The Fear is being alive whilst you already feel Dead
No emotions empty thoughts going through my head
The smiles are gone and my heart feels broke
Days, week, months go past i am not the same bloke
The sun is shining but yet my world looks so Dark
I try to become the better me but i lost my spark
feel trapped into a box nobody around all Alone
I've got family and friends happiness and sadness but yet i have nowhere i can call home
Fear keeps you trapped all want is to be free
But the biggest Fear is me

The Hatred I Feel is Caused Be me.
Trapped alone because I don't let anybody see.  
I Lie to myself to pretend this isn't real.
Embarrassed and guilt ridden hoping with time this will heal.
All I want is to make you proud.
Secrets hidden away I will never be able to speak out loud.
I am trying to change to become a better man.
Growing up with big dreams this was never part of the plan.
now all keep on thinking I have ran out of time.
the feeling is this life is no longer mine.

A boy and girl
Are we more
Honestly i cant be sure
We go out as mates
Not sure i can ever call it a date
We meet up all the time
But i know i can never call you mine
But friends will be fine

Need time to Heal
No Power Lost my Will
Need to Find My Fire
I've Lost My Desire
Need To Feel Alright
I have Already Lost the Fight
Need to find a way to be Okay
Find myself lost astray