Oh that cloak of shame,
Seductively swaddling us in its clutches,
Affecting every thought, every decision, every action,
Hiding our light,
From others,
From ourselves,
Weighing upon us,
Dragging us down,
Exhausting us,
So that even putting one foot in front of the other
Is a struggle,
A challenge to stay afloat,
When all you need to do
Is undo the knot at the throat
And throw off this stubborn, worthless dastard imposter
To reveal the glory
The wonder
The joy
That is you

A slave to fear no more
We are God’s children,
And I accept I’m a daughter of God
A heir of god
Co-heir with Christ
Sharing in his sufferings and his glory,
I may face rejection or opposition
In this topsy turvy world of ours,
But with faith and God’s backing
I stand strong
In the face of all adversity

Oh Lord,
Give me patience,
Forgiveness,
Understanding,
Gentleness,
Compassion,
And­ kindness,
Towards myself and others,
And ever lasting gratitude
For your perseverance
And tenacity
In never giving up on me,
And for your unconditional love
For all of me,
Warts and all,
Eternally yours
Thank you.
Amen

What will it take to remember
I AM enough
I AM deserving
I AM loved
By Him at least,
And to know
It will all become easier
When I learn to accept
And let go?

I’ve been through such deep seated pain for so long,
Like a knife to the heart being twisted and dug in deeper each day,
For 50 long years,
Like a glutton for punishment
Going back for more.
It’s taking time to know and understand there’s another way to be,
For my many wounds to heal,
For my barbs to soften,
For my defences to disintegrate,
And for my heart to fully open up and let love in
Unconditionally.

I know I am in need of humility Lord,
To throw off my shackles of insecurities,
Of needing to feel significant,
For only you need bear witness to the impact from my good deeds,
To know the impression from concentric rings
Of my thrown stones of kindness
Rippling out in the water of life.
Not others.
Not me.
I just need to let go,
To trust you,
To trust others,
To trust me,
And know the timing is ok,
I’m here now,
Imperfect yet ready
To serve you in whatever way you have chosen for me,
And to throw myself into others with kindness and compassion,
Starting with myself.
And to know I have your divine strength to help me bravely fight and overcome evil,
So I drown no more in the murky mud and tangled weeds of tumbled thoughts of negativity and insults,
And instead show others the way
Of truth.