Darkest hour
In the tallest tower
Cowering down among every lost soul
You stand alone
In forgotten tones
That fall from your tongue
And then linger

Wash me away in your tears (forever keep me here)
Dig a great deep hole
Bury the truth in the pit of your soul
Layer that diamond with every emotion ever felt
Kiss bliss goodbye until you earn it yourself

Black and white night while the heat of Jupiter sits on your shoulder
(The God of meteoric wonder)
Snow falls in middle of Summer, and still leaves you breathless
Shameless, and unknown
We have worth, you, I, and Mother
Dancing among moonlit sisters and brothers
Swaying away with the sky
Die, die, and then some
I will no longer

Wash me away in your tears (forever keep me here)

I shine at night in the pit of your soul

I envision you as a bright light, like the moon
I wave my hands over you every night in hopes of a final feeling
Your wounds are bleeding
Never healing, but always shining
The blood that pours out from your craters is stunning,
Oh so stunning, enticing
Why is it that your sickness pulls me towards you?
Why is it that the pain of being distant is so enthralling?
Your blood brings me to your home
It’s keeping me close
Tell me we belong here
Bright moon, bleed on me
I need this vision to be more than a fantacy

You filled my room with a presence it had never felt before,
I, had never felt before
Almost as if you two had met before
Almost as if you knew everything about my empty walls,
and why they were so empty
Why my clothes were piled higher than Mt. Everest
Why my pictures lay flat on my stereo,
Why the air was so frigid
As if you always knew,
and I never did

You love that too,
That I don't know.

But now I am left hanging
Like those flowers you bought for me last week
Beautiful without a doubt, and still
So beautiful through my eyes
But now,
They will hang
And hang
And hang
And I will keep them hanging
In my room, near the frigid window of mine
until you come back to my room

Maybe not so empty as before
Maybe my bed made this time
Maybe a bit warm for once
And when you come back,
I'll set them back in that same vase
And they will look just as beautiful as they did before
If not, more gorgeous than I could have ever imagined
And we will both know exactly why

I woke up in Omaha Nebraska off California street
with the sun kissing me through the open window
I woke up with no alarm,
Alarmed by the fact that I might be late for work
But I wasn't
In fact I was right ON time
Put off by the fact that it was nothing or no one that awoke me,
But my own conscious self
Knowing somehow, that even with my eyes closed
My thoughts were wide open
I was fully aware
My naked body arose from where I slept
And crept up in a home ( not of my own )
To awkwardly put on MY OWN clothes
Through someone else's window
.. I start to think ..
How often I really have put on my own clothes
Through someone else's window
Looking closely now,
I change the word 'window' to 'perception'
Kind of like my own sort of window,
My own way of perception
How often I dress myself for the occasion,
or better yet, THEIR occasion
How often I've put on those skinny jeans,
Because YOU like them
How often I wear a bra
Because you don't want to see what my *****
look like through my favorite silk shirt
When I say 'you' - You know who you are
At least, you know who you might be
How often times people do things for you
How often times you do things for other people
How often you hold yourself back from being you - at all
How many times I have held myself back from being me,
And **** it's such a shame. I am ashamed.
Honestly by the most simple things
Overthinking a compliment I want to give someone
Because we are about to pass each other on the same side of the street
Avoiding their eye contact by just looking down
And staring at my own feet

COOL. REALLY. COOL.

I have been wearing these moccasins for 4 months now, Alisha
They look good, but I already know this
I am not the one who needs to hear it
Especially, not from myself
And I don't know them at all, but maybe,
Just maybe, what I want to say to them
Could break down what we all thought was an everlasting wall
Whether it be MINE or THEIRS
At the end of the chapter,
A wall that separates us from our own freeedom
Where we break down all similar walls and learn to defeat them
If anything, a smile, maybe a compliment back,
Not even to myself, but the next person down the track
It's a small movement, but I want it to move
I am making this promise to myself,
Because I want to improve
I want to make things that are so simple
More common in this world
Things that should not be overlooked,
Spread out amongst everyone and painted on their face like a mural
Desire for this righteous fire I want to be in power of
Spreading my smile for literal miles
Like Noahs Ark and that sacred white dove
The best thing about a dove is
It is just but a white pigeon
And every pigeon is capable of finding its white dove within him

