scares me
It also amazes me, and makes me realize how powerful I actually am
I used to be afraid to use the word 'power'
But I am starting to realize that power is not a rotting principle
It is the way it can be used, and it has been given a bad name
I want to change that, as I continue to change myself
I am aiming past the stars, because I know there is magic out there
I know there are secrets out there
Secrets that I have full possession of
If I allow myself to stand the **** up
Open my eyes, and breath in the unknown
I am everything, and nothing all in the same
Knowledge beyond my own years, because I know they don't exist
I have done this before, so what the hell is stopping me now?

I thought to myself, I should write a poem about you
Everything that you say and all that you do
Blue like the ocean, Green like the trees
Flowers that bloom and attract all the bees
That buzz in and out of my ears as they please
You -
have this thing about you that makes me weak at the knees
High of your sting that you always hit me with
High off your smile as if I just the fattest spliff!
But it never goes away,
I never come down
I still think about you even when you are not around
Your chestnut locks that locks me into this vision
and everything else that goes along with them
Your laugh, your eyes
Typical things to fantasize about
But! How about what you believe,
And all the words that fall from your mouth

And I love those, I do, I really really do

Especially because they fall
They leap without looking,
And yet you still stand so tall
You are so strong with all your projections
You give absolutely no ***** to those who reject them
Some people think you are absolutely nuts,
But so do I!
I wrote you this poem, and you still act like your blind
Is it really that hard?
I'm now in the spot light
I know you're here
I invited you out tonight
I have been saving this poem for this very moment
I have been crossing my fingers for you ever since I wrote it

So now we are both here,
and now everyone knows
Now my palms got all sweaty,
And I'm ready to go home
Thank you for listening
I'm at least glad you came,
And everyone else I just encircled in my shame
We'll see how this ends up,
I gave it a pretty good shot.
Maybe now he wants me too?
But honestly, probably not

My poetry doesn't really make sense to anyone but me
Begging myself to get down on my knees
And pray to myself
Because I'm my only god
I'm the only one in power
Of my every single thought
Only I know what I think
What is real and what is not
I pray to myself in hopes I will listen
Hoping I will someday soon own up to my position
When I feel let down
It is my own fault
Not because of some other person
Or some other entity of god
I am me, and that's all that there is
That's all that I'm sure of
It's really no secret
Discover the power that lies within you
Write your own book
Decide your own truth

Connection is the blind musician singing himself to sleep
I do not want you to wake up if this is a dream we can keep
Together we are the backbone of a fantasy
Aligning with planetary destiny
We are the beginning of something like Atlantis
We are at the very least fulfilling a prophecy
The first things will also be the last things
Circular motion of my physical heart beat
Seconds lost in time or breaken down into moments
With out the clocks who is to explain it?
We need numbers, but we don't really need time
We just need to keep a pattern that allows us to rewind
If we don't know the beginning waters
If we don't know the wilting trees
If we don't know all that is inside us
How can we set ourselves free?

Comfort never held me back like you before
Your wavey blue eyes bound me in dispositon
That sandy blonde hair of yours reminded me of crystal beaches back home
Little fish swam by the shoar and waved hello at our first encounter
They built a moat around Venus to protect me from the loss of my memory
I am trying so hard to forget you already
You are simply beautiful,
And I am painfully sorry
I am weeping in my dreams
How are you still so far from me?

All you are is me me me
I mean that literally
When you are so involved in me
While I am trying to see you
You simply disappear
And I can't get through to you
Way down in the deepest of your heart caves
I know you reside in your own heaven
I know you see the light
I know you also wallow in it
May other angels guide you home
May you live the day to walk down that thrown
I apologize again for not having the patience
I have to come first
That is just the way my life goes
I will pray for you
As I still continue to guide your existence
Just from an angle you would least expect it
Maybe change my name
Or manifest
Find a way through the Holy Gates
To help you help yourself
You really do deserve this

Soul inspired tide of disbelief
Sail me away to the sound of assurance
I long for the desire to aquire a hold
On the creation of my reality
I am the captain of this ship
I am the mighty waves in the Ocean
I am the mermaid singing her way to victory
I am a channel for the unknown knowns
I want to believe in that that is untamed
I want to ride in the storm and face it unafraid
Guide me to the mountainous heaven
That sliver of peace I call my salvation
I will make it home, and it will not **** me
To assure myself of this is the biggest step in my own making of history

Your blue eyes sank into the pit of my belly button
Heavy breaths left my mouth like boulders rolling off the mountain side
My toes sat tight in my boots, and curled under my feet

My sister, my diver,
My seeker, my surviver
It’s been a year since our reunion
Time to us is an illusion
We came together in a time of need
Last year was real, but time moves quickly
You’ve soared high skies,
You’ve roamed the mountains,
You’ve danced in valleys,
You’ve bathed in fountians
I see myself in all that you’ve done
I see us both in constellations
Creating stars in the eternal night sky
Dance with me, let’s polarize

Sundown after the charcoal town
We've been burning since December
I remember when you and I danced on Ice
Such a sacrifice we held together
Unweathered and untethered
Pleasured and unmeasured
You held me over your shoulders
The weight was so heavy,
And we still never sank under
What a dance
I still remember
Two bright stars over frozen layers of water
....

