I write about days I hate
I write about boys
I write about Pleaidians
I write about chips ahoy
I like cookies a lot,
But I like aliens more
I like being a girl
Some people think I'm a *****
This one is for me
This one is it
A poem for my life
A somewhat sum of it
I like to write about falling in love
Falling out, down, or around love
I like falling
Fast, and with passion
I like catching my breath
When something sudden happens
I like closing my eyes
I like playing with my fears
I like challenging myself,
Because I know I can hadle it
I am harder than stone,
I am tougher than scales
I am coming on fast
I am now setting sail
Do not doubt what you can not understand
If you can comprehend one thing
It's that I am taking a stand
I am smart
I am right
I write within my own truth
I know what I am doing
This I promise you
Just hold on real tight
Preserver, and follow through
Be kind, and continue to work in the name of peace
I sincerely love you

Comfort never held me back like you before
Your wavey blue eyes bound me in dispositon
That sandy blonde hair of yours reminded me of crystal beaches back home
Little fish swam by the shoar and waved hello at our first encounter
They built a moat around Venus to protect me from the loss of my memory
I am trying so hard to forget you already
You are simply beautiful,
And I am painfully sorry
I am weeping in my dreams
How are you still so far from me?

All you are is me me me
I mean that literally
When you are so involved in me
While I am trying to see you
You simply disappear
And I can't get through to you
Way down in the deepest of your heart caves
I know you reside in your own heaven
I know you see the light
I know you also wallow in it
May other angels guide you home
May you live the day to walk down that thrown
I apologize again for not having the patience
I have to come first
That is just the way my life goes
I will pray for you
As I still continue to guide your existence
Just from an angle you would least expect it
Maybe change my name
Or manifest
Find a way through the Holy Gates
To help you help yourself
You really do deserve this

I can not breath when Neptune pierces my throat with a lightning bolt
Blue and gold blisters rise on my porcelain skin
I make way inside the black whole to nowhere
Thank you, god of thunder
I gaze in wonder of how all is meant to be
May the grace of greatest heavens rain,
Pour down all over me

Wash me away in your tears (forever keep me here)
Dig a great deep hole
Bury the truth in the pit of your soul
Layer that diamond with every emotion ever felt
Kiss bliss goodbye until you earn it yourself

Black and white night while the heat of Jupiter sits on your shoulder
(The God of meteoric wonder)
Snow falls in middle of Summer, and still leaves you breathless
Shameless, and unknown
We have worth, you, I, and Mother
Dancing among moonlit sisters and brothers
Swaying away with the sky
Die, die, and then some
I will no longer

Wash me away in your tears (forever keep me here)

I shine at night in the pit of your soul

It was me all along
It has been me all along
I am here
I am now
I forget sometimes
I remember now
I am always here
I can always return
Oh, how easy it is to leave
Oh, how easy it is to forget

I remember now
I have always been here
Right here
Right now

Just know your secret is safe with me
I wait on the empty sheets of my bed
Dreaming of the day you come home
Tossing and turning awake I will lay
Thinking of all the ways in this reality
I could have possibly made to make you stay

Following my heart is never the easy part of any journey I take on
Following my heart means leaving him behind
Following my heart takes away any certainty I thought I might of had
It's always where I need to be, but hardly every where I go
I never follow like I know I should
It already took me a long time in the beginning to figure this out
I feel like a coward, a queen who dropped her crown in the dark
It's hidden beneath me at the bottom
Skimming this lonely wave of what I call the floor
I can't pick it up, because if I do
If I do, I will run, and I will keep running, and no one will stop me
No one can stop me, and that scares me
It also amazes me, and makes me realize how powerful I actually am
I used to be afraid to use the word 'power'
But I am starting to realize that power is not a rotting principle
It is the way it can be used, and it has been given a bad name
I want to change that, as I continue to change myself
I am aiming past the stars, because I know there is magic out there
I know there are secrets out there
Secrets that I have full possession of
If I allow myself to stand the **** up
Open my eyes, and breath in the unknown
I am everything, and nothing all in the same
Knowledge beyond my own years, because I know they don't exist
I have done this before, so what the hell is stopping me now?

Everything became abundant when I met you,  and lost at the same time
You supported a great part of me that set sail Long before I ever knew you were alive
Or existing at all
So greatly you perch yourself on the branch I have always pictured you sitting on
I have never seen you look better
As light as a feather you stand so pretty and bright
Never kept uptight or unclean
I see you and your soul so serene
........... to be continued

Multiple cowards in the same room
I don't approve, nor do I care
I don't belong, and I feel strongly
About that, what an act
You carry it so well
Welcome to the side
Of youre own beautiful Hell
I will watch you and I will watch you well
It's all time anyways
That is what takes us away
That is what brings us home

I question
My very own gut, my very own center, my very own vision
It feels like a splinter

I want it out, I can not swallow, I have no grip
My rib cage, hallow

Button up the idea behind my feelings for you
I lack motivation to secure a dying dream
I lack thirst for the adventure
I lack patience for this frightful endeavor

You made it this way
I picked the book, but you keep flipping the page
I am hooked somewhere in the beginning
Ground beneath me still spinning
Round, and round the clock I go
Numbers press on 'til you come home

