i wanted bangs,
but couldn't get them.
i wanna bang,
but no one wants to.
i wanna put a bang in my forehead,
but no one will let me.

happiness is a dream
a dream i want to keep
i'll keep it so dear to me
it'll never fade away

but just like all dreams,
or most dreams, anyway,
i'll end up forgetting it
losing it
and it'll go away

The world is brighter,
the colors seem happier!
i don’t have to hide away
behind my fake little mask.

My friends who read this,
the bracelets aren’t because i’m hurting myself,
I just think they’re pretty!
Just like me!

I’m eating more,
or trying to!
Food is good...
Food tastes good.

I’m getting better,
Much, much better.
Secrets aren’t nice.
Secrets and lying don’t make me feel good.

nothing,
a sense of nothing.
i want to sleep,
to end it all.
or at least just make
their screaming stop.

i giggle as i jump towards
the captivating light.
blinking, blinking,
it ***** me in
like juice from an orange.

i'm falling,
it's pulling me in.
or, i think i am.
the only thing i see
is a white abyss
of terrifying possibilities.