Sad Case: Poems

Sad Case Feb 2017

Baby, I'm the stars in the sky. I'll make you count me 100 billion times. I may not always be there, but I forever shine.

Baby, I'm the stars in the sky. - Mistlyn Gonzalaz

#love #stars #galaxy #sky #baby #shine

1 - 10

Sad Case Sep 2017

1 - 10

For the first time you hit me.
2. For the second time I cut.
3. For the third time he ***** me.
4. For the fourth time I wished myself dead.
5. For the fifth time I lost a friend.
6. For the sixth time I cried.
7. For the seventh time I failed that class.
8. For the eighth time you called me that name.
9. For the ninth time I refused to eat.
10. For the tenth time I tried to **** me.

A

Sad Case Apr 2015

***

A mind full of gloom.
A heart full of hate.
A girl full of sorrow.
Maybe a better tomorrow.

A Boy Once Said,

Sad Case Apr 2018

A Boy Once Said,

¨I´ve lost my head.¨
I replied,
¨It´s in my eyes.¨

The love of my life.

Alone

Sad Case Jun 2015

Alone

Alone, when you walk the halls.
Alone, when you people are around.
Alone, when you cry.
Alone, when you break.
Alone, when you die.

I want to die, I don't need help, I need a hand to hold.

Anne Frank

Sad Case Oct 2015

Anne Frank

Strong, brave, and confident.
Bruised, battered, and worn.
Hold on tight, and you'll win this fight.
But alas her lips were sewn shut.
Not a word. Not a peep.
So she wrote in her diary.
As if it were a song.
Not skipping a word. Not a single word.
As she hid where she thought she'd be safe.
Where the gestapo couldn't find her.
But one day, there was her fate.
Right in front of her.
The camp that carried the disease into her.
As she and her sister both died.
The only thing left was her diary.
Not skipping a word. Not a single word.

Anne Frank (Updated Version)

Sad Case Mar 2017

Anne Frank (Updated Version)

Strong, brave, and confident.
The most fearless of the land.
Bruised, battered, and worn.
She had ran for her life.
Hold on tight, and you'll win this fight.
Moving around the towns.
Until her fate was bound.
Getting to the point she hardly cared.
Her worries and fears she wished to speak.
But alas her lips were sewn shut.
Not a word. Not a peep.
So she wrote in her diary.
As if it were a song.
Not skipping a word. Not a single word.
As she hid where she thought she'd be safe.
Where the gestapo couldn't find her.
But one day, there was her fate.
Only 15 years old.
Until this day.
Right in front of her.
The camp that carried the disease into her.
As she and her sister both died.
Would she have lived?
If she had ruled the land.
The only thing left was her diary.
Not skipping a word. Not a single word.

Updated Version of my original.

Anorexia

Sad Case Aug 2015

Anorexia

He's so very hungry. He weeps staring into the fridge. Looking at all the food, and drinks. He closes the fridge door. Walks away. Goes to sleep. Without eating a thing in 3 days. They called him fat, and he believed that very untrue fact.

April Fools

Sad Case Apr 2015

April Fools

She went to the police.
Told them she was being abused.
They didn't believe her.
They thought she was another teenage fiend.
She went back.
Told them that she was *****.
They didn't believe her.
They thought she was another lying child.
She came again.
Told them she got beat up.
They didn't believe her.
They said if she comes again they will arrest her.
Her bestfriend came.
Told them that she was killed.
They didn't believe him.
He came back.
Told them that they aren't worth their lives.
They just laughed.
He left.
They got a call.
The person told them.
That they saw two bodies in the river.
The police went to check it out.
The bodies belonged to the girl and the boy.
The girl was killed.
The boy committed suicide.
Just to be with her.
The police were wrong.
They didn't believe their eyes.
They should start believing more.
**** April and it's fools.
The police were the fools in this story.
They started to believe more.
They saved lives of many after that.
But what I'm wondering is.
How come they didn't save those two kids.
That would've had lives to live.
If only they had believed.
In this retched April Fools story.

Blood In The Snow

Sad Case Feb 2016

Blood In The Snow

He dies a silent death, while the blood in the snow paints the story of his life.

Boy

Sad Case Apr 2018

Boy

I´m addicted to a boy that´s addicted to ****

Broken Girl

Sad Case Nov 2018

Broken Girl

No one told her what it’s like.
She watches this lightning strike.
Her biggest fear is being alone.

No one told her which way to go.
She took the path with bumps in the road.
Will someone help this broken girl.