Sun strikes me in passionate view
Setting sail to the taste of comfort
Blankets of shadows that once were
Unfold

They always unfold

Emotions sprout as I lay them down
Blooming words too beautiful to shout
Caught in the whisper of my own tongue
Quiet

I am never quiet

Loud are your curls like tangled branches
Shaking hands with the wind
As they fall down like avalanches
Touch

I always want your touch

In the dark of the night I find myself in a stutter
Far gone is the space between us
Your clothes spread around my room
Clutter

The picture I have painted is fading

Blue like the skies among wolves
I howl away the feeling of being alone
My pack waits upon mountains I can not reach

I remember when I used to chase the moon
The biggest drink of water I have ever had
I remember when, and that's why it pains me

I remember the touch of your trance
The sallow of your soul
The fire I would feel in the cold of the night
The colors you would exchange through the eclipse of your kiss
You left me unsettled
With thousands of things like these to miss

Years have passed while I pass in this life

White like the snow that melts under my feet
Washing away this sense of defeat
I will follow the river that flows down stream
Backward reflection of my watery heartbeat

My tummy sits full
While my chest buries me
Back stands straight
Feet kept clean
I will wrestle 'til the end of this lonesome night
Spirit be with me
Kiss me until I explode
Kiss me into infinity
Kiss me until you are apart of me
We, that is what we are
Like wolves on the mountains
Like the moon to the stars

My words can only speak so much
Winds that blow south
Offer a much greater touch
Traveling on and far away from the cold
Like reverence itself
Creating a new mold
of culture and being
of thinking and seeing
Karma herself alive and showing
you what it takes
to make or break yourself
Because its all up to you
Dont devour your own hell

Don't leave the room because I'm scared
I dared you to come closer
I let you look into my eyes
I asked you to take pictures
I would do just that for you
If I didn't scare you just the same
If our souls weren't already intertwined
As if we didn't already know we knew what to say

Fear is always at the bottom of the caves in our hearts
Fear is always in the way of love when it starts
Blossoms blooming because we both see the light
Making our hearts braid together and putting fear out of sight

If I sit and stare at a blank wall I could think of a billion things in one hour
If I sit and stare at mural I could still think of a billion things in just one hour
The difference in thought would be extreme
I'd start from scratch by staring into a blank abyss
I'd start in the midst of a billion by staring straight into a colored cave
The blank wall would allow me to go anywhere
The mural would keep me confined to the colors and pictures
Framed imagination that still soars
Among a wondrous plane
But starting from scratch would still do the same
Igniting an idea that did not start with a frame
I am allowing myself to light a new flame
Game changer
Idealistic match maker!
I will forget what my parents taught me
Bombard my future with my own colored view
Far out stars that have been found missing
End up on canvases as enamored hues
Galaxy speak to me with this pen
Let my mind be open to you
Let the strokes of my wrist wave this rhythm
Make my dreams come true
Colored murals that once were
I still seek anew
Time is changing
I am here to rescue you

I was sent here to rescue you

In a past life I was absurd
Ridiculous, crazy, enraged
With passion
Looked at as unstable
I was unable to communicate
My reality, my mind, my vitality
To myself, it, was still a mystery
Unsolved, yet of course diagnosed
Voices plus visions equals exclusion
Exclusion subtracts being able to interact
With anything actually worth seeing
Or being a part of
Four pale walls
A plank nailed to one side
A bucket to **** in
The only security left
Was within my own eyes
And I couldn't even get a ******* mirror

Every single day inside my own mind
Conversing with Neptune
And the Keepers of Time
Pleiadian lover
Moon dust from down under
I weep!
No one here hears my cry
I am destined for this room
For the rest of this entire life
Sacred words that were once spoken
Arose at the most absolute worst moment
Now a fool I look to be
No one sees what I see!

So I let myself go
Returned home and found peace
Settled my thoughts
Calm the storms of the sea that I see
My ship has been rebuilt
I am now setting sail
The wind is blowing in a new direction
There is no doubt I will prevail

In this life to be I might be considered
Absurd, ridiculous, crazy, and enraged
With passion
But this time more stable
Able to communicate
Reality, mind, vitality
It still may be some what of a mystery
Unsolved, yet no need for diagnosis
I was taught in better ways
I now know how to own this
I am the greatest me I have ever been
I am back with a vengeance
I am Carma's daughter
Preaching the power of reverence
Right now I am still learning
Yearning, and searching for new answers
Asking questions that hardly make sense
Because everyone else is still afraid of this power!
I want to know!
I want to see!
I allow the grace of these visions
To bless themselves up on me

In this life I might be considered
Absurd, ridiculous, crazy, and enraged

I just don't ******* care anymore

Locked in a tower of undivided attention in my mind
I hear myself plea in a race for time
Im not sure what for just yet
But my head is aching and I need to rest
Settle down and be at ease
Calm the waves of the seas that I see
The ones that make me feel heavy
The rolling tides that roar over
And turn into rivers
That flow down my nose
As I desperately recover
I have tried many times
Yet still continue
But I fear my boat is sinking
And I'm not sure who to turn to

