You will go away but the scars you left won't
There a reminder to me
Everyday I stare at them and I hate myself because of it
Because I let you in
I knew you were bad news
All of my friends new about you and what you did
But i didn't believe them
I didn't want to
I wanted to think that you were amazing
But you were the opposite
And once I was in there was no possible way out
I was afraid and scared
Everyday my dignity would shrink
You left bruises mentally and physically
And I never will forget you and what you did to me

I want to sleep with you
No ***
Just sleep
No ******* or banging
No headboard clanging
Just sleep
Just us cuddling together
Our bodies intertwined with one another
Arms reach across stomachs
Fingers interlock
Legs wrap around each other
Eyes close
We both nod off
In the comfort of one another

New floor,
New ceiling,
New walls,
New beginning,

No,

Old beginning,
New house.

New beginning to the house,
Repeating beginning to the people,

New you,
New place,
New us,
New you.

Old memories are sold,
New ones are untold.

Same life different story,

No.

Different life,
Same story,
New us,
New beginning,
But mostly,
New you

She has emotions she doesn't know how to express
In a crowd she stands out among the rest
Her presence is a gift
Her smile and laugh is one of a kind
and that's really hard to find
But she's scared and alone in a world she can't call her own
Her friends think they understand her but they don't
She's a mystery box 24/7
How many times does she really think about hell or heaven
She has perfect imperfections
a beautiful complexion
But is self conscious to those who show her affection
She has so many thoughts that are unthinkable
Mirrors and cameras make her hide
It's gonna be a long ride
But we all hold on tight
Because we all know that's right
And as she sits there in the middle of the night
She fights
She's a warrior and she has no clue
But the amount of stuff she's been through-
She's a fighter and much stronger then we all think
But when she comes around everything seems to be in sync

Eyes,
brown,
blue,
hazel,
green,
Eyes will wander,
no matter the color,
no matter the size,
they will wander.
They will wander on other eyes,
they will stare at the color,
The size,
the shape,
the beauty,
the movement,
everything.
They can draw you in, or scare you away,
these eyes can see.
These eyes have seen,
and will keep on seeing.
Eyes will look at something or someone and lock onto it
Eyes are the site to the heart,
Eyes are the windows to the soul.
Sometimes eyes will forget the past,
or they might sure as hell remember it.
They can forgive and forget,
they have expression.
Eyes have a personality of themselves.
They are their own person.

What's the point of putting make up on if you're just gonna cry it off

What's the point of living if you're just gonna die

What's the point of getting out of bed when you're  just gonna get back in it

What's the point of believing
What's the point of trusting
What's the point of life
What's the point of hope

What's the point of lying when you know the truth will come out

What's the point of hiding when you know you're gonna be found

What's the point of talking when you're  just gonna be shut down

What's the point anymore

What's the point of breathing

What's the point of having a past?
So people can judge you from it,
so people can have stuff against you?
so people will leave you because of it.
But it wasn't your fault, it doesn't matter,

Nothing matters anymore

I miss the way he says my name
The way he holds me
The way he kisses me
The way he whispers in my ear
The way he smiles back at me
I miss the way we used to say I love you
I miss us
I miss you
I miss me when I'm with you

My phone buzzed
I was half asleep
I saw it was you
I quickly awoke
I haven't spoken to you in weeks
I thought about you today
But didn't bother texting
But I guess you were thinking about me too  
A thousand questions rushed through my mind
Is he interested in me again?
Should I text back?
Should I fall back asleep?
Should I read it and not reply?
Is he lonely again?
Or is he just bored?
I saw your text
I quickly texted back
I was so excited to be talking to you again
My heart skips a beat when I hear your name
I can't breathe
I start to blush
And I can't help a huge smile
I try to hide my feeling but I can't
The way I feel around you is like no other
But I don't even bother anymore
You pull me in then push me away
And i dont know why I keep crawling back
Now I wish my phone hadn't of buzzed...