In this weary confusion I have come to learn that I have never stood alone
I have never placed one foot in front of the other without another
This body is not who I am nor who I was meant to be
I am the soul inside that is actually living
Breathing is the body that now is
While I am here and can actually see it
Here on this earth away from what we call the galaxy
Where my thoughts are connecting to
As higher intelligences are actually speaking with me
Teaching me, and guiding me
As I learn how to be
As I learn how to hear
As I learn how to see
"Ask and you shall receive"
But first you must know how to ask
You must learn how to listen
You must learn how to react
To the answers when they are not always so obvious
It could come from someone else's conversation
It could come from a chorus
It could come from any direction
It could be something you read
Just know it is your jurisdiction
Your truth and your truth only
Truths tend to be different
Most find mine to be far out
Too crazy for them
Wishing I'd find another route
They find too much time in their own truth to be satisfied
They live in their own fear
In a way our realities could never collide
I am stuck on this, because it has lifted me
I am now a better person
The light has touched me
Or I, it
Either way we are connected
Together we exist
Together we are working on a new world
Some day I just hope
That in my mind you will come to see this
And resurrect it

I lift myself up to the top of the crater
Holding my own hand
Because I'm the only one who can make me feel better
I reflect the mirror of a widowed soul
Easy to please because I've been growing old
The same old **** drives me crazy
Drives me in circles
Makes me feel lazy
About how I am
How I am supposed to be
Left on this planet
With no one to save me
And that is how I feel
I love my family
My family are my friends
But they don't reserect me
They can't save what they don't know is lost
They don't feel what I feel
The don't know that I'm tossed
Between life and them
Not knowing how dead - they really are
Mark my words
I'm hotter than mars
I've got this down
I know my power
I've let it set in
I'm ready to devour
The planets and all that there is
I'm ready to take it
I've already defeated it
I wait while they wander
I shoot with the stars
I quiver with fire
I'm raising the bar
I'm calling out insane
Runnin around in their maze
It's time to real you in
I'm sick of waiting
Will your consciousness already sit in?
Christ
Holy power
Raise your fist
Feel te power
Of yourself
And eternal wealth
I want you hear
Find thine eye
Heaven be clear
To me
To you
To us
Amen

It was late, and you had fallen asleep early
California love made in a cheap hotel
We started with margaritas in the moonlight
Your new favorite alcoholic beverage
Although, you hardly even started drinking yours
This time when you fell asleep I didn't want to wake you
That was different for me
I just enjoy spending time with you
But seeing you lay on those white sheets practically naked drove me wild
Those baby blue boxer briefs were killing it, those freckles on your shoulders were killing me, you were killing me -but I liked it
Death never looked so good until I saw it in the sea of your eyes

Memories exist in the feel of your love that live within the sound inside your soul
I am digging deep inside an old casket buried in a cosmic black hole
Dead as it may seem, it is alive in you
I resurrect them in organic gardening tunes
The tools I use are made for the soil in your mind
The kind that come from foreign lands
And arent easy to recognize
They bloom when I'm not looking
They manifest and shine
They act as a boomerang
They bloom on their own time
I am fortunate enough
To smell the scent of glory
The fact that they even flower
Let's me know that I am worthy
A reflection I can count on
A flower that can sing
A woman that holds power
One who doesn't need a man for anything

She'd just like to have one

Everything became abundant when I met you,  and lost at the same time
You supported a great part of me that set sail Long before I ever knew you were alive
Or existing at all
So greatly you perch yourself on the branch I have always pictured you sitting on
I have never seen you look better
As light as a feather you stand so pretty and bright
Never kept uptight or unclean
I see you and your soul so serene
........... to be continued