It is there, and it always has been
Right under your sleeve
In the sliver of your grin
We can make this world more than you ever imagined
The power behind the strength of passion
When people come together in the form of one
When we all hold hands
Do you know what is being done
Connection is so out of this world
Touch is what keeps us in this treacherous swirl
Deadly sins that we latch on to
Riding the dragon is what we need to
Do, and do again
Tell the entire world, and invite all your friends
We are all Great Gods in this lonesome kingdom
The path to aloness is what is hidden underneath you
Very beneath you, you will have to fight
Fight to the death of your ego inside
It holds no mold, despite all you have been told
This world will **** you in,
and drag down your immortal soul
It is there, and it always has been
I will show you the road
Soften your ego, and create a new mold
You could stay here forever if what you look for is gold
Not the the gold that you see, but the gold that you feel
Not in front of your eyes, but what is actually real
No picture or place, No space or time
Use what you want to invent your new rhyme
Rhythm is now, rhyming is here
The goal of music
(Your mathematical medicine, my dear)
Replace your body with tunes of the soul
Sing the great white song
And let the youth be OH SO BOLD
Bolder than you could have possibly pictured
The movie you've been waiting for
Is your motion picture
Event, that is happening now
Sit back and enjoy
Those who don't know are your crowd


That in itself is exceptionally sad
Why would you leave behind your loved ones
Your mom or your dad
Your sister or brother
Your dead cousin or grandmother
They have no conscious awareness
It was never their fault
It was never their meaning to forever fall
The change of pace is now in your hands
This entire universe is inside you,
Give awareness a chance
Keep guiding yourself towards this lightning bolt feeling
Let it live inside you
Realize what your keeping
To yourself and not sharing
This selfishness will sink
It is absolutely more powerful than you could possibly think
It is the path to aloneness,
but who wants to be alone?
We could all share this peace
Let us connect and hold hands
Give our dark sins the golden control

Used to the rock
That still sits in my front yard
You moved it last Wednesday
And now its next Friday
It still sits three feet
From the front of my stairway
I leave every morning
And then it reminds me
I cant bare to move it
Your name sits upon it
You claim that your weight
Will hold everything that molds us
The beauty of nothing
That has become everything
To me

The preasure being released from my body feels like jumping into cold water
The release of what has nothing to do with me anymore is no longer limited
I am refreshed and cleansed of what weighed me down before I came up for air
I am a masterpiece waiting to be painted
I am an ocean that everyone swims in
I AM LOVE
I am the boat that carries you to that island
I am the impossible made possible
I am the unquestionable answer you have been waiting for
I am what you have been waiting for,
Because I am powerful
I am willing, AND able
I am beautiful, because I wanted be
I am here, because I chose to be
I am a light, because I am sick of the dark
Hold my hand as I dive into my next adventure
I want to take you with me to that Island
I want the cold water to release you from what was, and realign you with what is
How much more infinate could one possibly get?

In a past life I was absurd
Ridiculous, crazy, enraged
With passion
Looked at as unstable
I was unable to communicate
My reality, my mind, my vitality
To myself, it, was still a mystery
Unsolved, yet of course diagnosed
Voices plus visions equals exclusion
Exclusion subtracts being able to interact
With anything actually worth seeing
Or being a part of
Four pale walls
A plank nailed to one side
A bucket to **** in
The only security left
Was within my own eyes
And I couldn't even get a ******* mirror

Every single day inside my own mind
Conversing with Neptune
And the Keepers of Time
Pleiadian lover
Moon dust from down under
I weep!
No one here hears my cry
I am destined for this room
For the rest of this entire life
Sacred words that were once spoken
Arose at the most absolute worst moment
Now a fool I look to be
No one sees what I see!

So I let myself go
Returned home and found peace
Settled my thoughts
Calm the storms of the sea that I see
My ship has been rebuilt
I am now setting sail
The wind is blowing in a new direction
There is no doubt I will prevail

In this life to be I might be considered
Absurd, ridiculous, crazy, and enraged
With passion
But this time more stable
Able to communicate
Reality, mind, vitality
It still may be some what of a mystery
Unsolved, yet no need for diagnosis
I was taught in better ways
I now know how to own this
I am the greatest me I have ever been
I am back with a vengeance
I am Carma's daughter
Preaching the power of reverence
Right now I am still learning
Yearning, and searching for new answers
Asking questions that hardly make sense
Because everyone else is still afraid of this power!
I want to know!
I want to see!
I allow the grace of these visions
To bless themselves up on me

