Shai: Poems

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Shai Sep 2019

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Take it back
Tell me you don’t mean it.
Show me you care.
please
Tell me you do.
Say it with sincerity.
Lay my mind at rest
With thoughts of you
Loving me
Once again.

dare

Shai Jan 2019

dare

Fill my head
Like a cup
with your liquid love
Set fire to my brain
fuel it with your gasoline
Leave me
Broken
Burned
And empty.
I dare you.

#broken #love #sad

How much was true?

Shai Dec 2018

How much was true?

I listened to your words. And no matter what you said, it made sense. And they made me feel okay, your words, as they danced into my ears. You manipulate me. Used me for your benefit. And your words still dance around my head. But they bring questions with them. Did you mean what you said? Or were you only saying it because it was what I wanted to hear?

My Thoughts

Shai Dec 2018

My Thoughts

This is coming from my heart.
It’s what I feel. This is all my thoughts.
I think that sometime things might get better.
I think that sometimes I won’t be able to do it.
I think that sometimes things might get tough.
I also think I can get through it.
I think that I am strong enough.
I think that there’s always a way.
I think, I might just be okay :)

I think I’m actually getting better. There’s still a lot of sadness in me that I’m afraid won’t go away for a while. But today is bright. And tomorrow is an opportunity :)

Redo

Shai Dec 2018

Redo

I want a redo. I want to take back the things I said to you. I want to take back the things we did.

I want a redo. I want to avoid meeting you. I want to forget you exist.

I want a redo. I want to make us work. I want to be with you still. I want to be whole again.

I want things to be different. I want a different ending.

Things didn’t go how I wanted. Now all I am is hurt.

Snow

Shai Dec 2018

Snow

Snow falls from the sky,
Flakes of white, fluttering to the ground
Settling on trees, lampposts, houses
Creating a wonderland of beauty
I have just one question.
How can something so simple,
So cold,
Be so beautiful?
-snowislikemyex

stop

Shai Dec 2018

stop

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Storm

Shai Dec 2018

Storm

The tears that fall,
Mix with raindrops on my cheeks.
My sobs that echo,
are enveloped in thunder around me
I’m covered by the storm.
Blanketed by the cold rain.
I find it comforting.

I see this in many ways. It’s a metaphor that can be applied to a lot of situations. The storm could be many things.

#rain #comfort #storms #sad

Why can’t I be them?

Shai Dec 2018

Why can’t I be them?

I sit in a lonely corner.
Watching minutes go by.
The world spins around me.
And still no one can explain why.
Why I’m so hurt, in a world full of joy.
Why I’m so dark, in a world full of light.
No one can explain why I’m the only one. Sitting in this corner. While the other kids run

— The End —