In this weary confusion I have come to learn that I have never stood alone
I have never placed one foot in front of the other without another
This body is not who I am nor who I was meant to be
I am the soul inside that is actually living
Breathing is the body that now is
While I am here and can actually see it
Here on this earth away from what we call the galaxy
Where my thoughts are connecting to
As higher intelligences are actually speaking with me
Teaching me, and guiding me
As I learn how to be
As I learn how to hear
As I learn how to see
"Ask and you shall receive"
But first you must know how to ask
You must learn how to listen
You must learn how to react
To the answers when they are not always so obvious
It could come from someone else's conversation
It could come from a chorus
It could come from any direction
It could be something you read
Just know it is your jurisdiction
Your truth and your truth only
Truths tend to be different
Most find mine to be far out
Too crazy for them
Wishing I'd find another route
They find too much time in their own truth to be satisfied
They live in their own fear
In a way our realities could never collide
I am stuck on this, because it has lifted me
I am now a better person
The light has touched me
Or I, it
Either way we are connected
Together we exist
Together we are working on a new world
Some day I just hope
That in my mind you will come to see this
And resurrect it

People are a remembrance of what truly ever was
Still bound to the performance of what they think actually is
The illusion they are presented is small tid bit of a mention
Of the world they are living in
The beginning of the end
That never truly has to
When you own up to your station
Bringing up a nation
Of everlasting love
The trees will whisper secrets
And pass them off to the doves
That before were once pigeons
Yet took on the test that was given
And turned their brown beak to black
Brought down the sack
Of glory that will rise
As long as you open up your eyes
Be humble in your demise
You will still rise to your kingdom

All that is left is your magnamous freedom

My poetry doesn't really make sense to anyone but me
Begging myself to get down on my knees
And pray to myself
Because I'm my only god
I'm the only one in power
Of my every single thought
Only I know what I think
What is real and what is not
I pray to myself in hopes I will listen
Hoping I will someday soon own up to my position
When I feel let down
It is my own fault
Not because of some other person
Or some other entity of god
I am me, and that's all that there is
That's all that I'm sure of
It's really no secret
Discover the power that lies within you
Write your own book
Decide your own truth

I lift myself up to the top of the crater
Holding my own hand
Because I'm the only one who can make me feel better
I reflect the mirror of a widowed soul
Easy to please because I've been growing old
The same old **** drives me crazy
Drives me in circles
Makes me feel lazy
About how I am
How I am supposed to be
Left on this planet
With no one to save me
And that is how I feel
I love my family
My family are my friends
But they don't reserect me
They can't save what they don't know is lost
They don't feel what I feel
The don't know that I'm tossed
Between life and them
Not knowing how dead - they really are
Mark my words
I'm hotter than mars
I've got this down
I know my power
I've let it set in
I'm ready to devour
The planets and all that there is
I'm ready to take it
I've already defeated it
I wait while they wander
I shoot with the stars
I quiver with fire
I'm raising the bar
I'm calling out insane
Runnin around in their maze
It's time to real you in
I'm sick of waiting
Will your consciousness already sit in?
Christ
Holy power
Raise your fist
Feel te power
Of yourself
And eternal wealth
I want you hear
Find thine eye
Heaven be clear
To me
To you
To us
Amen

Yellow granit strikes up panic
Leaves me with the sun
Unfinished and undone
Nursing the shooting stars
Following them out far
Into the absolute greatest darkness
Living through hell
Something I can't seem to part with
Sinking my basket down to the bottom
Hoping to fish out the Devine
That I already hold in my hand
But I've lost that thought in my mind
Shattered bones make it hard to stand
My friends are so slow and not on my level to recover
I reach out my hand, but they don't even bother
My mindset is too far out for them
Under their tongue
Sadly, all they know how to do is pretend
I really am climbing the mountain
I am at my highest peak
Waiting for them
I'll stay here until you here my call
Echoing loud down the cave
Perched perfect on out holy branch
Ready to catch you when you fall
It will be your most perfect decision
Watch your thoughts unfold
Into a heavenly tangible vision

I really like my used old boots
The ones that I've really walked in
The ones that I've actually been places in
That remind me of things I often forget
The steps I've taken
That put me on this path
That I currently walk in this time
Now
The only place I've really ever been
Here
I laugh at the thought of only being here now
Like I've never been anywhere else
But I can't go back to yesterday
And I can't skip to next Tuesday
So I might as well just stay here now
And wake up here
Keep adapting to the footsteps
Make them brandnew somehow every day
Push myself to believe
That in the end I just might stay
Ink in my own message or passage on a wall
To remind myself there that I am here after all

I don't want to have time to be angry
I understand how possible it is to have better things on my mind
I usually do have better things on my mind
I just have no one to discuss them with
I have no one to embrace them with
I know it's not worth my time to be angry

Darkest hour
In the tallest tower
Cowering down among every lost soul
You stand alone
In forgotten tones
That fall from your tongue
And then linger