In this life I might be considered
Absurd, ridiculous, crazy, and enraged

I just don't ******* care anymore

The path to your own heart has a bridge that you built, but can't cross
The river flowing underneath strikes up currents in your mind that cause you to feel lost
These wavelengths of confusion **** you right in
You forget about the bridge in the first place, and start swimming against them
In perfect theory you just want to reach the other side,
But nothing's ever perfect, right?
Especially when this is something you started yourself, and backwards seems like down and confusion takes you south
For the winter, and now you're in freezing water
[This is dangerous ground]
If the ice freezes over
You will be held captive under
There are equal people on the other side of the bridge you built
Asking for your hand
But you won't reach out
You doubt the help that the ones who love you offer
They're right in front of you,
But you don't even bother
"I can do this alone"
"Everyone look at me"
"I'm the King of my bridge"
Wait, did you forget you were drowning?
A potential King, maybe
But for now that's a fantasy
If you reached out your hand
You might find fellow company
Of people who are riding the exact same wave
Of people who also are lost in the game
We all built a bridge, and it's hard to get over
Think of how much easier it would be to get across it together
Two is better than one,
And that's why we are divided
Take pride in your individuality
But don't be mislead by it
The currents are only as strong as you want them to be
If anything I'll tell you, I found this in me
I believe it so much
It's why I am writing
This isn't just a poem about a boy and a bridge
This is my vision, and I want to actually teach it
And I will, absolutely nothing is in my way
I'm still crossing my bridge to this very day
It's all part of this journey,
And I didn't get where I am alone
We are equal parts of this river
And I want to help sail us home

I found myself in the most strangest place
Where strangers around me
Practice the same pace
They work to bleed
The have a love for greed
They keep way too much stuff to themselves
Acting like it's Black Friday with the last Iphone5 on the shelf
It's so simple to remember the things that bring us down
It is actually too simple to forget how you became apart of this town
Why you lead yourself to become who are
Why you choose to lead a certain group of stars
It is everything you, my dear live for
And are living for in this very moment
You are here, there is nothing more to it
I feel you in my veins
I see your soul in the race
For true victory, the meaning behind the prophecy
That you wrote,
And will lead us home
Where we won't be alone
Where we won't have to worry
About decision making that has to do with
If I do or do not want to stop at Mc Donalds
For an M&M; mcflurry
Find beauty in this Earth that brought you here
Find a true passion for why you would want dance with her
Play around with the bars
Sing to new heights and became a shining star
She wants you to be alive
So live through each other
And into the unknown we will guide each other
And into the unknown we will show our sisters and brothers
To each there own, but I am taking this risk
I hope each and every one of you find at least something out of this

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This is what the world has become
This is what it all boils down to
This is my emo blog for you
Literally. This is it.
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I kissed the mist of leftover blood on my tongue when you sang
How sweetly your voice did sound against the rain
Against the thunder
Against your mother
How dare you!
To still bring about silent thunder
Quiet against the grain of your skin
Even then still so soft
I continue to ponder
About the thought of sancuary
Something so sacred and legendary
I could fall to my knees
If I had any
Let the light that is leading reign
Embrace true victory
Stay

So I've got this weird thing for olda daddies
I like that they're bald and ride around with the caddies
At the golf course on Sundays
Probably with they're olda babies
(which really means wife)
But that doesn't phase me!
Sometimes an olda daddy isn't even really an olda daddy
Sometimes it's my good friend Max,
but that doesn't make him too happy
Sometimes it's my friend Even,
But Ev the man doesn't mind!
He's got cool olda daddy hair and a fresh olda daddy mind!
He embraces his oldest olda daddy self!
He knows whats up!
He feels rich in his olda daddy wealth!
Because, not all of my friends are olda daddies
And Even is aware of this, his girlfriend is Cassie
And that's my friend too, don't get me wrong
But Cassie's a younga babby, this is a whole different song
We sing together, we drop all the baby beats
We'll drop them on you any time that we please
You never know what to expect from us younga babies
We show up out of nowhere and drive you mad crazy
That's what's so special about us babies in the world
Doesn't matter who you are, boy or girl
Everyone on earth gets pretty weird sometimes,
But us babies take the cup! That should ease your mind anytime!
Olda this, olda that, younga who, younga why
Come on gang, let yourself go!
I want to see you all give your inner baby it's best try!

