Happy anniversary

We didn't make it

Here i am, celebrating the event alone

With a glass of wine, i ask myself

Will i ever get to call you mine again?

Happy anniversary

There you are happy with someone else

Here i am crying for someone i still love

Crying for you

Shouting your name and saying that i need you

Where are you?

Happy anniversary

We didn't make it

Maybe one year is enough for me to realise that you're never coming back

Maybe one year is enough for me to realise that i'll never get to call you mine again

Happy anniversary

I don't want to do this

It would hurt me more than how hurt i am right now

But it's time to finally move on

Happy anniversary

I'm finally letting you go

Ang 'yong tinig ang taga pag pakalma sa tuwing puso't isip ay gulong gulo

Ikaw ang kapayapaan sa magulo kong mundo

Ikaw ang araw na sumisikat sa maulan kong mundo

Mga salita **** "nandito lang ako, hindi kita bibitawan"

Ang sarap sarap sa pakiramdam na may isang ikaw sa buhay ko

Sa'yong piling, luha'y napapalitan ng ngiti

Hindi man magawang hagkan dahil tayo'y malayo sa isa't isa

Dama ko pa rin ang mga yakap **** pumapawi sa aking lumbay

Ngunit ngayo'y nasaan?

Tila ba lahat ay nag bago na

Muli ko pa bang maririnig ang 'yong tinig?

Matutupad ba ang pangakong hanggang dulo?

Ang tayo ba'y maibabalik pa sa dati?

Ano man ang sagot ng tadhana

Tatanggapin

Masaktan man o maging masaya

Tanging hiling ko lang sa'yo

Ako sana'y huwag kakalimutan

Lagi mo sanang tandaan na merong ako

Na mahal ka at patuloy kang mamahalin

Hanggang dulo

Pagbilang ko ng tatlo, hahayaan ko ang sarili kong mahulog sa'yo

Isa

Dalawa

Tatlo

Heto ako't sugatan, luhaan, nagtatanong kung bakit ito nagawa sa akin?

Asan ka? Bakit hindi mo ako sinalo?

Noong nakilala kita, takot pa akong sumugal muli dahil nasaktan na ako ng maraming beses

Pero sa'yong patibong, ako'y nahulog

Sumugal ako, at heto ngayon, sugatan, luhaan, naiwan na naman na puno ng katanungan

Kapag hawak niya ang mga kamay ko, ikaw ang iniisip ko

Kapag sinasabi niyang mahal niya ako, ikaw ang naaalala ko

Kapag tinitignan niya ako, mukha mo ang nakikita

Kapag tumatawa siya, tawa mo ang aking naririnig

Ginusto niya 'to, pero tanga ako

Kasi hinayaan ko siyang masaktan

Oo, napapasaya niya ako. Pero ikaw pa rin talaga! Pinapaasa ko siya kada araw na lumilipas

Sinungaling ako, sinungaling din siya. Sinungaling ako kasi sinasabihan ko siya ng mahal ko siya, kahit ang totoo ay ikaw pa rin

Sinungaling siya kasi kunwari ayos lang siya, kunwari hindi siya nasasaktan

Hindi ako karapat dapat sa kanya, pero hindi ko alam kung paano tapusin

Ayokong tapusin kasi mahal ko na 'ata siya

Hindi man ako ang 'yong ibig

Hindi lalayo

Hindi rin ipipilit ang sarili

Mananatili ako sa piling mo

Kung saan kahit hindi ka akin

Puso'y walang ibang maramdaman

Kundi saya

Saya dahil ikaw ang kapiling

Sa'yong mga haplos, ako'y natutunaw
Sa'yong mga yakap, pakiramdam ko ako'y ligtas
Sa'yong piling, ako ay sumasaya

Ngunit heto na, malapit na naman mag umaga
Gigising na naman ako
At muling ipapaalala sa akin ng mundo

Na ika'y isang magandang panaginip lamang
Na hindi pwedeng maging realidad
Dahil siya at hindi ako

Be with someone who'll love you the way you want me to love you

Be with someone who makes you happy the way i make you happy

Be with someone who you can be yourself with, like you being yourself with me

Be with someone i'm not
Because you see, i do love you
I make you smile
You can be yourself with me

But, that someone can't be me
I'm not that someone
Yes, i do love you, but believe me i'm not that someone