Seek the unexpected
Watch it all be resurrected
Watch the full moon
Be apart of the swoon
It holds you close
Supports your ghost
Waves you in
Is paper thin
Belongs to the keepers
Never telling their secrets
Of what is to come
Watch your words
And don't play dumb
They are out there,
They are tar black
Covered with skin
Because they lack
The actual realness of their reality
Of brainwash and conformity
Be strong and follow the light
Praise yourself and your insight
Of intuition
The fruit of vision
**** sweet juice from heaven
And don't get lost in this forgotten prison

I write new pages every day
Different articles to display
Black and White
Always uptight
Comics in color
The only reason you even bother
Because laughter makes it all worth while
You don't care about the front page
You want that extra mile
The hidden pages
The ones in the middle
The ones you have to dig for
Confirming the riddle
Everything else is such a joke
Just like the news papers
The absolute greatest hoax
No one gives a ****
At least the 'no ones' who understand
The ones who think outside the box
The ones who give the universe a chance
The things that seem so out of this world truly are
And they aren't displayed so grey
They are true work of art
For you, the alienated mind
They want you to feel demented
But you're way ahead of the times
And if you really knew that
You would be ahead
Of them
And they can't let you know that
We'd out number them by so many
They'd **** their pants
And lose this entire country
What they don't realize
Is that they are invited too
I see them as me
We are all apart of the truth
There doesn't have to be one better than the other
If we saw the harmony in this
Everything would come together
This entire world
The end of suffering
Enlightenment for all
True peace everlasting
That every soul truly desires
But if you see this as too cliche
Stay here in this hell
Watch everything you think you live for go to waste
Your mind holds a very real power
Brighter than lightning
Louder than thunder
I've seen it work out
I've been to the heavens and back
The secret is already here
Earth IS where it's at
Come along if you want
Because I am destined to recover
I am destined to bring some of you with me
Trust the thoughts that make you shutter
Trust the most refused thoughts in your mind
Like playing with fire or traveling time
The fact that you even think you can do that makes it possible
It makes it evident
It makes it unstoppable
The first step is belief in this system
Outside your programmed thinking
This comes way more natural
Mother Earth is on your side
Put the newspapers away
And starting taking pride
Own up to what's yours
Take it back
Watch my bizarre words come to life
It's not just an act

The path to your own heart has a bridge that you built, but can't cross
The river flowing underneath strikes up currents in your mind that cause you to feel lost
These wavelengths of confusion **** you right in
You forget about the bridge in the first place, and start swimming against them
In perfect theory you just want to reach the other side,
But nothing's ever perfect, right?
Especially when this is something you started yourself, and backwards seems like down and confusion takes you south
For the winter, and now you're in freezing water
[This is dangerous ground]
If the ice freezes over
You will be held captive under
There are equal people on the other side of the bridge you built
Asking for your hand
But you won't reach out
You doubt the help that the ones who love you offer
They're right in front of you,
But you don't even bother
"I can do this alone"
"Everyone look at me"
"I'm the King of my bridge"
Wait, did you forget you were drowning?
A potential King, maybe
But for now that's a fantasy
If you reached out your hand
You might find fellow company
Of people who are riding the exact same wave
Of people who also are lost in the game
We all built a bridge, and it's hard to get over
Think of how much easier it would be to get across it together
Two is better than one,
And that's why we are divided
Take pride in your individuality
But don't be mislead by it
The currents are only as strong as you want them to be
If anything I'll tell you, I found this in me
I believe it so much
It's why I am writing
This isn't just a poem about a boy and a bridge
This is my vision, and I want to actually teach it
And I will, absolutely nothing is in my way
I'm still crossing my bridge to this very day
It's all part of this journey,
And I didn't get where I am alone
We are equal parts of this river
And I want to help sail us home

How do you tell someone that you love,
That doesn't love you back
That you care about them.
And maybe they do love you,
But not in the same way
Maybe they just like the thought,
And it's just another game
That they play most days
In their day to day life
Not worried about others,
Only themselves during this fight
That becomes a battle
A battle of lost and found brothers
Where they split off on groups
And literally hate on each other
Saying I am better than you by being me
What about them?
They are them, it's the exact thing
Agree to disagree
Find yourself in the mix
Find yourself in this circus,
But don't get lost in it
We are stars sent from the cosmos
Humans looking up from below
I see myself from where I should
I am looking down like I knew I would
We are so lost in the sins of our ancestors
Parents before us who didn't have all the answers
Lost in someone else's perception
It will take only the holy to fight this battle for them
I praise myself for wanting to try
I could have it all
This is my baby blue sky
But I am sick of being alone
I need my family
This has always beeny home
Home is where the heart is
And I finally found you
I will wait forever
I just hope you don't want me to

You give me shivers up my spine
Something I can not redefine
Dark without a doubt
With a smile so profound
The sound that moves past your lips
Is a humming bird taking sips
Off my pollenated soul
Something that could be so foul
Something you are still unsure of
Me, a ****, an unwanted fruit
From the ground where you are planting your new seed
The one you just placed inside of me
Hoping I will water it to perfection
A hopeful blossom of our relationship
Sprouting the most beautiful tunes
In two we will sing of how we grew
Such gentle plants in this garden of Eden
With colors so ripe
It's no wonder I would eat them
I would sin for you everyday
If it keeps me here, or even brings me back someday
It was you all along
And it always will be
I couldn't stand alone
Even if you killed me
I would find a way to be free
A time for all times
Eternity