She told a story
A story to herself
And eventually to her friends
They were worried
But she wasn't

She told a story
No one else believed her
But she did

She told a story
She was a mistake
She was a broken mistake
They told her that she was lurking for attention
But she wasn't

She told a story
She loved the words I'm sorry
They would almost fumble out of her mouth every time she spoke

She told a story
Disappoint she thought she was
The word Perfect never once touched her lips

She told a story
Everyone didn't believe her
Then they found her

A beautiful disaster
Tangled in thick rope
Wrists and thighs covered in raised darkened skin
Tear marks stained the floor

She told a story
That no one will here again
They only had one chance to listen
But all turned away
She was a fallen angel
Now flying back up...

It was one night  
She was at a concert
So we were alone
We talked all night
You told me secrets
I told you stories
But there was one story I wanted to tell
I've been wanting to tell you it for awhile
There were so many opportunities
And all of them failed
It's been two years
Still I haven't told you
And maybe I never will
But man I wish I could
You know what you did
And so do I
But you don't know I know
And I wish you knew

I want to hear the lighting
I want to see the thunder
I feel as if I'm deaf and blind when a storm comes around
The lighting blinds me so I cannot see the thunder
The thunder is so loud it makes my ear drum bust so I cannot hear the Lightning  
It's a battle between the two
They both want to win
But know both will loose
Because the rain always wins
But somehow they both think they have a chance
But no
The rain you can see and hear
It doesn't want to fight because it knows its strength
The rain always wins
And always will

Me
You
Dock
Nine o'clock
Orange skies
Sun going down
We were sunset silhouettes
You looked in my eyes
And I looked in yours
They were locked
I couldn't look away and neither could you
We were sunset silhouettes
The sky was now jet black and the stars were so bright
We both fell back on to the prickly grass
And watched them shine
It was like we never saw stars before
We were sunset silhouettes
A shooting star soar through the sky
We were both amazed
Both us and our sunset silhouettes

When tears turn black
When breaths turn to gasps
When talking turns to silence
When cries turn to sobs
When i love you turns to I hate you
When your heart breaks into two
When the room turns dark
When there's nothing you can do anymore
When your completely broken
When all you can say is sorry
When nothing seems to work
When your falling apart
When you think everything is over
I'll be there
To help you
To comfort you
To tell you that i love you
To hug you as hard as I can
To be your friend forever and always

Thirteen hour drive
Straight through
There was no turning back
Time for a whole family vacation
We were tired
We were punchy
We were a mess
We were headed to Michigan
Where the weather is always indecisive
Where the birds are always talking
Where the people are always smiling
Where the lakes and rivers are always flowing
Where the boats are always running
Where the bikes are always moving
Where I am at peace
To hear the water crash softly
To see the seagulls fly so gracefully
To feel the damp rock in your palm
To taste the sweet air
To smell the swaying trees
It's Michigan
It's miss ya again
And it's gonna be missed

Do not mistake mirrors for Windows,
see you could look through a window and see something new every day
but if you look through a mirror you see your reflection
the same person looking back at you,
trying to see what's wrong or what you need to fix
like a punctured tire on a highway
like a broken heart mended by some other person that u thought that was right,
but you were wrong
You have been wrong and that's okay
we make mistakes don't worry I have too.
But because you were wrong you can never go back
you can never see yourself that you were before
you see yourself as someone totally different
as someone else would see you
you see yourself as a monster
A victim of your own crime
but truthfully and honestly you're beautiful
and if you can't see that
Find a mirror
Find a mirror that will show you that
Show you that you are beautiful
Show you that you are smart
That you are amazing
And that you don't need to fix yourself
For you or for anybody
Because you are beautiful the way you are

I can't see you
I've been looking forever but I can't seem to-
My air seems to be running out
I can't see you
It's in my eyes and my vision is turning-
I know you're down here
I can feel it
But I can't see you
I swam to far down
I can't seem to get back to the top fast enough
I'm surrounded by water
I can't breathe
Help
Help me
I need you
I'm looking and
Im searching
I'm trying I really-
I'm running out
I can't see you
I can't hear you
But i can hear
I can hear the screams
They haunt me at night
I can feel the splashing water hitting my face and blinding my eyes
My body only seems to know how to float
I'm trapped
I want to swim to you but it's like something is holding me back
I can see you
I can see you know
You're screaming to me
Muffled by the water crashing and I see the bubbles come up when you speak
And I try to dive in
but something is holding me back not mentally
but physically
I try my best to reach you but you keep sinking down
I'm being pulled up and you're being tugged down
There's alarms in the distance I can hear them
I can hear everything now
The sirens
The screaming
The thunder
The waves crashing rapidly
My eyes are blurry and it's like I'm being spun around a thousand times
and I have to shut my eyes because it's to much
And now I can't see you