I have seen the circle
I have already followed through
Somehow I found myself here
Somehow I still feel you
No matter how many times I leave
Or even decide to stay
I will always want you come November
And the same with in May
I want you for all months to come
I want you and I for all to see
I want you for the stars
I want you for me
I used to sail alone
Until the moment I called you home
That was when we met the sea
The illusions passed and set us free
That time is infinite
It is forever lasting
It is past this entire world
It is why we are latching
If even only one eye could see
Our naked bodies pressed against the beach
Then everything would dissolve
And evaporate already
All that resides there is you and I
No more Mother Earth or Father Sky
I want to feel you in my bones
It is where we built our home
All these wants just to feel
Would break the White angels ancient wheel
If all our fears were colored blue
If all our time just fell right through
If all the scenes would be displayed
If all our filth would wash away
You could find me in your arms
We could eliminate the vicious swarm
Of self invested fools
Of all the ones who feel the rule
Of power with out love
How foolish to forget of  our sacred white dove
Who soars over every sea
Who watches you and me
He is the breach in our path
The forever seeking math
Of how the two of us subside
In Utopia there is you and I

My tomb stone sits on the edge of my personal expression
A lesson learned in time and in conversation
I cower at the thought of losing my own head
My own mind, and my discipline

I know how to stare him straight in the eyes
I know how to deceive him in between my thighs
I am an angel
I am a sinner, and I know how to strangle time
This is the divine era of modern waste, and sweet sublime
I am practicing a dream
I am in the center of space
I am coming together with everything that will ever take place
I am solid, after being liquid, beaten, and broken
I am here for every day that I choose to own it
I am thankful, full, and full of blood
Without you in my life
I would be drowning in the mud

My mother is my most absolute treasure
The most amazing of all or any creature
She has hidden herself at the bottom of the sea
She is holding herself out, and waiting up for me
Our minds are one alike,
but I won't give up
I am determined to repeat this rhyme
But not in the same way - she tried
And failed without recognition
She set her soul on fire,
And no one she knew was with her
She is trapped inside her own mind
She is so intuitive, with thoughts too fine
Intercepting and accepting things of the unknown
Of secret entities she unknowingly invites into her home
And tries to get along with
Every single day
She tries to make them her friends
But then they linger longer, and try to stay
She has been force fed pills her whole teenage life
And still continues to take them
She is told every time she is supposed to "embrace" them
My mother is going to be 42 years old
The government is holding her to this unrighteous mold
It is deteriorating her inner most being
They are telling her she's crazy
But they have no idea what she is hearing!
She called ME last night asking me if I was hearing voices
And she's done this before,
I used to ignore it
Surprisingly I was, I thought I was speaking to the Holy Spirit
Or some form of her, my very own mother
BEFORE I was told she had some sort of what they call a mental illness
Before I understood this different part of her..
Which by the way no one ever told me
She has had this problem only a few years after I was born
And I didn't figure it out until I was seventeen
So again, she calls me,
I think I've been speaking to her supposed lost spirit
But my mom was never gone
I had to open my mind and realize this
She just started to accept this intuitivenss
So, she asks me again if I have been hearing voices
I repeat myself, 'Yeah mom, I have"
Just so you know it wasn't that I was hearing voices,
I have been going through something similar
Accepting my own intuitiveness
Trying to climb the same pillar
She asks me this question,
If I have another mother
Do I have another mother?
I reply --- no I cry, "Of course not mom, I love you"
"What is this about? How is it that you knew"
She said sometimes some things just 'zip' though her mind
She has to address them
Especially when her only daughters state of reality is on the line
She screams back at me, it gets the best of her
"WHY DO YOU NEED TO LISTEN, WHY DO YOU NEED ANOTHER MOTHER"
She hangs up on me
I couldn't help but call her back
She acted so normal
As if what just happened wasn't real
And I don't blame her, I couldn't believe it myself
So I brought it back up
I let her know
I thought it was her
I thought it was her soul
Mom, I was listening for you
My one and only mother
My one and only star
My one and only protector
My one and only that birthed me into this earth
The one who looks at me,
And sees nothing but all I'm worth
I am her chosen one
I am her only one
We are sharing this same 'What ever you want to call it'
You can call me a Psychic,
Or tell me I'm schizophrenic
I will tell you right now I am fine
I want to deal with this
What every happening to me is so divine
My mom and I are one alike
So intuitive with thoughts too fine
But together we will fight this battle
Together we can build this mantel
And I will fight with her,
Because she fights for me
She's fighting for it ever day
And yet the world still thinks she's crazy

Time sits on our shoulders, and we dance
Holding each others hands in the sway of every number
The trinity moves faster, and we get an eternal glance
What a hollow vision it may look from the outside,
Untold and Unknown
What an honest treasure it holds when we look into each others eyes
When we are together, I run, jump, and dive right in
You are the lost image of my deepest and darkest sin
Mirror, mirror on the wall
Who is the fairest of them all?
Because I thought it was me
I thought I was everything, all in one, and everlasting
How depressing, and lonely that idea must be
Or how it was until you danced with me
I love your spirit, and am so thankful we met
I will hold you in my heart like a necklace with a locket
Thank you for being every incredible inch that you are
I will hold a place for you in the night sky,
Who would of thought you were an actual star?
Do you see all those out there? How they shine in the dark?
How we stare at them in pure fascination?
Wondering exactly what they are?
Reality is a dream, it's real, and moving fast
Remember who are or this dream will never last

