I am left yearning to drown,
When smothered in your love.
Breath, breath is optional,
I live off of your love.

Addiction, obsession, craving,
Need, you are need,
So I repeat the same words back to you,
Drown me.

I miss watching your words,
always carefully chosen,
light up my screen.

I miss your laugh,
the way it was slightly different,
when you were talking to me.

I miss your face,
always carefully controlled,
even when I knew you were itching to smile.

I miss you.

A reminder of an ex-lover?
An unstitched wound?
An uninvited guest?
An unbearable pain?

All the unanswered questions
haunt me now day and night.

Can I stop making mistakes,
'Cause it's what makes me hate
myself....more and more.
I know it's in my nature, but
there's a creature
crawling inside my brain.
I want to hold myself,
scratching my skin to the bone.
Can I just vanish in dreams
and never return?
I am scared of everything.
The question always lingers:
What if I can't make it?
What if... I can't?

She curled up her fingers
In mine
Read my mind
My heart screamed