I had a dream I had a heart ache
My heart was cracked in two
But then I awoke an found out it was true

I miss you

I miss the smell of your granddads cigarettes
I miss the taste of your soft lips
I miss the touch of your hands
I miss the feeling of your love

I miss you

I miss the cigarette smell
I was craving that awful smell
I couldn't stop breathing it in
I wanted to keep breathing it in until my lungs turned black
Because it was the smell of you

I miss you

I miss the taste of your soft lips
I was craving that amazing feeling
I couldn't stop thinking about it
I wanted to keep kissing you untill my lips hurt
because I love your lips

I miss you

I miss the touch of your hands
I was craving your thumb run across my hand
I couldn't bare it any longer
I wanted to feel your fingers rub against mine
Because I love it when we hold hands

I miss you

I miss the feeling of your love
I was craving you
I couldn't contain myself
I wanted to feel your love over and over again
Because I love when our bodies collide

I miss you

Pain,
It doesn't feel good,
It hurts,
But if the pain hurts us so much why do we keep letting it happen,
Scrolling through our exes pictures,
Watching sad movies,
Making ourselves cry,
Hurting ourselves,
For our own enjoyment,
We make pain for our selves to dissolve the other pains we have in life,
And why?
We'll never know,
Do we like the pain that we get,
Is that why we can't stop making it worse,
Pain is like a drug,
Once we have a little bit of it,
We can't stop ourselves from drowning ourselves in it,
Us, as human beings,
Are addicted,
To pain.

I would have never thought that you and I would be together
We weren't the closest of friends
But I helped you get her
It only lasted a while
I didn't know I was falling for you
But I was
You got everyone
And now that it's been a couple years
You've almost dated everybody
Even me
We dated three times
And even when we weren't dating
When we were "just friends"
Stuff happened
Stuff happened that has never happened before
I liked you for the longest time
And I would lie to my friends when they asked
We would argue almost every day
But I loved you
And I wanted to keep it that way
We loved each other through thick and thin
Our friends told us that we were like an old married couple
Maybe it was fate
Or maybe it wasn't
We will never know
My friends told me to watch out
They told me I was gonna get hurt
And I did
Every Time
And I knew it
Every Time I would crawl back to you I got hurt
But I liked it
The pain was awful but I miss you
They told me to stay away
But I miss you and I miss your love
And I would **** to talk and see you again
But we're "just friends"

Our love was like a light switch
Off and on
We never stopped loving each other
Even if we both had girlfriends and boyfriends
We were meant to be
From day 1
It was love at first sight
We couldn't stop staring
We couldn't stop talking
All we seemed we needed was each other
we took breaks
But we always returned to each other
I can't wait to see you again
And turn the light switch back on

sorry my Imagination got

The best of me i guess i just
Hoped and dreamed that we would be
tOgether for the rest of
oUr lives but apparently i
   Guess not and yea I know life
    Has
     To go on but


You know life was pretty great with
yOu, no I take that back life was amazing with
U and I

Wouldn't
changE it for the
woRld
thE

Time
tHat
wE spent together was something that

Only happens
oNce in a life time but you didn't
seE what I saw and I thought you were the one

