dysfunctional feelings
"I love you too"
exactly my point,
influenced by conformation.
direct deposit
overdrawn enthusiasm
settles my broken heart

whatever happened to starlit eyes?
Inside my confusion lies
exaggerated ideals
suffer thru compromise
controlled substances come to many uses
conflicting stories in my lines
only to suffer less pain
straight thru the vein
where were my words to express the rush
of freedom, as it vanished
along with my starlit eyes

Something in the green beer made people sick
happy birthday mommy
my life revolves around this pen
only now for orders
-not emotion
what's that?
I couldn't begin to remember anything real
busted my *** today
just trying.
but scraped my hand and bit my lip

Too soon I will need to depart from what is closest to my heart
going away from my land of Oz (Hello Poetry)at least saying goodbye for a short, maybe even long time
   Falling into the unknown rabbit hole, which might be kind of magical but I don't know yet for now comes with some uncertainty and anxiety
It is for now another chapter yet unwritten in this book called my life
Many books to be read, questions that I need to find answers for
writing poems being replaced with papers to write
Many new faces in crowded classrooms at first nameless faces, Age differences spanning many years
hope that obstacle is  not a barrier to making friends as I feel
It is good to have friends of all ages
I wish that the previously unknown faces will become my friends in class  
Test anxiety that I hope to overcome
The end of my summertime  becomes Fall
                                                                Quarter
                                                                        Way
                                                                           Too
                                                                              Soon

Simplified in silence
Capture these emotions
calculate my temptation
to run away and never look back
I'm lost in love
not searching for exit
excited by senses
touch, taste, sound
feeling you near
even though you're nowhere around

Counting on time to be by my side
Never thought today would come
That the yesterdays would lead me here
A false sense of self, in a world with whom I am lost

I find myself here again at this place
questions with no answers

Beginning again to find a place to rest
Trying to find comfort in my loneliness