I write new pages every day
Different articles to display
Black and White
Always uptight
Comics in color
The only reason you even bother
Because laughter makes it all worth while
You don't care about the front page
You want that extra mile
The hidden pages
The ones in the middle
The ones you have to dig for
Confirming the riddle
Everything else is such a joke
Just like the news papers
The absolute greatest hoax
No one gives a ****
At least the 'no ones' who understand
The ones who think outside the box
The ones who give the universe a chance
The things that seem so out of this world truly are
And they aren't displayed so grey
They are true work of art
For you, the alienated mind
They want you to feel demented
But you're way ahead of the times
And if you really knew that
You would be ahead
Of them
And they can't let you know that
We'd out number them by so many
They'd **** their pants
And lose this entire country
What they don't realize
Is that they are invited too
I see them as me
We are all apart of the truth
There doesn't have to be one better than the other
If we saw the harmony in this
Everything would come together
This entire world
The end of suffering
Enlightenment for all
True peace everlasting
That every soul truly desires
But if you see this as too cliche
Stay here in this hell
Watch everything you think you live for go to waste
Your mind holds a very real power
Brighter than lightning
Louder than thunder
I've seen it work out
I've been to the heavens and back
The secret is already here
Earth IS where it's at
Come along if you want
Because I am destined to recover
I am destined to bring some of you with me
Trust the thoughts that make you shutter
Trust the most refused thoughts in your mind
Like playing with fire or traveling time
The fact that you even think you can do that makes it possible
It makes it evident
It makes it unstoppable
The first step is belief in this system
Outside your programmed thinking
This comes way more natural
Mother Earth is on your side
Put the newspapers away
And starting taking pride
Own up to what's yours
Take it back
Watch my bizarre words come to life
It's not just an act

***** your direction, your movement, your view
It still finds no place with me
***** your depth in attraction to me, too
It means nothing, I mean nothing
[ But really I do ]
Everything that has become about you
Is so skewed and tethered
Like a wick swallowed by a melted candle
I will have to dig to make you burn in front of me again

It is not just you; it is everything
I feel something so serene about this year
I feel a forgotten presence when you are here
Like you have chased me to this day
This moment, hour, minute, second
Like you have chased me beyond this time,
Because there is no more room for any of it
I will finally see the one of two
I can finally see my unforgotten moon
So simple and secure, no time or measure
I have sailed our lost and found seas
I have reached a diameter where we can finally meet
Again

Part of this is you, but a great amount is me
How many times I have called you home
How many suns I have set free
How many times I will say how many
Or use the word time in plenty

I am sick and ugly
I am alone and blind
Distance makes me lonely
And the sun seem so unkind
When I realize these things
When I open up my eyes
When I see you as the moon
I put the sun between my thighs
I spread my legs wide open
and invite you back inside
to where everything began
and the entire universe collides

Part of this is you, but a great amount is me
How many times I have called you home
How many suns I have set free
How many times I will say how many
Or use the word time in plenty

Because time does not exist,
And I want you home already

I am not angry
I am just prying away at the things that do not make me happy
I have allowed layers of grief to add up, and consume me
I will not anymore
I am stronger than before
These things that have connected, and became
Are dark shadows I lingered on,
Because I couldn't label them or give them a name
- they didn't deserve one
They never will
They wanted to take me away
From the flower that bloomed on Grandma's hill

I am the seed
I am the stem
I am the flower
I am the end
When I'm dome
I'll bloom again

Multiple cowards in the same room
I don't approve, nor do I care
I don't belong, and I feel strongly
About that, what an act
You carry it so well
Welcome to the side
Of youre own beautiful Hell
I will watch you and I will watch you well
It's all time anyways
That is what takes us away
That is what brings us home

My light when out when I thought we were invisible
When I thought I could reach the top with out you
I just sank, and fell deep into the darkest oblivion
I am sorry, and I forgot
I am weeping, and I am hollow
I am ashamed, and I feel it in my gut
Pressure is pulsing inside my head
To the thickness of your heartbeat, and I know it
I can apologize one thousand times but It just won't cut it
I made a mistake, and I can't change that
I had my head lost in time, and I can't go back
This reality has consumed me
I am here, and I always will be
I found myself where I shouldn't have
Now I hurt the greatest part of me

(you)

I have known you forever,
And sometimes you are sitting right in front me
L I T E R A L L Y
On my living  room floor
In the passenger seat if my car
In my work place waiting for me up at the bar
But this world holds us back,
We don't know how to act
We don't know what we see
Or how to perceive
So we continue in our every day motions
With what the world tells us go with
How to flow, with what we think we know
I'm aware, and it makes me scared.
All I want to see is you,
Even though these tacks restrain me back
In the back of my mind, I still do.