Blue is the taste of fresh blueberries
Blue is the sound of an old lady telling a story
Blue is the feeling you get when sad
Blue is the smell of rain
Blue is the sight of a fire
Blue is the feeling of catching a firefly on your finger
Blue is the sight of an old tattoo
Blue is the feeling of water
Blue is the sight of lighting
Blue is the sound of thunder
Blue is the feeling you get when relaxed
Blue is the first sip of alcohol
Blue is the awkward silence between me and you
Blue is the feeling you get when you crash from a long day of work
Blue is the sound of a camera clicking
Blue is the touch of silk clothing
Blue is the color of the sea
Blue is the sight of an eye
Blue is the realization of life
Blue is the remembrance of a dream
Blue is the touch of sand
Blue is the sound of a roar
Blue is the feeling you get when sad
Blue is the calming sensation when relaxed
Blue is the color you get when you close your eyes and look in the sun
Blue is the look of an aged face
Blue is the taste of a sour lemon
Blue is the color of Cookie Monster
Blue is the sound of knuckles cracking
Blue is the feeling of writing
Blue is the sound of relief
Blue is the taste of really good food
Blue is the sound of marbles rolling on a wood floor
Blue is the smell of eraser shavings
Blue is the sight of home when you went away for awhile and
Blue is the time of day when I get to see you

I wish I could fly
I wish I could die
I wish I could spend more time with my dad
I wish I could start a fad
I wish I wasn't so much of a home body
I wish I could be a super model hottie
I wish I could be loved
I wish I could have a dove
I wish I could finally make a wish and have it come true
I wish I would just stop thinking about me and you
I wish I could stop wishing
I wish I could go fishing
I wish the world would be a better place
I wish the blind could see
I wish the deaf could hear
I wish the homeless had homes
I wish the poor were rich
I wish the mean people we're nice
I wish the diseased always had a cure
I wish the racists would stop being racist
I wish the homophobes loved gays
I wish that cancer would disappear
I wish that there weren't any fear
I wish that the bad people wouldn't be here
I wish that we could see the thunder
I wish that all of us could wonder

It was 1 o'clock am,
Way 2 late to be up,
I have already had 3 glasses of your favorite wine and,
I was wondering about number 4,
I woke up at 5 today and still asking myself why I hadn't fallen back asleep until 6 but,
That was the thing I couldn't sleep,
Sleeping till 7 was a stretch so I didn't even try,
But then 8 went by
And you left by 9 and I,
Just couldn't seem to get you off my mind
By 10 I was back asleep
And 11 back on my feet
I called you 12 times
But by the 13th time you had finally answered and I
Just simply couldn't remember what I had to say
But to hear the sound of your voice brought me to cry
And I had cried 14 little tears, and then,
I was out of them,
I was out of tears,
I was out of breath,
I was out of wine,
I was out of love,
I was out of answers,
And questions because,
You, broke all my 15 heart strings.

The snow covered the land like a white blanket with no wrinkles
The trees looked as fake as-
As fake as plastic
Perfect plastic
That was the thing,
Wasn't it
How everything was and is and will forever be perfect
But perfect can't exist
It's a fictional word
Because nothing is perfect
Not you
Not me
Not anybody
as far as the eye can see
But that's not what they believed
They lived in a land where everything had to be perfect
Even the birds and the bees
Including you and me
And no one understood
Absolutely no one could
How someone and something somewhere could be perfect
Some life to live
Some people to meet
Some perfect people
Some perfect life
Living some perfect day
Everyday
In every which way
And it all starts out in a perfect sway
But when it comes around to May
The perfect people all go away
And they all start to look another way
And they all don't look the same
There is no more fame
And no body to blame
But that blanket
When that blanket melts
And the flowers start to welt
Nothing seems perfect anymore
And maybe it never was
But we will ever know
Because we were living our non perfect life
And living just fine
All of there husbands off with there wife
People weren't walking in a straight perfect line
Everything was just fine
And fine is devine

At the hour of midnight
She fights
She's glowing oh so bright
And she only thinks it's right
No one else agrees
As her parents float over seas
She lives in a bad place
Not full of race
Her sister has a police case
But she can't get there
She wants to
But doesn't know where
She said she wants to go to heaven
But she's only seven
Way to young for her to die
But her life was full of lies

Tell me,
Is it a brick block
It it a wood block
Is it a fictional block
Yea i knew it
it's a brick block
My writers block has came back to me
It's only been a few months
He was holding up a house
Well a house made up of bricks of course
And not some fake house made up of great ideas
There's a hole where he has gone
He came back to me
I don't usually enjoy his visits
Unless I take him and make a poem about him
Then I like when he visits
But it's time for him to go on
It's hard persuading him out the door
He needs to go find another person to "help out"
Because Obviously
as you can see
he's already
helped me

