Lying to myself I know
I made so many mistakes
Chasing the life and love of many statements
All will fade away

Tonight maybe last night to watch my dreams come true
Contrite heart and bitter thoughts need to hear from you
I need your guidance
Said I really need your guidance

Silent room and blank canvas,
Even if I paint you I know the colors of the wind will blow you to your write angles...
Speaking to deep I guess I draw a lot of confusion.
But sketching what you wrote I'll be living in a great delusion.
Everything I do to make it up you have created me to be this perfect villain...
All because I had one close to my heart when a female wasn't .
I'm tired of reading your book on who I will become
I rebuke you and go back guide I was before we wasn't ....
Silent room and poet dancing
You project out of your body only to see me live life but me and my peace.....


I'm a happily married husband

I'm down okay no real sh×t
I'm not suppose to curse I fail on wrist
Clock broken like look at the times I missed.
I use ******* just to let go of it
I use to shop in the malls like money doesn't exist
Now 4 men down and...can't tell you how much souls I hit.
Idk if I gotta problem or... I'm just talking to you like we're on bench.

But if I was truthful I hate the way I'm looking at lot of this.

Alot of people mad at me when I chose my own self
If I truly told you the truth I had to **** in cup to get out of it !
I was on drugs okay ... And I was truly trying to live this Godly mess
I say mess because now I know I'm dirt in every *** I kiss
I'm 30 now and I regret doing a lot of stuff I did
If we're truly talking about the pills I don't remember half of it
All I know is the devil son keeps telling me you did this sh×××t
Yet the Lord ask you every day to forgive them for they done to you

....I guess when he said you will sow what you reap ...I pray abd ask for seed thats merciful .

Another day
Another dollar!
The model of .... A Money monster
Lord you can be honest ...Do I sound like that monster?!

What if I don't
Why don't I do it!
I'm tired ... I'm only human
Lord I'ma be honest I don't really know how to do this...

I like a chubby cheek
The ones  you take to home.

Thick guys are sweet
The other ones to cold
I taught you how to move your feet
When the rhythm on
It's just the little things he makes me when I'm gone
But you don't know what they're like
When they ask you for your phone
It's like of all the years and shame to bring a Good man home
Like "there's no way!"
And "where did you go?!"
Forgot to text back okay but ill make it up when I get back home......

DONT TRY TO FIND YOUR SPACESHIP
THEY MIGHT BE OUT THERE WAITING
STAY IN MY BACK PACK ...FOREVER
STAY IN MY BACK PACK ...FOREVER

Especially for you.
I'll take room key for 2
Roses and couple of  balloons..
Tell me why you wanna make a move?

I'll take the blame if u stay.
Your yelling well let's throw a little parade.
Your mad at me but I'm not mad at you
It's like the room is me I feel consumed!

I don't understand I made my feet do the talking ..
I thought that ring was through the ******* I promise.
But if you think I'm worthless okay well I guess I'm garbage.

Especially for you
I only think of you
So what you tryna do ?
You hate the questions to
But isn't that how answers turn lessons with view ?

Don't ever say my heart will stray...
I'm dreaming but my hearts awaaakeee
I'm tasting what I did that day
Don't push me when I'm on the edge

I went out with my dream in the gudda.
Libra young like his mom he's not suddle
Tempers rise when he wanted to be special
I'ma king and the crown is not simple
Capricorn use to ride on my bezel
Gave me thorns and I still think that's better..
Up in Cypress my heart is gem
Yet the want me to be just like them
Yet they want me horned like I'm HIM
YET THEY KISS ME LIKE I DONT KNOW THEM.....

am tired of earth, I am tired of me..
Entangled by lies,pulling powers that haunt me
Don't be curious, he watches my wonderings.

Blow the trumpets, cause the clocks has stopped
Here I am looking down blowing myself up,
Gaze at the mirror I hate what I got
But glad to say one day this body will rot...
Then what?

I am tired of this world, I am tired of my room,
The dragons call me to slay them soon.
To much memories with demons I know there's a heaven..

I am tired of.....being here I'm ready to leave
Walk one step I step into eternity.

And I kiss every word  that you said.
And I dance to the songs in your head...
How come your Paris won't take down your France ?
You seen my Whitney in Houston again....
What I said ..?
What I did?!
You think I wanna control all the wind,
I'm king I'm boy to a man !
Amen
Amen !
I'm not no God not the devil
Amen !
Some how you think that ruin your plans???
But I never meant to ruin your vans....
YET I KISS EVERY STORM IN YOUR HEAD?
YET I SWALLOW MY PRIDE  ONCE AGAIN
AMEN!
AMEN
.....im just a ...
A man

Cut some lemon in a water.
Moon mixing properly the days are so exotic
Im sober thinking honestly like shades I cover happening
Im losing to the Calvary
Like tell me are you mad at me still...

