You're Here
You're here with me
Still there
Even when we are in silence
Even when we are bored
Even when we are sad
Even when we are mad at each other
Even when we fight
Even when we hate each other
You're still here
And I will
Trust me, I will
I will be with you
Forever
And ever
I love you
And I always will
I will love you unconditionally

I didn’t mind
for you to love me.
I didn’t mind
giving you my heart.

But did you ask?
Did you ask for my love?
Did you ask for my heart?

You didn’t.

So why am I sad?
Why am I lonely?
Why am I the way I am —
without you?

I'm drowning
I'm drowning again
My head
my thoughts are killing me
Every day
Every second.
Every breath
Every beat
I'm drowning again
Can I be saved?
Or I can't?
Can I be in peace
for a day,
for a second,
for a breath,
for a beat?
Be in peace again…
or I can't?
Can I?

I wish you could just read my eyes and translate my feelings by simply looking at them…

I wish you could see, or feel, or even care…

Do you even care?

life goes by
your life goes by
we will move on
you moved on
we will forget each other
you forgot about me
gonna lose each other
you left me
we are stranger now
but you're not stranger in my thoughts
in my heart
in my soul
you will still be here
in my memories
in my photo gallery
in my contacts
in my notes
in my drafts
i still call your name
call it unconsciously
i still read our massages
read it unconsciously
i miss you
but i will heal
one day
some day
i will

why is it okay when it's you
why is it okay
always nagging
always mean
always judging
but when i'm even about to talk
i'm the problem
is it because i make it easy?
is it because i always let it slide?
always "you didn't mean it"
always covering for your mistakes
always "i'm imagining"
always trying to make myself the problem so you can continue with your thoughts
those stupid thoughts
and even then
i hoped that you would hate me
or be bored of me
because i know
and i've always known
that i can't hate you
i can't block you
i can't leave you
please hate me
please leave me
and you did
left