If I could hold your hand forever
I know I would be safe
But you aren’t made to guard me
You let me make my own mistakes
But when I do
And when you find me broken on the floor
You take my hand again
And I am safe because I’m yours

This smile I hold for you,
For safe keeping,
I think I’d like to keep it.

We are patchwork people
The little girl who smiled
And the girl who cried
Neither of us whole
Because we have been torn apart
How long can you hold my heart
Before it falls apart as well
And you’d never know
that I was anything other than broken
Because my suffering has overcome me
And what love I had was lost
So very long ago
And I would say I love you now
But I don’t think we can
Because we are patchwork people
And if I give you this piece of me
There won’t be enough left
To hold me together
And when the parts begin to fray
You won’t recognise me
Perhaps you don’t know me even now
Because we are patchwork people
And we can never be whole again

You broke your own rules
And what for?
So they could break you again?
So you could stare into the mirror
And ask why?
You know why.
This is your fault now
So do it all again,
One more time.
Maybe this time will be different?
You’ve told that lie before
And you’re such a bad liar.

Everyone is watching now,
Watching me fall apart.
Staring with intrigue
As my mask cracks and fades.
Look at me now,
The truth revealed.
I hope you’re all happy to see me.

I’m left here again
Alone and scared of myself
Blood on my hands
My blood as always
I don’t even know why I’m here
Or what I feel right now
Except pain
My single constant
At least I can rely on that

I fall deeper into misery
With every passing day,
And the more I lie
The more it hurts inside.
I’m so angry it hurts
And self hatred is tearing me apart.
I don’t know who I am anymore.
I don’t know what I have left to hold on to
So please just let me let go.