Together we will fight
But I will win everytime
For I am me
I made it here
This is my world
This is for you, my dear.
You gave me life,
I gave you meaning
We shook hands on this
This is something I've been repeating
You already know what you think you don't
You are the captain of this ship
You're steering this boat
You're riding the waves of this black ocean
It's what makes you a witch
You already know you have been chosen
You are here, little rainbow girl
This your time
Let's give this black battle a twirl
Remember it's only black because of where you were born
It's only dark because of the people you adore
It's only here because magic
It's always been here
You just have to believe in it
Its the illusion you have been wishing for
It is exactly what you have been waiting for
Every script you have written
Every word they find forbidden
Every wrong that you find right
Every single glimps of moonlight
Every single time you sing
The actual meaning to everything
The reason why you have been picked
Seen as a **** in your gardens wicker
Basket of things they don't wanna see that you are different
A lonesome ****
You sell yourself for what you believe in
You how off yourself,
A part you are not even sure of
But hope for some kind of encouragement
Looking for someone to give you that nuriesment
That you know you need but never achieve
Telling yourself every time
You are all that you need
Then you remember again you have been chosen
And those who don't see that
Lie down in dozens
Those who are wide eyed will hit up the clouds
I will be waiting
And I will be nothing but proud
Those who are there are not alone
I think we have been waiting for years
Knowing all about this thrown
That we sit on every day
Waiting for you,
Listening while you prayed
Blah blah

My mother is my most absolute treasure
The most amazing of all or any creature
She has hidden herself at the bottom of the sea
She is holding herself out, and waiting up for me
Our minds are one alike,
but I won't give up
I am determined to repeat this rhyme
But not in the same way - she tried
And failed without recognition
She set her soul on fire,
And no one she knew was with her
She is trapped inside her own mind
She is so intuitive, with thoughts too fine
Intercepting and accepting things of the unknown
Of secret entities she unknowingly invites into her home
And tries to get along with
Every single day
She tries to make them her friends
But then they linger longer, and try to stay
She has been force fed pills her whole teenage life
And still continues to take them
She is told every time she is supposed to "embrace" them
My mother is going to be 42 years old
The government is holding her to this unrighteous mold
It is deteriorating her inner most being
They are telling her she's crazy
But they have no idea what she is hearing!
She called ME last night asking me if I was hearing voices
And she's done this before,
I used to ignore it
Surprisingly I was, I thought I was speaking to the Holy Spirit
Or some form of her, my very own mother
BEFORE I was told she had some sort of what they call a mental illness
Before I understood this different part of her..
Which by the way no one ever told me
She has had this problem only a few years after I was born
And I didn't figure it out until I was seventeen
So again, she calls me,
I think I've been speaking to her supposed lost spirit
But my mom was never gone
I had to open my mind and realize this
She just started to accept this intuitivenss
So, she asks me again if I have been hearing voices
I repeat myself, 'Yeah mom, I have"
Just so you know it wasn't that I was hearing voices,
I have been going through something similar
Accepting my own intuitiveness
Trying to climb the same pillar
She asks me this question,
If I have another mother
Do I have another mother?
I reply --- no I cry, "Of course not mom, I love you"
"What is this about? How is it that you knew"
She said sometimes some things just 'zip' though her mind
She has to address them
Especially when her only daughters state of reality is on the line
She screams back at me, it gets the best of her
"WHY DO YOU NEED TO LISTEN, WHY DO YOU NEED ANOTHER MOTHER"
She hangs up on me
I couldn't help but call her back
She acted so normal
As if what just happened wasn't real
And I don't blame her, I couldn't believe it myself
So I brought it back up
I let her know
I thought it was her
I thought it was her soul
Mom, I was listening for you
My one and only mother
My one and only star
My one and only protector
My one and only that birthed me into this earth
The one who looks at me,
And sees nothing but all I'm worth
I am her chosen one
I am her only one
We are sharing this same 'What ever you want to call it'
You can call me a Psychic,
Or tell me I'm schizophrenic
I will tell you right now I am fine
I want to deal with this
What every happening to me is so divine
My mom and I are one alike
So intuitive with thoughts too fine
But together we will fight this battle
Together we can build this mantel
And I will fight with her,
Because she fights for me
She's fighting for it ever day
And yet the world still thinks she's crazy

I found myself in the most strangest place
Where strangers around me
Practice the same pace
They work to bleed
The have a love for greed
They keep way too much stuff to themselves
Acting like it's Black Friday with the last Iphone5 on the shelf
It's so simple to remember the things that bring us down
It is actually too simple to forget how you became apart of this town
Why you lead yourself to become who are
Why you choose to lead a certain group of stars
It is everything you, my dear live for
And are living for in this very moment
You are here, there is nothing more to it
I feel you in my veins
I see your soul in the race
For true victory, the meaning behind the prophecy
That you wrote,
And will lead us home
Where we won't be alone
Where we won't have to worry
About decision making that has to do with
If I do or do not want to stop at Mc Donalds
For an M&M; mcflurry
Find beauty in this Earth that brought you here
Find a true passion for why you would want dance with her
Play around with the bars
Sing to new heights and became a shining star
She wants you to be alive
So live through each other
And into the unknown we will guide each other
And into the unknown we will show our sisters and brothers
To each there own, but I am taking this risk
I hope each and every one of you find at least something out of this