I don't know if I have been covering myself up
If I have been letting myself down
Or if these two things are one in the same
But I am in the middle of making sense of it
I don't know anything,
and I don't want to

I am currently filthy
I have collected thoughts that are starting to mold
Allowing them to become me
Leaving me empty, tired, and cold
I am killing myself slowly with these thoughts
Trapping myself, and ****** myself of my own freedom
Repeatedly throughout every day
It's completely unfair to who I know I really am
Beauty, grace, rhythm, and balance
The fog seems so thick,
Making me wonder if I can even grasp them
I know it's silly to see myself this way
I know it's where I am, and not where I will stay
But it is hard right now
It is a challenge
I need a push, not a distraction
I am choosing to go forward
Fix myself of these things
Cut the mold out,
and let these thoughts rot away
They aren't me, and they never were
Time is so cheap sometimes
Everything still seems like a blur

I'm in love with my life,
but where are you?
I can not find you anywhere,
or in anyone
in anything thing
or any being
I am trying
and I can not get over that
That I am trying
"You can't miss what you forget"
but there isn't even anything left
It's all I have
You're all that I have
You are all that I have ever had
and I can not escape that
I can not escape it
I can not escape you
I can not erase you
You are everlasting within my mind
Over anywhere
anyone, anything, or any being
It's an everlasting cycle that I can not beat
And somehow my heart,
it keeps beating,
and beating, and beating, and beating
but only for you
I am forever in love with you
and I always will be
There is no beating the beating

This melting wave of static inhales me when I think of you
It carries me away on our ship we bought last Summer
The waves we ride on are far from the Ocean,
But the water we sail on guides us to our heaven
Let the moon guide the sun to her everlasting heaven
Let the moon sail on waters you thought were forbidden
Let the moon see the sun striped naked and undone
Let the moon be the one to first kiss the sun
Let the moon be in love, let the moon finally see
That what has been holding them back all along were you and me

This romance, the dance, this chance
Has left me in the rubble
Climbing mountains, and taking hikes
Feel subtle compared to where you have left me
I stare into the abyss
Wishing for a kiss from someone
Who understands attraction
Who understands reaction
Who takes me for who I am
Not some outdated faction
I am stronger than these conversations
I am more than these personalizations
I am not wrong in thinking I am more than these realizations
These people are not free
They are confining me to their reality
That I want no part in
Where I am not sacred
And I am
I AM AND I ALWAYS WILL BE
But just because you don't understand doesn't mean I don't want you with me
This is why I still hang on to you...

I write about days I hate
I write about boys
I write about Pleaidians
I write about chips ahoy
I like cookies a lot,
But I like aliens more
I like being a girl
Some people think I'm a *****
This one is for me
This one is it
A poem for my life
A somewhat sum of it
I like to write about falling in love
Falling out, down, or around love
I like falling
Fast, and with passion
I like catching my breath
When something sudden happens
I like closing my eyes
I like playing with my fears
I like challenging myself,
Because I know I can hadle it
I am harder than stone,
I am tougher than scales
I am coming on fast
I am now setting sail
Do not doubt what you can not understand
If you can comprehend one thing
It's that I am taking a stand
I am smart
I am right
I write within my own truth
I know what I am doing
This I promise you
Just hold on real tight
Preserver, and follow through
Be kind, and continue to work in the name of peace
I sincerely love you

The love that binds us has been forever intertwined
I found it yesterday, today, and I will find it again tomorrow
I have found it now within myself, and here with you alone
We are all alone, and that is understood
The power of one goes beyond time,
Because time is a concept we have habitually been seized to
This love that binds us is strong without reason
No reason to not accept that it is held within you now
The inevitable reason of why
I found it yesterday, today, and I will find it again tomorrow

Feeling-
Overwhelmed is an understatement
Feet winded with this pavement
So many places for me to go
Memory overflowing
As eyes open my front window
Vision-
Ascending into the next dimension
Freeing myself of my own prison
I am over it, above it, and beyond it
I am resurrected, a prophet
My true identity will unlock this
Power-
Mother after my own heart
Creating such beautiful works of art
Magnanimous changes that will occur
Soon to be the most awe inspiring picture
I am overwhelmed, but I am happening
Change-

