Golden rays seeping through stained panes of glass
Your body writhes as light run over your visage
Golden rays dripping like honeyed lies
Those you whisper to me the night before

Pleasure, pain, heat, bliss
The carnal beauty swirling inside me
A kiss as sweet as mollases
And countless regrets akin to the sea

Drench myself in sin, rinse, repeat
We embrace in the dark yet escape the light
How on earth can I escape this cycle of greed
The ardor of it almost blinding me white

I could deal with existential horror
The frequent realization that a monster lurks deep in me
The fear that eats me from inside out

That someday I’ll destroy all I held dear
And leave a gaping hole of emptiness behind
Or the dread that I’ll never be enough

That’s fine
I can fight it, and I’ll win

What I truly fear is them
Those who I don’t control,
who’s action are unpredictable

Violently crushing my will,
And leaving me powerless to fight it
Such is the greatness of external forces

And I know, I can never win
But let me try and resist