So I've got this weird thing for olda daddies
I like that they're bald and ride around with the caddies
At the golf course on Sundays
Probably with they're olda babies
(which really means wife)
But that doesn't phase me!
Sometimes an olda daddy isn't even really an olda daddy
Sometimes it's my good friend Max,
but that doesn't make him too happy
Sometimes it's my friend Even,
But Ev the man doesn't mind!
He's got cool olda daddy hair and a fresh olda daddy mind!
He embraces his oldest olda daddy self!
He knows whats up!
He feels rich in his olda daddy wealth!
Because, not all of my friends are olda daddies
And Even is aware of this, his girlfriend is Cassie
And that's my friend too, don't get me wrong
But Cassie's a younga babby, this is a whole different song
We sing together, we drop all the baby beats
We'll drop them on you any time that we please
You never know what to expect from us younga babies
We show up out of nowhere and drive you mad crazy
That's what's so special about us babies in the world
Doesn't matter who you are, boy or girl
Everyone on earth gets pretty weird sometimes,
But us babies take the cup! That should ease your mind anytime!
Olda this, olda that, younga who, younga why
Come on gang, let yourself go!
I want to see you all give your inner baby it's best try!

I thought to myself, I should write a poem about you
Everything that you say and all that you do
Blue like the ocean, Green like the trees
Flowers that bloom and attract all the bees
That buzz in and out of my ears as they please
You -
have this thing about you that makes me weak at the knees
High of your sting that you always hit me with
High off your smile as if I just the fattest spliff!
But it never goes away,
I never come down
I still think about you even when you are not around
Your chestnut locks that locks me into this vision
and everything else that goes along with them
Your laugh, your eyes
Typical things to fantasize about
But! How about what you believe,
And all the words that fall from your mouth

And I love those, I do, I really really do

Especially because they fall
They leap without looking,
And yet you still stand so tall
You are so strong with all your projections
You give absolutely no ***** to those who reject them
Some people think you are absolutely nuts,
But so do I!
I wrote you this poem, and you still act like your blind
Is it really that hard?
I'm now in the spot light
I know you're here
I invited you out tonight
I have been saving this poem for this very moment
I have been crossing my fingers for you ever since I wrote it

So now we are both here,
and now everyone knows
Now my palms got all sweaty,
And I'm ready to go home
Thank you for listening
I'm at least glad you came,
And everyone else I just encircled in my shame
We'll see how this ends up,
I gave it a pretty good shot.
Maybe now he wants me too?
But honestly, probably not

The gift of giving is understanding
Knowledge is power
Questions are good, keep asking
Wanting more
Learning more
Practicing more
Repetition is more
Do more, be more
Want more, love more
Be passion
Be alive
Let go of your ego
I will preach this 'til I die
Or ever will I?
Cry out to the moon,
Look up to the sky
Everlasting life is at the tip or your fingers
Watch it bloom, and let it linger
Breath it in, but don't bow down
You are the god of this magical kingdom
You deserve the crown
You are the one that made this action real
You are the one who gave this the feel
The greatest sin in its darkest hour
The curling uplifting sign of the power
Breath in what you think you know
Set a fire the flame
And let the darkest of all angles glow

I woke up in Omaha Nebraska off California street
with the sun kissing me through the open window
I woke up with no alarm,
Alarmed by the fact that I might be late for work
But I wasn't
In fact I was right ON time
Put off by the fact that it was nothing or no one that awoke me,
But my own conscious self
Knowing somehow, that even with my eyes closed
My thoughts were wide open
I was fully aware
My naked body arose from where I slept
And crept up in a home ( not of my own )
To awkwardly put on MY OWN clothes
Through someone else's window
.. I start to think ..
How often I really have put on my own clothes
Through someone else's window
Looking closely now,
I change the word 'window' to 'perception'
Kind of like my own sort of window,
My own way of perception
How often I dress myself for the occasion,
or better yet, THEIR occasion
How often I've put on those skinny jeans,
Because YOU like them
How often I wear a bra
Because you don't want to see what my *****
look like through my favorite silk shirt
When I say 'you' - You know who you are
At least, you know who you might be
How often times people do things for you
How often times you do things for other people
How often you hold yourself back from being you - at all
How many times I have held myself back from being me,
And **** it's such a shame. I am ashamed.
Honestly by the most simple things
Overthinking a compliment I want to give someone
Because we are about to pass each other on the same side of the street
Avoiding their eye contact by just looking down
And staring at my own feet

COOL. REALLY. COOL.

