cheapest, most insidious
effective form of oppression is internal.
It can be achieved when someone goes all the way inside
your soul
and throws out your self respect (self-love)
through repeated abusive tactics
both hidden and obvious
this is the foundation of all kinds of oppression.

this is what experience has taught me.

awaken, awaken
I commit
to higher levels of consciousness
expecting bliss
and today
as the dawn within me rises
I see
that
in
awakening
my ego grieves
while the watcher watches
ascending to me
means
to become lowly
I used to think it meant to become elevated
I had it wrong
it's to become lowly
the great peace and tranquility I experience
comes through
humility

Today I was the river
I felt my soul melt in the water
I became the water
I am the water
I felt my being-ness dissolve
Into complete oneness
“I” disappeared
Felt my spirit
Reunify with the truth of who it was
Which is everything
I was the river
I saw as the river sees
I held silence and observed
A quiet place within me
Where time does not exist
A peace so deep that
It melted me.

this is the death of cool
past times are gone
all that remains are memories
that scorch when touched
letting go of everything
burning the field
face reality and get set free
I heard the voice of wisdom call my name
been running away all these years
been thinking I had to atone for the sin of my past, for the sin of existing
when all along I've been wound up in a belief system that's not my own
I am set free now
to create a life of my own design
free
no more self flagellation
no more guilt only the present moment
only this eternal now

the death of cool
it's the birth of me

awaken awaken
I commit  expecting bliss
today
the dawn within me rose like a million rays of sunshine
awakening for me is seeing, clearly
my ego grieves as it peeks into the shadow self
observer consciousness watcher watching it all, detached, sweet relief to watch the pain
ascending for me
is to be lowly
the great peace and tranquility I experience
comes through the humility of seeing my humanity without delusion
grateful now
for finding a new purpose for those disowned parts of self and past actions
words to remind me
for when I inevitably step back into the delusion
of self and start buying my own ******* again

Happy, sad
It’s all a mixed bag
Based on my current state of mind

My interior landscape
I can’t escape
So how am I choosing
To feel on this day

Today I’m choosing
To party with my pity
I am so sad
And everywhere I look
I find evidence
Proving it’s true
As to why I’m so blue

Slowly the dawning
The light in my mind
Clearing through the storm clouds
Cleansing my mind

I’m beginning to see
That my reality
Reflects only me
My thoughts, my beliefs
Are what’s coloring my reality

I see a ray of sunshine
I grab it with both hands
Next thing I know
I’m in another land

Peace and serenity
Joy and oneness
As I tune in
To my inner love

breathe in the truth
exhale false teachings
logically speaking
it's just common sense
do not fear to think
the thought police are not real
they are a mental construct
your freedom is reliant
on letting yourself
out of
the prison
of your own mind.