you spoiled every cells in me
overjoyed, you bath me with love
and in kisses,
and hugs, you took me so high
i fear the drop
could break me into pieces
but you hold me so tight
like a harness, on my climb,
you're safe- you assured that i am
you guided the steps i take
and in every wound i get
you were there to kiss the pain away
so every day,
i take you not as a passing thought
but the usual hero
in my lifetime event

you promised me art
beyond love
and you said,
it was ***

indulged, i mind it
as my Freaking bUsiness;
a Contract, i thought
with our hearts
and you said,
it's fun

with a cracK
i lay naked
seeing the truth
you hid, behind your lips
i'm just for fun
for you to ****

remind yourself
that you owe you
an apology
for not loving
your worth

i write when i'm excited
i write when i'm sad
i write when i'm burning
with feelings so overwhelming

i write when my head is busy
buzzing figures of speeches
and words that asks collateral
disruptions
and voices that pays no toll
for causing distractions

i write when i feel empty
i write when i'm filled with empathy

i write when everyone speaks too much
my heart aches for reasons,
papers and pens could only reach
to comfort and preach
that i am strong as such
and when i'm down,
i can help myself fetch

i write when i think of nothing
the ruins of my thoughts
lingers like unpaid debts
of feelings, rejected and ignored
that wakes me up at 3am
i couldn't do anything
but lie and think
and to papers and pen
i write them down
page by page, endlessly
until i ran out of blood
my pen is dry without its ink

i write with my life
as the blood of my pen

you are bitter-sweet
the coffee treat
i will never forget

you are the lever
that lifts my soul, to new level
and i always wonder
how you set fever
into summer

you are bitter-sweet
and to wander
your world,
takes no deep thoughts to ponder