I lay in an elf size pool
But I get to decide the temperature
As kids we may have dreaded it
But as we grow up we seem to like it
Bathing in tub
Maybe swaying side to side or
With our legs crossed and
Knees up
Maybe with a bottle or glass of some type of alcohol
Depends on the current occasion
And whether or not the tub is actually filled with water
In water we are buyout
We are light
We float
We are weightless
Things don't sound the Same
Except us
We all sound the same
Every body talking is just another muffled out voice
A cracked knuckle is a high pitch tune
Our vision becomes blurry if we decide to open our eyes
We are not water proof
We have to dry
Water droplets role off our bodies
We are damp
And as we dry off covering our bodies with towels
We all walk away

I'm fine
I'm fine
I'm fine
I'm dying
I'm fine
I'm fine
I'm fine
I promise
I'm fine
I promise
Just believe me
I'm not lying
Really im fine
Really

Fight, that's all you did was fight
Fight me
fight yourself
fight life
Fight to get through
Get through what
I tried to understand
I tried to help
I tried i did I really did
You pushed me away
I kept crawling back
And now It's to late

Not only were there fireworks in the sky
But there were fireworks in both our eyes
That night was amazing and I wouldn't change a thing
Except for the fact that we both got caught

waiting for a turn on the swing
waiting To go on a plane
waiting for something exciting to happen
Waiting for your bus
Waiting for a waiter
Waiting for the right moment
Waiting for that call
Waiting for a text
Waiting for something to go your way
Waiting for your final grade on a test
Waiting for the perfect day to fly a kite
Waiting for it to rain
Waiting for it to shine
Waiting for the right someone               Or just
Waiting in line

Why are you crying?
I didn't hurt you
I hurt myself
So why are you crying
I'm fine
Don't worry about me
I'll be ok

She let go because of them
He let go because of them
They all let go because of them
Of who?
Of them.
Them, the people who told them other wise.
The people who told them what they hated hearing but believed it.
She let go because of the words
He let go because of the rumors
They let go because they believed
Believed that it was true
They all let go for believing
Don't let go
Don't believe the lies
But maybe they want to
Them, they have no idea  what if it was them
They wouldn't know and it's their fault they are the reason they let go
Why she let go
Why he let go
Why they all let go

Sarah
You wanted me to make you a poem
I asked you if you wanted it to rhyme
And you replied
"Whatever you think is best"

I stopped myself from arguing with you and making you have to decide
I need to stop myself more often from arguing with you
I've always had a hard time stopping
It really wasn't my thing
But this poem is about you not me
So I'll just continue with you

An eight year old little girl
Light brown hair and dark brown eyes
Huge eyebrows and a cute little smile
A little angel but not afraid to throw a punch
Can always make me laugh
Even when I don't want to
You are wise beyond your years and you have no clue

You are still so young and you have a lot to learn
This world is rough
And the road ahead is tough
But I know you'll pull through
Because that's what you always seem to do

You're a tough little girl who can deal with pain
But also has a soft side and will dance in the rain
You are my little sister and will forever be my main

And in case you didn't notice I wrote half in rhyme and half in not
So I hope you like this and if you come back later have a tater tot
Oh oops I'm sorry I forgot
You hate tater tots
I guess that makes me a felon
But make sure you come back and have a slice of some watermelon

One mistake
Two nights
Three bottles of wine

You make my heart stop
You make my world spin the other way
You make me do a double take

You make my stomach fill with butterflies
You make me feel like I'm on a cloud
You make me feel wanted, loved

You make me feel happy
And that doesn't happen often
But with you I feel like I'm something