Cheek Hearts

Sad Case Sep 2016

Cheek Hearts

If you wear your heart on your cheek
It's bound to be kissed
But as soon as lips depart
Cold freezes over

Cigs & Booze

Sad Case Sep 2017

Cigs & *****

They say he's addicted
They're wrong
He can stop whenever he wants
Yet he wants his body to rot
They tried to take away his flame
Yet no matter how hard they try
He still suffocates
Drowning his insides in liquored hate
He wonders if they're watching it pain
He doesn't care that his family isn't there
His friends are fake
But that's okay
Because his friends have gone away
Now to take their place
Liquid and smoke
To ease the pain

Circle Made Signs

Sad Case May 2017

Circle Made Signs

Scars encrusted in memories
Memories engraved from the pain
Pain lusted in loss
Loss trusted by hatred
Hatred feeding off the love
Love favoured in the scars

Counting Up As My Life Dies Down

Sad Case Mar 2015

Counting Up As My Life Dies Down

1, 2, 3, 4
My body, I can't feel no more
5, 6, 7, 8
Always filled with hate
9, 10, 11, 12
This world is a living hell
13, 14, 15, 16
Crippled, and non existing
17, 18, 19, 20
I better run, I know you're coming
21, 22, 23, 24
Someone's banging on my door
25, 26, 27, 28
It's the police, they have come for me
29, 30, 31, 32
No more crying, I'm done with that ****
33 34, 35, 36
I have hung the rope, and said my goodbye's
37, 38, 39, 40
I have jumped, and I have died
41, 42, 43, 44
45, and so much more
as I fell, they just yell
"I HOPE YOU GO TO HELL!"

Depression In The Eyes Of Another

Sad Case Jun 2018

Depression In The Eyes Of Another

There's this kid
Who doesn't know what to do
Their life consist of drugs and *****
Before you judge them
Listen to this
This kid I know
Has been hit, kicked, and beaten
They once had friends
They still do
Yet they're not the friend
Their friends once knew
They hang out with addicts
And drink a sip passed their cup
They sell their treasure
For dope or for cash
This kid doesn't know
How long they will last
They feel they have nobody
But know that's untrue
They hook up with strangers
Older than them too
This kid is not legal
To drink or have ***
But that's no problem
Because a fake I.D. fixes that
The person they love
Doesn't even love them back
This kid believes they're worthless
That they deserve death
Honestly, that doesn't sound too bad
They find comfort in their scars
Now isn't that pathetic
Finding beauty in something
That does more hurt than help them
It's nonsense
Speaking of beauty
What the **** is that
When someone calls this kid pretty
All they get is sad
It makes this kid feel bad
Like they aren't who they want to be
Don't people understand
This kid is not only being bullied by others
But by themself, their parents, even me
This kid has nothing
But their thoughts in their brain
They're afraid of theirself
And they are to blame
They want to die
Oh, how many times they've tried
All this kid seems to think about
Is how to end their life
Or what drug will hurt them the most
Now, isn’t that sad
This kid is so young
Yet their life is already considered trash
Abused mentally, physically, and emotionally
They’ve no clue what to do
So they down another bottle
Maybe take a pill or two
They snort some substance
Smoke something too
Shoving the needle into a vein
Only to see red and blue
A little to late
As they kicked down the door
The cops stopped
Their family fell to the floor
All staring in sadness
The kid had grown up
But only to the point
Where they had enough
This kid was so fragile
Yet so strong
But afraid
This kid who was so young
But had the mind of the wiser of age
They made stupid choices
But now everyone else pays
This kid in front of their pupils
Was holding no note
As they pull the trigger
In front of them all
The bullet enters their brain
And exits to the wall
Now look what you’ve done
Young child, you’ve scarred them for life
Ending your pain
Nope, you just gave it to many other lives
These people cared about you
But too blind to see
You had and still have
People who love you
Including me
Your story lives on
Yet, sadly not your life
I wanted to see you grow
But all I see is the roses
Planted next to your gravestone
Which states,
“Your life is not your own.”
- Benedict Cumberbatch”

Diary

Sad Case Mar 2015

Diary

Wrists stained red.
All has gone to hell.
You picked me up.
When I fell.
I've Drowned.
Everything out.
The screams of my family.
Before I fell.
I went down.
Don't let me drowned.
Lost is now found.
My mom ran towards me.
And dropped to her knees.
I was gone...
My brother opened my diary.
With tears on his face.
He read the last entry aloud.
It said...
"I love my friends, family, and all...
But this has to end.
So I will fall.
Off the edge...
But this time i will be dead..."

