I fell asleep in my bed and woke up in the rain
I sit up and watch it, I cry in your name
I dragged my body down the street last night,
bled outside your door.
nobody saw me

there is a ghost in your room, gum on your wall
you hit me, bruised me on your bed.
i get lost when i'm alone at night,
no pain to guide me home
no blood to feed my soul.
show me to suffer,
devastate me with your hands.
i'm nothing without you to hurt me

i fall out of my head
when i don't know where you are
you could not have been an angel
you never got that far
but i still don't know where you are

I crawl out of my skin
My bones crack open
My desires leave my body
My heart is volatile
My blood fleeting from my veins
If my skin was a mirror
I'd shatter violently
I am unknown, faceless in the dark

All I see is copper toned flesh
Your saliva tastes like cherries that are just about to burst

I know you like me in white,
Crying over your body as if you were a deity

Your hands unravel on me like peach ribbons
My pores ooze desire

The night shade smothers us like a blanket
Our hearts blackened by tenderness

I get lost in the curvature of your mouth
You are found under my skin

The sun boils over me
Hot flesh never smells sweet

There's still a God
He stares at me in streets
Burning my feet under asphalt

I don't know his name
But I'm sure he could take the swell of our star
And lick salty sweat

Your heat creates blisters in my skin
I'm feverish now;
The steam only rises higher

The sun never ceases creating craters in my layers

Stop darting your eyes lover,
Believe me when I lie to you.
This is not blood on my hands,
Just cherry ridden love.

Let me spread you apart against my body.
I leave you purple;
Wondering how lips could have such depth.

You are the color of the moon
Pure in complexion,
But I am ravenous, lover
My hands are harsh on the skin.

I might be black and blue,
But I'm pink and gold for you.

When I look down into the water I can see a version of me I'm all too familiar with.
A one dimensional black shadow that ripples unfailingly.

The days I can see myself as a whole being, I stretch my skin, looking for small flesh wounds, the ones no one ever looks close enough to see.

On the inside, I'm all bones, I'm pumping a dark red. My organs slowly rot until they turn into a golden brown.

I stand sharp like a needle in a crowded room. Is there some way I could compact my bones, blood, body fat and shadow into to something smaller?

Is there a way to fold into myself physically as I do mentally?

I look up at the stars
Each one chants
Pleading for me to join them
So tonight, I'll lay in bed
Hope for something, anything to take me away
I'll join the galactic
Crawl into a black hole
Sit at the foot of the moon
Float aimlessly into the dark universe
This eternal vacancy inside of me
Can't really be defined other than like this:
As empty as space, as full as the galaxy

Floating through the stars in my head
It suddenly feels like, I couldn't belong anywhere other than your bed
And it scares me to the point of madness
How quickly you've picked me up
How here, right now I could burst with the ferocity of a thousand suns
Because when you kiss me it feels
Something like magic
Through my body surges of light come through the cracks in my skin
They shine onto you
It's only that I think you're heavenly
And when we collide
I finally breathe again

I swallow 20mg a day
I stay quiet next to you
I don't tell you you're the most beautiful thing I've seen in months
I know you're hungry
You don't eat your mother’s dinner
You eat me instead
I'm trying to find a way to tell you that your a heaven sent angel with a fat halo
But you grab at me and I can't speak clearly
My life with you have been episodes of this:

Departure, love, destruction and departure again
I scream you want it
you asked for it
you stood in my doorway wanting me
drawn to me like moth to a flame
Just come here again
Let me turn you over and hurt you again