Racking my brains,
I lack all my past pain,
Which inspired me to write.
But I've won all my fights.
I've spent a year loving you,
With nothing in return.
Endless amounts of what ifs,
The embers you had left on me,
Began to burn.

You fed my fire with small twigs,
And I'd do anything for more.
The fire rose up but I contained it,
Didn't want it burning anyone.
But then you started throwing branches,
And then you threw logs.
You uprooted the trees,
That kept you alive,
And burned them to prolong your withdrawal.

My fire roared,
Your heart soared,
And we both knew what to do,
We uprooted you.
Diving into my fire,
We started our new little game,
Burn high, bright and forever,
Become an eternal flame.
And we burned.

We burned all people who had doubt,
We burned anything that got in our way.
We laughed at the thought of anyone else,
No one can douse our flame.
You've forged me with your intense yearning,
We showed to the world our burning.
Our flame isn't going out,
And for all I care let there be a drought.
You are the only thing I need.

Fire born from desire,
Love that broke the chains.
Lips that could drive a man mad,
An endless maze of a brain.
Yet she let me in,
And I'll never figure her out.
But I'm here laying with her,
Both of us covered in burns,
Still on fire with the flame that'll never go out.

February fifth,
RIP.
Rest an old hero,
Taught me many things I know.
Never explained in short word,
Unless it was goodbye.
Told me he loved his handsome grandson,
And let himself die.
Complicated beyond fixing,
Didn't stand a chance,
Once so fit and healthy,
Took a seat for his mid life dance.
Known throughout the world,
He had many friends,
Could get us in the places once we arrived,
With a whisper and a grin.
Announced to his whole plane,
That his grandson was born,
They all cheered my name,
Toasted to a new horn.
And now you are gone,
I look at you laying there,
Smiley sweet as if laughing,
That so many people cared.
I went up to the open casket,
And there I cried,
Rest In Peace Papa,
That was are final goodbye.

Oh Valentine,
Sweet blushing bride.
I never can call you mine,
Not in this lifetime.
Taken away,
Never had a chance to stay.
One day you'll pay,
Maybe when you walk away in May.
You were my love,
Clearly sent from above.
My pierced and stained dove,
I fear it is me who has had enough.
She crept into my life,
Bearing her claws and holding a knife.
Took me to great heights,
In the dead of winter's nights.
Hasn't moved on,
Can't see the light of dawn.
She'll write all her sad songs,
Not knowing if she can even last too long.
Yet I wrap my arms around her,
Love my disease and my cure.
Keep close my beautiful saboteur,
And drink her bittersweet liquor.

Wake up kiddo,
Please take a seat.
Preferably in the back,
Where you were conceived.

I ****** your mom so hard,
Half in anger and half in love.
She couldn't seem to pick a side,
Now she smiles on us from above.

Sacrificed it all,
To bring you into this world.
And I can understand why,
You're such a beautiful girl.

I hated her for leaving,
I loved her for wanting to stay.
I hated the way she was forced to choose me,
So many others left astray.

You really are a gift,
She looked just like you.
Stunning, small, and smart,
I loved her too.

A fault turned blessing,
But a curse in disguise.
You took away the love of my life,
Replaced her and stole my eyes.

Hand and hand I'll raise you,
With no one else in this home.
My little beautiful baby girl,
Us alone in this starving world.

Give me a reason,
To follow you to nowhere.
Find me an excuse,
To even begin to care.
You can right me off as problem,
But I'll always linger somewhere.
A discarded memory,
Life in absence of air.

Try to hold me close,
Know that I will have my escape.
Smile about it now,
Cause you know soon it'll be too late.
Avoiding the ordinary,
Seeming to follow your desolate fate.
Thinking of everything that relates to nothing,
Tiptoeing through cracked gates.

Running from you,
Seems to be all too real.
Breaking away,
From the golden deal.
Ruined your life and tainted your soul,
Still wanting to see how I make you feel.
Holding my collection of jars filled with air,
My newfound addiction is loving what I steal.

Here I vanish never to come back,
Waiting for the counterattack.

We had a circus,
Freaks and animals alike.
Who will lose control?

The mice,
The mice ride elephants.
Look how they laugh.

No stay away,
Mice don't like kisses.
I like kisses but they get scared.

Did you try the lemonade?
It was some ******* good lemonade.
Did you enjoy it?

Mr. Camel,
Mr. Camel is awfully mean.
No one likes Mr. Camel.

Are we going home?
Is our vacation over?
I hurt.

I want more.
Let's visit the circus again.
Did you try the lemonade?

Eyes in the dark,
Diamonds in the coal,
Look at her face,
Please touch but don't hold.
Her life a disaster,
Constantly being ripped and torn.
A twisted little angel,
Bound to serve her home.
Everything is wrong,
No one has a light.
It's so dark in here,
You don't have the right!
How dare you even try,
To beat your saving grace.
Think you're so big and strong,
Beating on that pretty face?

I will take her in,
Shelter her from your dark embrace.
I love that darkened angel,
You're a disgrace.