I have been wearing these moccasins for 4 months now, Alisha
They look good, but I already know this
I am not the one who needs to hear it
Especially, not from myself
And I don't know them at all, but maybe,
Just maybe, what I want to say to them
Could break down what we all thought was an everlasting wall
Whether it be MINE or THEIRS
At the end of the chapter,
A wall that separates us from our own freeedom
Where we break down all similar walls and learn to defeat them
If anything, a smile, maybe a compliment back,
Not even to myself, but the next person down the track
It's a small movement, but I want it to move
I am making this promise to myself,
Because I want to improve
I want to make things that are so simple
More common in this world
Things that should not be overlooked,
Spread out amongst everyone and painted on their face like a mural
Desire for this righteous fire I want to be in power of
Spreading my smile for literal miles
Like Noahs Ark and that sacred white dove
The best thing about a dove is
It is just but a white pigeon
And every pigeon is capable of finding its white dove within him

It is there, and it always has been
Right under your sleeve
In the sliver of your grin
We can make this world more than you ever imagined
The power behind the strength of passion
When people come together in the form of one
When we all hold hands
Do you know what is being done
Connection is so out of this world
Touch is what keeps us in this treacherous swirl
Deadly sins that we latch on to
Riding the dragon is what we need to
Do, and do again
Tell the entire world, and invite all your friends
We are all Great Gods in this lonesome kingdom
The path to aloness is what is hidden underneath you
Very beneath you, you will have to fight
Fight to the death of your ego inside
It holds no mold, despite all you have been told
This world will **** you in,
and drag down your immortal soul
It is there, and it always has been
I will show you the road
Soften your ego, and create a new mold
You could stay here forever if what you look for is gold
Not the the gold that you see, but the gold that you feel
Not in front of your eyes, but what is actually real
No picture or place, No space or time
Use what you want to invent your new rhyme
Rhythm is now, rhyming is here
The goal of music
(Your mathematical medicine, my dear)
Replace your body with tunes of the soul
Sing the great white song
And let the youth be OH SO BOLD
Bolder than you could have possibly pictured
The movie you've been waiting for
Is your motion picture
Event, that is happening now
Sit back and enjoy
Those who don't know are your crowd


That in itself is exceptionally sad
Why would you leave behind your loved ones
Your mom or your dad
Your sister or brother
Your dead cousin or grandmother
They have no conscious awareness
It was never their fault
It was never their meaning to forever fall
The change of pace is now in your hands
This entire universe is inside you,
Give awareness a chance
Keep guiding yourself towards this lightning bolt feeling
Let it live inside you
Realize what your keeping
To yourself and not sharing
This selfishness will sink
It is absolutely more powerful than you could possibly think
It is the path to aloneness,
but who wants to be alone?
We could all share this peace
Let us connect and hold hands
Give our dark sins the golden control

The moonshine is everything
The soul from which I sing
What keeps me whole,
here, and clean
The brightest light I bow to
The only crown I vow to
Hold in my hands and not on my head
For I am not dying, or ever dead
I never cowered, I never sank
You were always here
We share this plank
For without you I could not see through these eyes
For without you we were never synchronized
For without you life was never real
Reality's goal is to unbreak your seal
Set your soul free, allow yourself to heal
Take the bandages off
Let the sun melt the snow
Hold my hand through this winter
I'll guide you to your show
Follow me when you catch your brig break
Remember the time and what was at stake
How you came so close to what you had left
The people you left behind
Your family and friends
But if we all were the same
If we all looked alive
Nothing would stop us
We all would collide
and bind into those who deserved us
The separate forms off the moonlight in One
How perception will change
Never fade and go on
I look up to you
I never want to sink
Keep my heart for ever guided
and my mentality a full tank

The fact that we found each other is pure
Simply pure
I couldn't have asked anyone or anything
for a better cure
A cure for the pain
A cure for the rain
That embodies my soul every day after day
That leads me to feel this sort of dis function
That brought me to realize the structure of junction
Of evil and right
Of good and insight
Of leveling out darkness and light
Together in two
Of how I met you
The actual reason of why I need to
Live in this day
And feel every ray
Of sunshine and moonlight
Of quivering upright
How living in Hell
Will break our outer shell
And teach us live
And teach us to give
And teach us to love
And teach us to laugh
And teach us the strength
Of the the golden brick path
That leads us to our next hour
The amazing rich power
Of life after death
When we give our last breath
To those who don't know
Of those who don't glow
Why we must preach the way
Of light and dismay
Of how we need both
To build our new boat
And sail us away
To our next patterns day
Where we will meet again
In a new realm of friends
Where we will all live in light
In love and insight
Where darkness met light
And won the last fight
Where there are no more scars
No more counting your lucky stars
The sky will see again
My lost love and best friend
We need to be loud
We need to be proud
Scream and yell, raise it up
You have been living in Hell
You don't need to stay here
Forever synchronized is you and me now
Sing and give praise
Not to god but to you
I raise my glass to the sacred blue sky
A toast to the universe
A drink for all your worth
You deserve this fine sip
The savory taste on you lips
Together we will all sink
Into the great unknown
Put the crown on your king
For the world is your thrown