A million writers
A million stories
A million tries and
A million fails

And  still no body can find the right words to say

Sean
It was 1 night
But that one night happened 2 much
There were 3 of us
And it happened be 4
Almost 5 nights a week
Almost had 6 slices
But I want 7 of you
Ask me if you can come in so you can 8 with me
It's almost 9 every time I order
And sometimes 10
You are at least an 11 out of ten
You stop making pizza at 12
I wish I had found you at 13
It's been almost 14 days
I hope I'll see you again and in case you didn't know I'm 15
And I'm hoping that maybe you're 16
But maybe 17 that's what I'm guessing
Just please don't be 18
And please don't have a 19 year old girlfriend
Let's exchange our 20 digits between each other and give me a call
So we can spend 21 years together
But let's try to get past our 22 word conversation
Or more like 23 characters
Should I try to call you tonight on the 24th
Or tomorrow on the 25th
So I can get that slim chance to see you and my delicious pizza

I rolled my eyes when u left
Why?
We'll probably not to start crying again
I was a mess
No
correction
I still am a mess
You stress me out
You make me freak out when I hear the sound of your cheap heels hitting the floor
The sound of your voice bouncing off the walls,
making its way all the way down the stairs to my room
My heart skips a beat
My stress level goes from 0 to 100
I can't move
I know you're going to come downstairs
I prepare myself for a bombarding of questions and things to do
But what you don't know is I've been doing things all day
I clean all day
I take care of your daughter all day
I feed the animals
I walk them
I do so much and you don't even know
But you came down stairs
I lost it
My eyes filled with tears
I tried to hide it
But I couldn't
You told me to calm down
But this happens everyday
And you just found out about it today
And so I rolled my eyes when you went away

If pictures say a thousand words
How come we can only come up with one or two

You hurt me
You broke me
You betrayed me
You ripped me into pieces
You through me on the floor
You diliberitly disobeyed me
You were the coward, not me, you
You made me feel like I was worthless
You made me feel like my existence on this planet was worthless
You made me break down and cry every night when I was with you
So I left
I left you
I left this world
I stopped you from hurting me
I stopped you from throwing me around
I just wanted it to stop
So I left

Make sure something bad happens
You might wanna go to a solitude place
Maybe sit down
Have your heart ripped into tiny pieces
It's key to make your nose start running a little bit
Make sure you can barely breathe
Try grasping for air in between sobs
Have some tissues near by but if not a sleeve or hand works well
And last but not least perfect your make up so you look like a zombie

you're a social studies teacher
Trying to teach English
Stop.
Like no just stop
Before I come over there and hurt you
K thanks

Mr.Smola said that a poem is not a poem unless it ryhmes
Ahhh mr.smola
Do you really think that us poets Really have the time to just sit here and ryhme?
We have better things to do
Rather it's sit down and have a glass of wine or two
Maybe watch a tv show that is Devine
What about going to a bar and staring at someone who you think is quite fine
So mr.Smola is this clear to you
Am I getting this through
Or are you just looking up at the sky wondering why it's blue
A poem doesn't have to ryhme
Because obviously we just simply don't have that kind of time

Starts with once upon a time
Ends with the end
But what's in the middle
Maybe some useless rhymes
Maybe some nonsense
Or maybe some fictitious character as sour as a bad lime
Or rather a sweet character that gets herself into some sticky situations like pine
But maybe just maybe it's non of them
But that is often very rare
It is easy to write a fairy tale
Just do it with some care
Just have a mean old man or woman
Have a sweet young girl
And a prince coincidentally the same age as she and very fine
And a plot why they can't be together
See it's simple but that is your job to write one not mine

If you forget me
You won't just forget me
You'll forget the memories
You'll forget the moments
The time we had together
Everything
You'll forget everything
If you forget me you won't just be forgetting me
You'll be forgetting you too

Curiosisty was a mouse
And there was a rumor about curiosity that everyone seemed to believe
"Curiosity killed the cat" they would say
But really,
Curiosity never killed the cat
The cat killed curiosity

You are a photographer, your flash is extremely bright, people use to tell you to turn it off, but you wouldn't listen so they stopped speaking. You don't come around that much anymore so people either gather around in excitement or hide under there covers in fear. Your pictures are close to being rare.

You are the co-existent crowd, your clapping, roaring and cheering is often misleading. You are invisible but if you weren't I wonder what you would look like.

You are the muted out firecrackers your repetitiveness is calming over time. You make some people have the urge to run outside and  dance.