You don't deserve me
I love you but not in the way you want me to
You don't deserve me

I love the way you understand me

I love the way you make me feel loved

But i know

I can never have you

You make me feel loved

But you can't love me

I know

I'm sorry for falling

Please don't hate me

But

This is the real me

I fall in love with the same ***

I'm attracted to girls

And i can say that

You're not just a girl

You have something that they don't have

You make me feel things i shouldn't feel

You often make my heart race

But these words are useless

You make me feel loved

But you can't love me

You're not into girls

I just want to give up but i can't for there are many people who roots for me

If i leave them, they'll cry

It won't be easy for them to forget about me

The me that i never knew

The happiness that they saw in me will be gone

Happiness that i never saw myself

All the things they loved about me will be gone

Things that i never saw myself

But if i'm not gonna end this now, how long will i suffer?

I've been suffering for a long time now, so you mean to tell i have to suffer more?

Is the pain i'm feeling right now not enough?

Oh well, since when did i became enough? Hmmm, that's right! Never in my life

Not even a single day in my life

I'm sorry i'm just tired of finding my worth

You'll understand if you're in my situation

Now that you know how hard my suffering is

Is it okay now to leave the people who believes in me?

Please tell me that that's already an enough reason

Please, let me rest

We have many things in common

I talk to you when i'm down

You understand me

And i hate myself for that

I can't help but fall for you

So here i am

Hoping that you feel the same

Why am i so stupid?

Why do i keep hoping?

When clearly

You're not into girls

Feeling like where ever i am

Where ever i go

I don't belong

I exsist but do i really exsist?

It's like i'm screaming for attention

But no one hears it

Or maybe they refuse to listen to it

I'm tired of feeling alone in a crowded room

I hear everyone but they can't hear me

I hear their laughters

Everyone is happy without me

Everyone have someone to talk to

While i don't

I want to break these walls

I want to befriend people

But i'm afraid that i might just build walls all over again

I'm tired of being alone but scared of having friends

She broke me, but she saved me from me

She saved me from my dark world

She gave me a reason to cry when i need to

Because of her i learned to let it out

She gave me strength

She made me discovered my fate

She made me discovered the one thing i'm good at

She made me write

She's the reason why i'm still here

And because of that, i've loved her more as a person

She came, she broke me, she saved me

I never saw you as my lover

I only saw as my friend

Then i fell, at the wrong time

For there you are now, happily in love with someone else

Why am i so stupid?

I ignored your love

Your efforts

I ignored you

Now you're gone

And here i am wishing

Wishing that i'm still the one

But my wish won't be granted anymore

Because you're now happy with someone else

I'm sorry to those who really cares for me

Sorry for i'm blind thinking that no one cares about me

Maybe because no one cared for me for so long that it came to the point i can't see what's real from not, anymore

But please don't give up on me

Don't leave me

Stay with me, will you?

Hold me and make me believe once more

That in this world, i am not alone

I don't know the word "happiness"

Yes i do laugh even on small things

But i often ask myself

"Am i really happy?"

You have me

But his heart is what i want

His heart who loves someone else

His heart that i can't have

His heart who's in love with someone he can't have

You insisted, i didn't have a choice

You chose your pain

You chose me

You are willing to take his place that's why you have me

And i know that you're hurting

But with your touch, i melt

With your kiss, i surrender

With you i forget that i love my best friend

With you, i fall

I don't want to fall any deeper

Let's end this

I don't want you hurting no more

I don't deserve you

I'm not a princess who deserves a prince like you

I'm just someone who loves someone that can't love me back

I love you

I lost the one who loved me so much, i lost you

Sorry for not holding you the way you want me to hold you

Sorry for not loving you the way you want me to

It's just, i don't want to lie

Because i know that if i pretend, i'll hurt your feelings

I lost you and i'm okay with that

I lost you and i'm happy because i know that you'll find someone better than me

Someone who will love you the way you want

Someone who will hold you no matter what

Someone who will show you what love is

I lost you and that's okay

It started with a kiss and a hug
I won't forget the day you told me you love me

We were so happy back then, fighting for love
Understanding each other

But it also ended with a kiss and a hug
And followed by the words "i love you" and "goodbye"

"Expect me to be there when times get rough" you said

Now tell me

Why am i alone?