I can not breath when Neptune pierces my throat with a lightning bolt
Blue and gold blisters rise on my porcelain skin
I make way inside the black whole to nowhere
Thank you, god of thunder
I gaze in wonder of how all is meant to be
May the grace of greatest heavens rain,
Pour down all over me

Many suns ago, I lost my moon.
My moon, the rest of my being,
The other half of who I claim to be.
My greatest peace of me, and yes
I mean peace.
The evident light that filled my darkest craters.
The rest of my sentence,
Each time I opened my mouth
As if ingesting holy water,
You filled me up.

Too many suns ago, I lost my moon.
So long ago that I have learned to keep up with the sun.
Not only the sun, but everything he claims to be.
He leaves staggered directions all around me.
The sun is vicious, for he can not feel.
At least, not like you, my moon.
That ****** sun.
He will hold you or he will destroy you.
All I truly want is to be held.
Sweet moon, will you ever hold me again?
The sun has deceived me,
and I fear that he always will.

It was me all along
It has been me all along
I am here
I am now
I forget sometimes
I remember now
I am always here
I can always return
Oh, how easy it is to leave
Oh, how easy it is to forget

I remember now
I have always been here
Right here
Right now

Sun strikes me in passionate view
Setting sail to the taste of comfort
Blankets of shadows that once were
Unfold

They always unfold

Emotions sprout as I lay them down
Blooming words too beautiful to shout
Caught in the whisper of my own tongue
Quiet

I am never quiet

Loud are your curls like tangled branches
Shaking hands with the wind
As they fall down like avalanches
Touch

I always want your touch

In the dark of the night I find myself in a stutter
Far gone is the space between us
Your clothes spread around my room
Clutter

The picture I have painted is fading

I am only but a fraction of energy

Breathing the same dust of emotions you are

you are and I am

We come from all energies

We absorb what we want

We dismiss what we feel is necessary

We glow, we shine, we consume, we exhale

We are only what we want to be

What do you want to be?

How do you want to act?

Where do you want to be?

How do you want react?

We glow, we shine, we consume, we exhale

These particle will last a lifetime

You are part of this lifetime

you are and I am

The unimaginable

the impossible, made possible,

by you

you are and I am, we

we are one in the same

These particles will last a lifetime

WE

we are one in the same

we are the same

you are and I am

I really like my used old boots
The ones that I've really walked in
The ones that I've actually been places in
That remind me of things I often forget
The steps I've taken
That put me on this path
That I currently walk in this time
Now
The only place I've really ever been
Here
I laugh at the thought of only being here now
Like I've never been anywhere else
But I can't go back to yesterday
And I can't skip to next Tuesday
So I might as well just stay here now
And wake up here
Keep adapting to the footsteps
Make them brandnew somehow every day
Push myself to believe
That in the end I just might stay
Ink in my own message or passage on a wall
To remind myself there that I am here after all

The fact that we found each other is pure
Simply pure
I couldn't have asked anyone or anything
for a better cure
A cure for the pain
A cure for the rain
That embodies my soul every day after day
That leads me to feel this sort of dis function
That brought me to realize the structure of junction
Of evil and right
Of good and insight
Of leveling out darkness and light
Together in two
Of how I met you
The actual reason of why I need to
Live in this day
And feel every ray
Of sunshine and moonlight
Of quivering upright
How living in Hell
Will break our outer shell
And teach us live
And teach us to give
And teach us to love
And teach us to laugh
And teach us the strength
Of the the golden brick path
That leads us to our next hour
The amazing rich power
Of life after death
When we give our last breath
To those who don't know
Of those who don't glow
Why we must preach the way
Of light and dismay
Of how we need both
To build our new boat
And sail us away
To our next patterns day
Where we will meet again
In a new realm of friends
Where we will all live in light
In love and insight
Where darkness met light
And won the last fight
Where there are no more scars
No more counting your lucky stars
The sky will see again
My lost love and best friend
We need to be loud
We need to be proud
Scream and yell, raise it up
You have been living in Hell
You don't need to stay here
Forever synchronized is you and me now
Sing and give praise
Not to god but to you
I raise my glass to the sacred blue sky
A toast to the universe
A drink for all your worth
You deserve this fine sip
The savory taste on you lips
Together we will all sink
Into the great unknown
Put the crown on your king
For the world is your thrown

