best part about having no friends
is having no enemies either
best part of having no significant other
is being able to feel whole by yourself
best part of solitude is
solitude
best part of loneliness is...
I wouldn't know that. I never
felt lonely.

I don't want to think straight
Because all that's ever gotten me
Is the coldness of reality
Existential aching
Loneliness and grief
But I've been crazy too
Fed lies by my brain
Paranoid beyond function
Paralyzed by indecision
Why can't life
Why can't my mind
Why can't people
Ever just be gentle?

Some days...
Some days it’s just so bad...
My skin feels like fire
I want to tear it off
Everything aches
And everything
Is a trigger

I glide my fingers over
The scab I didn’t mean to make
And try to convince myself
Not to make any more