The elusive Alex
Whose mouth causes that good ache
The kind one thinks of late in the night
When no one else is present
When the house is quiet
And you can finally sit alone with your thoughts

The elusive Alex
Whom will never be caught
Whom doesn’t need to be caught
Unsettled as a permanent solution to that feeling in the gut
Perhaps the search is the point

I only like broken
I only like the imperfect

Almost midnight and the night finished with a fantastic kiss
Something started long ago
I'm giddy but recall your issues w me
You spelled them out quietly
Wet lips on mine
Tall strong looking fine
You hugged me and still that
Subtle shake that brings me fever
Our paths vary greatly
I'm not inclined to let it go
Never gave it up to me
Always left a mystery
Sleeping next to me
Get next to me
Give me that moment
You in me

I consider deleting your contact
Perhaps I’m not ready for
Feelings

I opened myself from collar bone to ****
Ending where you lapped
Hungrily
Where I longed for touch

I opened my heart up despite the danger
Of ending in heartache
Willingly
Because I long for depth

I rise in the am
Dress wounds
I should have grown out of

I rise in the am
Wash away
the night before
your imprints
On my ***

I rise in the am
Force out
The hours of conversation
We’ve shared

Because this panic doesn’t suit me

Because I’m scared that your touch completes me only too perfectly

And perhaps life doesn’t hand me sweetness so easily

Caffeinate
Try not to hate
Only create
once-Devastated
And now mediated
Sealed and fated
Better off
Getting off
The lights down low
See nice and slow
But she said no
So on we go
The daily grind
Chewing up my mind
12 hr days
But getting paid
No sleep in sight
I put up a fight
Stretched to the limit
Now you swimmin in it
Tapped line straight to Feds
Closin in and now I'm seein red
closing in, and yeah
They closing in
Mind alert
Goin berzerk
Hurry up it'll be too late
Go ahead and Fill up my plate
Over flow
The lights down low
They'll never know
Down we go

You in too deep
Too late for sleep and so we
Caffeinate.. And yeah we caffeinate

Grapefruit soda first thing in the morning
Longing for Jamaican beef patty winning combination
Queens to Manhattan commute
Diverse and chasing
Ever late and racing
But not today
Today I sip on a fancy soda that taste like ting but with a manhattan price ticket
With a few minutes left
Before the race begins again.

5 dollars for the beer
And 5 for your sadness
Could have been something
But the light went out
Dust collecting to the right
It could have been dynamite
Champion of the come and unwind
Instead in creeps what the devil may find
Dreams don’t live here
Only remnants of better days
And the crackle of desperation
So 5 dollars for the beer
And 5 for your sadness
The least I can do.
Before moving on to the next spot.

Wake me
Like the scent of havdalah spices
That breathe life into a slumbering soul

Wake me
Like giggling from the other Room naughty kids
Plotting plotting

Wake me
Like the touch on my shoulder
Ever so close to my neck
Your fingers against my flesh

This empty bed pains me
But the prospect of a dead marriage pains me more

Daily grind finds me
Plotting; plotting

But days turn to wasted weeks
Only just plotting; plotting