I question
My very own gut, my very own center, my very own vision
It feels like a splinter

I want it out, I can not swallow, I have no grip
My rib cage, hallow

Button up the idea behind my feelings for you
I lack motivation to secure a dying dream
I lack thirst for the adventure
I lack patience for this frightful endeavor

You made it this way
I picked the book, but you keep flipping the page
I am hooked somewhere in the beginning
Ground beneath me still spinning
Round, and round the clock I go
Numbers press on 'til you come home

I cant really explain it
But I can obtain it
And I love that I know it
I really am so into you
This vortex is crazy
And it really pulls me
So alive, and living
Past, future, happening
Now, I am so into you
Pulling me hypnitically
Listening so intuitively
So quickly inside my own being
Alone, universe I call to you
Shining brightly
More vivid than lightening
In the dark I am glowing
I am so into you

The moonshine is everything
The soul from which I sing
What keeps me whole,
here, and clean
The brightest light I bow to
The only crown I vow to
Hold in my hands and not on my head
For I am not dying, or ever dead
I never cowered, I never sank
You were always here
We share this plank
For without you I could not see through these eyes
For without you we were never synchronized
For without you life was never real
Reality's goal is to unbreak your seal
Set your soul free, allow yourself to heal
Take the bandages off
Let the sun melt the snow
Hold my hand through this winter
I'll guide you to your show
Follow me when you catch your brig break
Remember the time and what was at stake
How you came so close to what you had left
The people you left behind
Your family and friends
But if we all were the same
If we all looked alive
Nothing would stop us
We all would collide
and bind into those who deserved us
The separate forms off the moonlight in One
How perception will change
Never fade and go on
I look up to you
I never want to sink
Keep my heart for ever guided
and my mentality a full tank

I understand that I do not
I embrace the fact that I still try
To this day to move forward
To the thundering steps along
The wheel of illusion
Fusion between my vision
Along with perception of division
I want to honor this conclusion
Stitch back every false incision
I will dance if you dance with me
Hold my hand, and join the party
My thoughts follow the white rabbit
Into her own black abyss
Red eyes shot like diamonds
Color blinded by unknown bliss
It is there, and it always has been
Embrace what you find
Do not get lost in silence
Patience

Spirit that I feel within me outside this earth,
Where have you gone?
I once knew you like the lines in my palm.
I had them memorized.
Key word is, memorized.
You probably thought I'd say 'had'
But that is not the key word,
'Had' IS the key.
I had you so close.
Had. Have. They are so similar,
Yet so unfortunately different.
I know we'll have again.
It's just not our time.
But, what is time?
And, can we really have our own?
You said it so.
So, ill believe.
And in my belief, we will still have
Everything we could ever dream

You know that feel? It's all in a song
A wave of emotion literally rushes
From the very ends of your toes,
To your stomach,
To your mind,
And forces the most genuine smile on your face,
You close your eyes,
You are being lifted,
Almost carried away,
But, not quite
You're still here,
Waving your emotions
To the rhythm of the song
Through your body, repeatedly
Over and over, (I repeat)
Over and over
You know that wonderful feel? It's all in a song

Seek the unexpected
Watch it all be resurrected
Watch the full moon
Be apart of the swoon
It holds you close
Supports your ghost
Waves you in
Is paper thin
Belongs to the keepers
Never telling their secrets
Of what is to come
Watch your words
And don't play dumb
They are out there,
They are tar black
Covered with skin
Because they lack
The actual realness of their reality
Of brainwash and conformity
Be strong and follow the light
Praise yourself and your insight
Of intuition
The fruit of vision
**** sweet juice from heaven
And don't get lost in this forgotten prison

People are a remembrance of what truly ever was
Still bound to the performance of what they think actually is
The illusion they are presented is small tid bit of a mention
Of the world they are living in
The beginning of the end
That never truly has to
When you own up to your station
Bringing up a nation
Of everlasting love
The trees will whisper secrets
And pass them off to the doves
That before were once pigeons
Yet took on the test that was given
And turned their brown beak to black
Brought down the sack
Of glory that will rise
As long as you open up your eyes
Be humble in your demise
You will still rise to your kingdom

All that is left is your magnamous freedom