Suffering pain

Tears running down my face

Screaming internally

Where is everybody?

Where are you?

You left me too, just like how everyone left me

I never should've trusted you

Now i'm suffering

Alone once more

I have found my lost smile

Thought it would last long, but it didn't

It was quickly replaced with pain, tears, and added a heart break on my already broken heart

I am alone once more

Screaming internally

"Where the **** is everybody?"

My world was already broken even before i met you

You fixed it

Then you broke it

You left me too

You let go

I didn't have someone to lean on

Just you

I only have you

But you left me

And held someone else's hands

I dated an actor

He told me that he loves me.
He told me that he'll fight for me.
He told me i'm the only one.

Hey, guess what? It was an act all along.

I never got to kiss you

Hold you

See you

But my heart belongs to you and only you

And i wish you felt the same

But you never felt the same

You said you love me

But your heart was trying to reach for someone you can't have

You were mine

But not really

Because i'm not the one you love

And will never be that someone

Baby, tell me why can't i love you the way you love me?

Why am i choosing you as a friend??

I don't deserve you, baby
You love me even if i don't return the love

I tried several times to push you away from me, but there you are, hurting, but still loving me

You don't deserve me, i don't deserve you
Please, free yourself from me
I can't love you
But i love you

I love you, but not in the you want me too
You deseve better
Please, let go

I most of the time hate rain

But on the other hand

I'm thankful for the rain

For it helps me hide my tears

And let out the pain I'm hiding

It's most of the time my enemy

Because I hate its thunder and lightning

But the truth is i can't accept more rain in my life

For it has been raining in my life since day one

I've been sad since i started to have a mind of my own

And all I want is for the rain to stop

I wanna see the sun shine on me

All i want is to experience happiness

Is that too much to ask?

With the walls in my heart

I complain

I often ask myself

Why?

Why am i always alone?

Why does no one one appreciates me

When will i be enough

When can i smile a true smile

When can i take off my mask?

Because of this wall, people who loves me can't show how much they appreciate me

Behind the wall in my heart, people who loves me are shouting the things i badly want to hear

But i often don't believe them

I'm sorry

Anger, Pain , and my demon

Is taking over me

I received too much pain

I was alone for too long

So i'm sorry for i can't trust and let people in

For i know you would only leave in the end

Just like what everyone else did

I am a prisoner

In a cell i made myself

Help me

Let me out of here

My other self is stronger

Saying i should just stay here in the cell

She's making the words that would help me out of of here pass through my other ear

She's saying things that makes me afraid of going out

and just stay in the cell

She's too strong

What do i do?

I been locked up in this cell for a long time now

Please

Help me escape

How can i love myself

When she say's i'm worthless

I wanna trust others who are saying that i matter

but as i said, she's making those words pass through my other ear

I am not alone

But i am alone

I only get to go out this cell in public
I fake a smile

Wear a mask to hide these tears

I can't let people know about my demon which is my other self

Because i know

No one will ever understand me

No one would dare to save me

I don't matter

But please

I'm begging you

Save me from me

Save me from the demon inside me

Stuck.

All those good nights and good mornings are now a memory

It will forever remain a memory because you're not mine anymore

All those i love you's and i love you too's keeps haunting me

Baby, i wish we could turn back time from the old us, the happy and in love us.

Now it's just me, no you, no us

I'm left alone stuck with your precious memory while you're making new memories with your new world.

My whole world got ruined by the person who helped me build that world.

Baby, tell me how could i ever forget you, please teach me how

You taught me to love you, now teach me how to forget you

You are the most wonderful person i've ever met

You lift me up when i'm down

You hurt me with truth

And that's better than telling me what i want to hear

You met me at my best

You stayed at my worst

And you're still here with me

You are the moon that gives brightness to my dark world

You are a goddess inside and out

You

I love you

I love everything about you

And you

You can't be mine

I'm tired of pretending

Pretending that i'm okay

Pretending that i'm happy

Pretending that i'm strong

I want to cry freely

Express the real me

I don't wanna fake a smile no more

No one wants to go deeper

Nobody wants to see the demon inside me

No one dared to save me

And it's so unfair

For i help others but no one helps me

I see the demons of others and i never left those people

They left me

Can't you see?

I'm tired of helping and not receiving any help

Please, for once i wanna receive help