Back to breath
There is nothing left
I meant what I said,
and I said what I meant
My soul is free
One hundred percent
I am an angel
This is what I have found
We work together
Intertwined we make sound
Movement serves momentum,
And holds me to the ground
Soul breaks into light
Pulls my body out of sight
But only to those who can't see
I am here to reverse your misery
I made it once,
I can do it twice
Follow me throughout the Night

The moon and I are one
Jealous is the sun
Which is why I invited him
I don't believe in sin, anymore
I adore the thought of us all being better
No matter what weather is headed our way
Because, together we can solve anything
Rearrange everything that has ever been discovered
Beautiful is the Mother that sits on our shoulders, and let's us dance
What a fantastic romance this is to be apart of
A sacred dove of a hidden memory we found together that is untouched
I love you, and I love myself
Bright moon, bleed on me
Share your wealth
I mean every poem I write
My words come from the tongue inside
The dragon in my back and forth heart
....

I am going to wake up every single morning with both eyes open
At least while I am here and I still have them
I am going to lift my chin up with every more forceful step I take
By guiding my eyes upwards I will make less mistakes
Because the air is so clean, and vision is so vivid
It does me no good with the ground consumed in it
What good is it for me to live my life on the floor?
The only reason I would stay there is for you to take more
and more
and more
from me as I molded myself
To something better for you
A higher pedestal
And I'm sorry but I'm not here for you
To walk all over
To be apart of your cruel
Selfish ways that demand other souls
Get caught in your fishing net
Of something I sometimes can not even control
I truly believe it was not all my fault
That the floor was so easily shapely
It caught my eyes in the fog
As if my mind was then tranced straight into the ground
I became hypnotized and synchronized into your sound
But to hell with you, and your fisherman's gear
******* for selfishness in keeping me there
The fact that you thought you could use me as your bottom
To cheat your way up, and hold me from my blossom
I will be better, I will be so much more
I can not afford to be your butler
I can not afford to be here as your slave
I did what I can, I gave what gave
And I will continue to give all that I have left
I will continue to push for my everlasting breath
I will be, and I am, I am here, I am now
I'm not afraid anymore, I'm not stuck in this town
But this town has got rules
I won't play the fool
Step by step I'm getting exactly where I need to
Go, and get out of here
And that made me realize
The only thing holding me back
All along has been fear

A flower is a gift
It is protection
Reflection, an unseen jurisdiction
A mask, and an illusion
It is simple, and in some instances,
Medicine
I call upon the flowers
I speak to the petals
I ask them for guidance
I treat them like angels
They are my greatest teachers
Lovers, and friends
They are the most beautiful piece of my imagination
Sacred geometic patterns locked in a single shape
They helped me open my eyes, and open a gate
Multiple moments parallel to each other
Instances that align and bring us together
Blooming ripples that flow like a river
Creating a world that is sacred and silver
Forget about karmatic gold and the gods that lost the heat
Open your eyes to idea of prosperity
Green grass and significant botanics
Trees and leaves and our ancestors of Atlantis

When I enrich new souls I open up my thoughts
I feel things that have never been thought
I touch wounds that have never been healed
I un-vacuum things that have never been sealed  
I enforce new rules to those who are naive
I am the power beyond the light you've already conceived
I am the widowed shadow of the left behind
I am the ghost that is haunting you in the trenches of your mind

I am black and ashamed
I am withered and untamed
I am  the red on your skin
I am the ultimate evil from within

I count your days until they leave
I make clocks work like famous thieves
I am Robin in the hood
I am doubt inside your golden good

That pours out from souls at sea
I am the ultimate undying plea
I am the heart inside your chest
I am what is beating,
and I am nothing less

We are real and we are now
We are the power inside the 'how'
We are what is left of humane kind
We are what is raging inside your mind
We found it here, but are blind to see
Our minds can twist together
And finally leave

To the place that we call home
Above Jerusalem, our foreign home
Where the pages once wrote before
But did no justice for what is in store
For our sacred higher selves
For you and I
Heaven, and Hell

We finally danced, and I did nothing
I couldn't have
I didn't want to
Anything I did or could do
Wouldn't have been enough
You bled into my me
You bled into my bones
We were one
I held hands with thoughts
That we together, have always shared
I had only just forgotten
You brought me back to my first breath
My first feeling of regret
I forgive you, because I understand now
Swimming in song
Singing in irreplaceable tune
Step by step swallowing me in your swoon
We danced, and I did nothing
What more could I really ever want from you?