If I said I love you
Would your games end
Would God be mad
Would we still be "friends"

You told me not to fall
As you led me to an abyss
You told me not to cross the line
As you gave me a kiss

You said you didn't care
As you wiped tears off my face
You said everything bores you
As you made my heart race

You said you didn't know love
As you sang lullabies about it
You said you'd break my heart
As you cradled my every heartbeat

This confusing tug of heart
The high risk of you hurting me
That slight chance that you won't
Made me hope for a "maybe"

This playful, painful thing
Which you handled carelessly
Might not be love for you
But it is for me.

"Show me your scars" he said.
As I unraveled them one by one
By the time I was halfway done
There's a new scar, and he's gone

While I was in the dark
Ironically, all became clear
Doubts and worries vanished
My nightmares disappeared

Monsters under the bed
Were fluffing my pillows
Skeletons in the wardrobe
Were designing my clothes

Abandoned by my own shadow
Everything collapsed in its path
As air tried to suffocate
It was when i could finally breathe

As fear fueled the candles
The only things that lit the dark
When I lost everything I knew
Strength welcomed me home