Do I Really

Sad Case Oct 2015

Do I Really

Do I really have to **** myself.
Before you realize I'm not happy.
That my smile is fake.
Or to tell you.
I don't need help.
I just need a hand to hold.
No words, no speeches.
Just a hand warm or cold.

Drowned

Sad Case Oct 2015

Drowned

I just get so sad. When I get sad, I listen to sad songs, that make me cry. When I cry, I don't like to talk. When I don't talk, I shut down. When I shut down, I just lay down. While it feels like I'm drowning. The weight of the world crushing me. Like waves in the sea. I wish someone would come and save me. Anyone. Otherwise, just let me rest in peace. I've already drowned.

eAchieve Academy

Sad Case Oct 2016

eAchieve Academy

My first day as an eAchieve student.
I was scared, yet excited.
All the teachers seemed nice.
The class just as, without a price.

I had some trouble getting around.
Like being stuck in the ‘Lost and Found’.
I failed some assignments here and there.
Tried my best, never failed a test.

Determined to graduate.
I found my way.
Asked for help.
Even when I was afraid.

Today I’m doing fine.
Even though I’m a bit behind.
But I will graduate.
I will become an ‘Ace’.

Fair Game

Sad Case Nov 2018

Fair Game

Do you know why, she’s feeling this way?
She hides behind, the curtain of shame.
Being played.
She’s fair game.

Do you know why, she’s hiding under those sleeves?
Don’t want you to see, what she’s been doing.
How could you take her, and make her feel worthless?
You have hurt her.
Are you really that careless?

Won’t let go of you.
You are all she has.

She’s so precious.
Yet she is broken.
Like glass, flowing in the ocean.

There’s blood dripping.
Drip, drip.
She’s dropping.
On the floor she’s colden.
This girl, she really was golden.

Do you know why, she’s feeling this way.
She hides behind, the curtain of shame.
Being played.
She’s fair game.

Feeling

Sad Case Oct 2015

Feeling

Dreams off.
Nightmares on.
Love crushed.
We're all dead.
The end.
Peace on Earth.
Turns to mass murders.
Laugh, love, and live.
Dim, ****, dead.
Peace, love and happiness.
Turns to death.
Blue turns to black.
Wrists turn red.
This is what I'm feeling.
This is the end.

Fishing For Life

Sad Case Sep 2015

Fishing For Life

Holding onto the rod of life.
Throwing the line, out into open sea.
The hook might get stuck.
Don't tug.
The line might break.
Help will come.
You just have to wait.

Flower Shine

Sad Case Sep 2017

Flower Shine

Rose petals glimmer in a golden sunlight.
What frightens us the most is what's in hindsight.
Water Lilies blossom in the moonlight.
What makes us smile is the brightness in our minds.

Forgotten Road

Sad Case Mar 2015

Forgotten Road

Take a breath.
Let it go.
Let it rain.
Make a rainbow.
Let her cry.
Make her smile.
Don't die.
Last awhile.
Take my hand.
Don't let it go.
As we walk down.
This forgotten road.

Freed Death

Sad Case Jan 2019

Freed Death

Death is no freedom, being trapped six feet under, in a wooden cage, unable to escape, just to suffocate. Freedom is no death, being trapped in an open world, in societies cage, unable to escape, just to relate. Freedom or death?

Freed Death Revised

Sad Case Jan 2020

Freed Death Revised

Death isn’t freedom, being encased six feet under, in a timber cage, unable to escape, just to asphyxiate. Freedom isn’t death, being enclosed in an open world, in a toffs casket, unable to escape, just to associate. Freedom or death?

Freedom Or Death

Sad Case Feb 2016

Freedom Or Death

He’s walking through the past,
Just trying to make it last,
He picks up the gun,
And hears it blast,
He wakes up,
The dream has ended,
Back to his world
Of nightmares everlasting,
Warmth of one hugging his skin,
Tighter with each breath,
He’s embraced with the kindness of another,
He doesn’t believe it to be real,
The kindness soon left him alone,
Forever he shall be cold,
Embraced by hatred and sadness,
Hurt by many,
And more to come,
Why won’t one stay,
Because that’s all he needs,
He picks up the gun,
And hears it blast,
He doesn’t wake up,
The nightmare has ended.
He takes his last breath.
And the sadness loosens
Withholding its embrace.
He’s free at last.

