You have this new effect on me. I dunno what it is, but you make me feel so different, good different.

To me you are like a typical teenager with their social media and the right kinda music because to them, that's the hardest thing to give up to them, just like letting you go is the hardest thing i'm trying to do...

Do i still care?
Yes.
Why?
Bc its how i am, i cant help it.
But i wouldnt take back a moment.
And plus, im moving on and found someone new

Sleep comes earlier because i do not have anyone like you to keep me awake. The only things that keep me awake are the haughting thoughts of the past, but i have gotten so use to them, the pain is numb.

You liked to play games and i was just another move
Well she played the game, but left you like a choice.
She took your virginity and left
Now. Tell me how it feels to be left like a choice in her game

I don't know who is in you're life, but i know that with your mom, you might need someone. I just kinda want to be there for you. I know that you probably have other people, but i just want to let you know I'm here no matter what. Not as an ex girlfriend trying to become the girlfriend again, but as the friend that wants to help you though whatever you're going through. I will be you're 2 am phone call if you need them at that time or that person you just need to complain about a rough day too. Im sorry if I'm just waisting my time, but i just wanted to let you know I'm here for you.

I love him. He is keeping me sane. He is my rock. Butterflies flurry at just his smallest touch. He is my Edward Cullin, he is a mystery to me. He isn't easy to read. He might get jealous, but he doesn't show it. I love him, but i feel like he doesn't love me. When he smiles, it makes me feel happy. When he's sad, I'm sad. If he's angry, well i try and understand and see his reasoning for it. But i'd swim the ocean for him, even if he is my guy who wouldn't cross a puddle for me. As bad as it might sound, its the truth. I love you as much as any 14 year old girl can love someone. When i think about you, i think of memories we'll make, memories that were made, and how i'm the luckiest girl in the world to be able to say that you're mine and only mine. So don't ever think i don't love you because... Well.....


                                 I DO!

Cried over you last night. Not promising it will be the last, but i just miss you and need you so much. Baby, please come back.

I remember the day you told me you were leaving.
It broke my heart and ruined my world.
If i could take back EVERYTHING i had done wrong
It might be everything, but i just want to start over
I hate myself bc i let you go so easy
Now i see what i lost every effin day and i hate myself.

Just looking at you makes me feel like crap
I lost you for good and i really need you
I want to try again and start as friends
Start from the beginning
I cry every night.
I just miss you.

Baby, there's things i'd love to tell you, but im scared. Scared you'll hate me. Scared you'll never want to start over. Scared that i'll lose you. I miss your stupid smile, your pointless facts, i love! The way you make me smile, just by looking at me. You can give me butterflies the easiest of ways. You make me want to flood the oceans, with my tears, and you make me feel so happy. If i could change back the clock i would. I would try and be better. I told you from the beginning that i was a challenge, and im guessin you didnt believe me... Im sorry. Sorry i was so cruel-hearted. Sorry that i didnt think about you in my actions... Sorry i still love you because you've moved on and im still crying oceans for you.

In my perfect world you're happy with me. When i picture it, it's all heavenly. But this fairytale is just a story, see? Life is such an unpredictable dream.

You like girls with blonde hair.
Whether she is a natural blonde or a wanna be blonde. You like em
Its a shame im a brunette bc i wanted you to like me and not her
For me to make you happy like she does
I hate that im not her and she's not me
If i could get a second chance, i would try so hard to be the girl everyone wants, but make them jealous bc i want you.
All i want is you and i cant have that.
Youre happy now and i could never do that.
I miss you like crazy.
Im just soo soo sorry

A brunette girl in love
A brunette boy thought
He thought he loved her
She thought so too
That all changed When he broke her heart
He changed the way she talked
He changed the way she walked
He changed the way she thought
She thinks differently.
She doesn't believe anything

She just misses him
He could care less
She told her friends that she was a mess
Her friends said she'd be okay
She would never believe them anyway

She thinks of him everyday
Locking eyes is their only way

She doesn't feel anything but hurt anymore
He feels mixture if emotions, but none for her
She wishes this would change, but it never will

She wishes she could be over him
Like he was her, ever so long ago

A brunette girl in love
A brunette boy dying inside
Thinks he loves her but doesnt
Think she loves him and does

He was her prize and she was his phase. She cried her eyes out hoping he'd be okay, when in reality he felt nothing.

She soon became numb to all feelings and her friends pushed him to be friends with her again  

She wanted it and he never tried.

She wanted just one more chance and he wouldn't give it to her.

She tried to think of a way to talk to him, but never did.

She wanted his jacket and he wanted her out of his life.

All she does is feel numb and live life acting like she feels like everyone else.

Look into her eyes, she's broken.
Realiz that, that smile doent hide everything.
That pen doesnt cut the pain away.
Pain is something that demands to be felt.
Once its felt, it will slowly, but surely, turn into a memory

the pain of losing you has left me at a lose for words.
How i am making it is a wonder to me.
i hate talking to anyone else about this.
i need you back, but if i forgive its going to take a while to forget and gain the trust back
because of you, i am stronger, yet weaker.
happier, yet sadder
many emotions are felt when i think about this, but sadness is what is what stands out the most.

I am truly sorry.....

Could we trade places you and me or is that to much to ask?

I'd rather it be me that suffers and not you.
You haven't done anything for the world to turn against you like this.
If you leave me any time soon i will die.
Maybe not physically, nut mentally i dont know how i could live.

You are my rock.
You take my side no matter what
You understand me like no one else
Your birthday is 5 days and a few years before mine! Hehe
And you never cease to make me stop smiling!

All the stories you tell/told me, i will never forget, for it is you who i will trade places with in a heart beat.

Maybe you're so far gone there is nothing left to save. If i could i would, but it seems like you dont want to be saved, at all.

Funny how life works right?
One minute youre mine, the next youre gone.
If you could understand my pain to see you leave me everytime

You're my center, you're my world, you're my life, but if you leave me, i'll be a tiny, lonely fish in a gigantic  blue sea.