My fingers are crossed in hopes for you

You didn’t ask for anything from me,

But I still hold my words true

Your light is above my own selfish plea

Please hold yourself out

And wait up for me

I am going to wake up every single morning with both eyes open
At least while I am here and I still have them
I am going to lift my chin up with every more forceful step I take
By guiding my eyes upwards I will make less mistakes
Because the air is so clean, and vision is so vivid
It does me no good with the ground consumed in it
What good is it for me to live my life on the floor?
The only reason I would stay there is for you to take more
and more
and more
from me as I molded myself
To something better for you
A higher pedestal
And I'm sorry but I'm not here for you
To walk all over
To be apart of your cruel
Selfish ways that demand other souls
Get caught in your fishing net
Of something I sometimes can not even control
I truly believe it was not all my fault
That the floor was so easily shapely
It caught my eyes in the fog
As if my mind was then tranced straight into the ground
I became hypnotized and synchronized into your sound
But to hell with you, and your fisherman's gear
******* for selfishness in keeping me there
The fact that you thought you could use me as your bottom
To cheat your way up, and hold me from my blossom
I will be better, I will be so much more
I can not afford to be your butler
I can not afford to be here as your slave
I did what I can, I gave what gave
And I will continue to give all that I have left
I will continue to push for my everlasting breath
I will be, and I am, I am here, I am now
I'm not afraid anymore, I'm not stuck in this town
But this town has got rules
I won't play the fool
Step by step I'm getting exactly where I need to
Go, and get out of here
And that made me realize
The only thing holding me back
All along has been fear

It's hard to put the key in the door
Sometimes you don't know what you are looking for
Hoping for something that you might not find
Wanting something that feels so divine
Every pull feels past your reach
You tug on the **** like it is a ******* leach
Punctured on your inverted spine
******* out all your insides
For the soul you thought you kept
Before your play write ego had ever left
Dancing to the story you never told
Meditating for it to unfold
You find yourself down the narrow steps
Following though with every breath
You never knew just what you would find
Accessing miracles that are past your time
You hold them like blessings that have been brought
To you My Dear, my precious thought
That became more that I could ever dream
Through the Holy fountain we found our means
And through that old and wicked door
We found what love was really made for
It is the that shallow path that brought us here
I went through every thing I had ever feared
I found the tunnel of a sacred path
I solved every puzzle, I did the math
I gave up almost everything
I cut off my tongue to hear you sing
I wanted this for eternity
But the door has disappeared,
and I lost the key

When I enrich new souls I open up my thoughts
I feel things that have never been thought
I touch wounds that have never been healed
I un-vacuum things that have never been sealed  
I enforce new rules to those who are naive
I am the power beyond the light you've already conceived
I am the widowed shadow of the left behind
I am the ghost that is haunting you in the trenches of your mind

I am black and ashamed
I am withered and untamed
I am  the red on your skin
I am the ultimate evil from within

I count your days until they leave
I make clocks work like famous thieves
I am Robin in the hood
I am doubt inside your golden good

That pours out from souls at sea
I am the ultimate undying plea
I am the heart inside your chest
I am what is beating,
and I am nothing less

We are real and we are now
We are the power inside the 'how'
We are what is left of humane kind
We are what is raging inside your mind
We found it here, but are blind to see
Our minds can twist together
And finally leave

To the place that we call home
Above Jerusalem, our foreign home
Where the pages once wrote before
But did no justice for what is in store
For our sacred higher selves
For you and I
Heaven, and Hell

I have seen the circle
I have already followed through
Somehow I found myself here
Somehow I still feel you
No matter how many times I leave
Or even decide to stay
I will always want you come November
And the same with in May
I want you for all months to come
I want you and I for all to see
I want you for the stars
I want you for me
I used to sail alone
Until the moment I called you home
That was when we met the sea
The illusions passed and set us free
That time is infinite
It is forever lasting
It is past this entire world
It is why we are latching
If even only one eye could see
Our naked bodies pressed against the beach
Then everything would dissolve
And evaporate already
All that resides there is you and I
No more Mother Earth or Father Sky
I want to feel you in my bones
It is where we built our home
All these wants just to feel
Would break the White angels ancient wheel
If all our fears were colored blue
If all our time just fell right through
If all the scenes would be displayed
If all our filth would wash away
You could find me in your arms
We could eliminate the vicious swarm
Of self invested fools
Of all the ones who feel the rule
Of power with out love
How foolish to forget of  our sacred white dove
Who soars over every sea
Who watches you and me
He is the breach in our path
The forever seeking math
Of how the two of us subside
In Utopia there is you and I

It is not just you; it is everything
I feel something so serene about this year
I feel a forgotten presence when you are here
Like you have chased me to this day
This moment, hour, minute, second
Like you have chased me beyond this time,
Because there is no more room for any of it
I will finally see the one of two
I can finally see my unforgotten moon
So simple and secure, no time or measure
I have sailed our lost and found seas
I have reached a diameter where we can finally meet
Again

Part of this is you, but a great amount is me
How many times I have called you home
How many suns I have set free
How many times I will say how many
Or use the word time in plenty

I am sick and ugly
I am alone and blind
Distance makes me lonely
And the sun seem so unkind
When I realize these things
When I open up my eyes
When I see you as the moon
I put the sun between my thighs
I spread my legs wide open
and invite you back inside
to where everything began
and the entire universe collides

Part of this is you, but a great amount is me
How many times I have called you home
How many suns I have set free
How many times I will say how many
Or use the word time in plenty

Because time does not exist,
And I want you home already