Our anniversary rose

You secretly chose the most beautiful rose

You were so careful to not let me see

You never could guess
I secretly witnessed the love in your eyes as you chose the perfect one

You never could guess
I secretly witnessed the love in your eyes as you sent it to another

Sometimes she chose to believe the lies, awaiting the inevitable

Hoping it would never come

Sometimes, she chose to live in the truth, her heart pierced and ripped from the depths of her soul

Her will to survive slowly slipping away as the lies filled the room with darkness

I love you, you said
I want you, you said
But in truth you meant neither

Love ‘me’ you were seeking
Want ‘me’ you were pleading

I believed ‘we’ were one.
I believed ‘we’ each cared.

So foolish I feel to have believed.

I gave you my all to help you be whole.

Your void ****** me dry.
Yet you still can’t love you.

Now you are trying to trap yet another.

Betrayal, deceit, impatience, and exclusion

Realization births swirling feelings of hate, love, loathing and disgust

The hurt at times is unbearable

Love still striving to survive bursts ever stronger but cannot win if this body is to survive

Now the ****** comes from both outside and within