And Im still standing still
And his ways are right here
And his love right there
Can't believe that I'm here.

Can you believe I'm still here
Can you believe I'm right here
Can you believe in my fears ?

If I was who they knew and I couldn't change to them then who are you when you use to know me?
Several times you look up and try your best to recognize but you can't place your finger on where you met me?
So you look back down at your phone to find memories of who I am but as you looked up I'm another person again ....
And I again I asked who are you ? If they never stayed
Where were you if you did all you could to not change to grey
I got older and I thought about your ways
It seems like when you were trying to find the words to say
I smiled and said ....
Oh yeah I know how that could be ...
And as you walked away
I couldn't help but think you were right the whole way
So I changed...

Stitch the static
Electric habits
Hydro codeine minerals cover sinks inside of napkin...
Scribble and scrabble the words to dance on like a sock to a Jackson
In love with Beretta his momma a set-up she hated my black skin
I'm not a Cancer
Cut on the light I'm still passive....

BOOYA
My cyborg cool
BOOYA!
This civic cool
I'm giving codes y'all
If I told on you...
In love with me because I played the fool

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Time still r
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ANDMYMINDSTILLRUNNING
Smelling the vibesss it's like perfummmm...
It's perfummmm
Perfummmm...
Is it cool to think about ya
I'm still.....drrrrr
                            Ooooo
                                    Wwwwlllling
ALL
ABOUT
YA

UH YEA WAIT.
already understand you don't believe in me ..
But look at Green-er
Look In the sky peep the Scene-er
What do you feel
What do you feel ?
You don't feel like being mean to me
Hold me so tight so Glee-fully
You not *** your a treat to me ...

I can be so honest that you think I'm toxic I swear upon the logic yet its running through like fossil
Its running just like  sonic
Go catch the life you said you wanted
Go ahead and break another promise
Come here kiss me cause you love it
Excuse my thoughts there always naked
Excuse my fingers like "what you watching "?
Your hairy chest is just look like *****
The smell of death when you start talking
I hate the way you say my name!
My thoughts the fall like leaves and rain
Me and your new one not the same
I'll take bullet for your games
I'll take inch and make a way
I'll lick clean without the fray
No I'm not scared to take the pain
I'll take bullet just be honest
I love the way make me *****
My ******* loves to make it rain
Your birthday falls like leaves AND TRACES I DRAW ANOTHER CONCLUSION ITS JUST ANOTHER ILLUSION I BLINK ....and feel so stupid
....I sit right here....dam im so stupid
........you sit right there you look so clueless
......I love the way you are so clueless

Why can't I have someone that sticks me until they speak to me.
Open the door to a comic book store cause it's the little things
Try to wait for me after work after a fight
And last but not least cuddle me like my chest was there pillow

I had dream of two suns one was bright the other was brighter
I was next to my old church called
EAST GATE
And I was standing in field....
As I looked up again the Brighter blew up in my face and suddenly I was lifted in prism...

Today I miss him
Tomorrow is not promises
The days are like missions
And my  thoughts are pure *****.
In heaven your aim is to please The Love beyond Lovers,
So am I going to be choose by faithful spirit in the dark?
What did we do ..
Eve didn't only pick up an apple its like we committed adultery with our minds with a snake ...
The purest darkness you can see
Because when I think of my ex I truly am down on my knees ...
Every taste of this apple is regret that hits so deep it's I can see the deceit in my genes.
AND ALL WHO WANNA BE APART OF THIS CLEAN TALK SHOULD CONSIDER  WHAT WE LOST!!!
For a world without HE who watered us like plants from his being.

Thrillers come dance to the sound villain,
Players keep snapping your hands to the ceiling
Have you ever heard the sound of whose missing?
Have you ever looked at another man washing his hands from a killing?
It bleeds thru my soul how they took my heart
It taste disgusting if I told you how I got my fame.
I had my dream person and they told me I wasn't enough....
As the party gets louder
And the lovers call it a night
It was like .... The stars were watching us
It was like .... Jacob told me where dreams come from
It was like .....my tears told me where they stood
And when the song was over I could hear the sound of millions weeping

I don't know why you do what you do but i trust,
Many will see you yet we will delight in your coming