I'm sorry is all I can repeat
As I sob with tears
welling in my glossy eyes
Burying my face between
my drenched sleeves
Gasping for air

Just wishing
To be anywhere
But here
To feel anything
But this
To be anyone
But me

Its okay that you think I'm joking
When I say something
About wanting to die

But deep down inside
I know its true
You may not see it
But I truly
Do not
Want to be here
Anymore

Twist the cap
And break the seal
Chugging as if its a
Canteen of water
And she is dying
From lack of hydration

A waterfall of alcohol
Straight into her mouth
No matter how bitter it tastes
It can't be as bad as she feels
She drowns herself in liquor
Because it numbs the pain

Your smile was so bright
Your laugh sparked a room
Always bringing such delight

But it was just a well performed act
Only a staging to conceal
The smiles were a hoax, a fraud in fact

Everyone in the audience oblivious
To the reality of his suffering
Blinded by the act, we never were suspicious

You never revealed your sadness
Always bright eyed and cheery
It seemed as if you were built from hapiness

Today i am still not sure
What the reason it was
To avert your stay on this earth

To force yourself to leave
If I had known before your departure
To have you stay I would infinitely plead

But you left with no warning
Abandoning multitudes of people
We soon found ourselves mourning

Over the death of our sunshine
The loss of an inspiring boy
Who had brought so much light to my life

Some care too much

Others, not enough

If I could run away from my problems
I would run until I lost my way

Some things are not meant to be shared
There are places that haven't been explored
Sights that have yet to be seen

But you somehow discovered this dark place of mine
It was never meant for you to find
Some things are better left unknown