Friends or Drink

Sad Case Sep 2017

Friends or Drink

I made a friend
Maybe he's less than that
I wouldn't know
When it comes to me
Friendship doesn't last
It wouldn't be their fault
It'd be mine
Just trying to distance myself
From the last few times
Caring is sharing
Well I keep that bottled up
So I guess that's out of the picture
Pitcher of Lager
To fill up that space
When it comes to these days
It's friends or drink

Ghost

Sad Case Mar 2015

Ghost

I'm a ghost and everyone knows it.
Peoples words flow through me at high speed.
People walk through me as if I wasn't there.
Who am I? Who was I?
Is this even real or is this just another dream, another nightmare?
Another death, or a new beginning?
The roses blossom and everything starts to get better.
But one day a twister hits and I the ghost is blown to bits.
My wrists are bleeding, tears a flow.
As I say to myself "Its time to go back to my world of other ghosts."
I say "Its been fun. I'll miss you all."
As I close my eyes, and i fall.
But this isn't goodbye, and that's all.

Goodbye

Sad Case Sep 2015

Goodbye

Goodbye.
I've died.
Dead eyes.
Rope tied.
Gun cocked.
Suicide.

Hate Love

Sad Case Sep 2016

Hate Love

He fell in love
With someone
Who lived
To hate

He's Sad

Sad Case Aug 2015

He's Sad

He is so very sad. Crying, while his demons run mad. Screaming mad anger. Only to come out as small whispers. Silent crying, fills his room. Little do they know. His fate, he's consumed.

He Walks In Fear

Sad Case Nov 2018

He Walks In Fear

He walks the halls in fear.
There’s no one to protect him.
He’s crying out to them.

Am I the only one, who hears him screaming?

How You Are Related To Her

Sad Case Apr 2015

How You Are Related To Her

You hear that?
No? Exactly.
She's not breathing.
Because of you.
You drove her to insanity.
Let her go.
When she needed you most.
You all laughed.
When she cried herself to sleep.
Every night.
Every single night.
Her parents worked all day and night.
All her and her siblings did was fight.
She shut herself out.
Behind a locked door.
All because of you.
All of you.
She's just hanging there..
Not breathing.
Dead...
She tried to see the light.
But instead came the darkness.
That she feared the most.
So, yeah.
Don't cry.
You treated her like ****.
Don't any of you come to her funeral.
You are responsible for this mess.
You are responsible for her death.

Hurricane Mind

Sad Case Jun 2018

Hurricane Mind

They say my mind is a hurricane. I’m always spinning around in my thoughts. Splashing in the water, trampling over the seas, only to come back to reality and calm down my hurricane mind.

I Just Wanna

Sad Case Oct 2015

I Just Wanna

I just wanna run away from the pain.
Fly away from the abuse.
Ride away from the bullies.
Hide away from reality.

I like

Sad Case Sep 2017

I like

I like skateboarding, snowboarding, parties, old cartoons, poptarts, cookies, flirting, baggy sweatshirts, cuddles, kisses, rock and rap, and getting drunk, high to escape the crap. Yet I still don't know how to dance. Too bad.

My hot or not bio haaaaaah.

I'm Fine

Sad Case May 2015

I'm Fine

Left behind, bruised and broken.
Emotions inside, never cry.
Sleeves remain down, until tonight.
No fear, though I'm not alright.
"I'm fine," though I'm really dying.
Look in my eyes, oh so dull.
I was fat, look at me now.
I still don't eat, I'm becoming skinny.
Am I your perfect princess, really?
My thoughts, remain suicidal.
I will never be someones idol.
I know, because I already tried.

Insane

Sad Case Nov 2015

Insane

Behind a locked door.
Broken, and shattered.
Illusions unknown.
Scared, and battered.
He cuts his legs.
Cries in pain.
Nobody can see.
he's going insane.

In This World

Sad Case Oct 2016

In This World

In this world,
where dreams become nightmares,
and nightmares become reality.

It's Just Rain

Sad Case Sep 2017

It's Just Rain

You're standing in the rain
Crying your eyes out
Don't be surprised
If you see me crying too

I Wanna

Sad Case Mar 2015

I Wanna

I wanna take a leap.
I wanna down a drink.
I wanna run away from this sickness that tortures me.
I'm wallowing in the screams.
Not aloud to cry.
So I make up with a sharp knife.
Grabbing my last hope of relief.
I take my pen.
I tear it apart 'til there's nothing left but the spring.
Letting, letting the blood flow hiding it with a white sheet.
Staining my shirt sleeve a crimson red.

Just Smile

Sad Case Aug 2015

Just Smile

Smile when it hurts. Smile when you cry. Smile when the people that tell you to die. Smile when you take the gun. Smile when you **** it. Smile when you pull the trigger. Smile... Yeah, that's it.

Kamora

Sad Case Nov 2018

Kamora

She’s four now.
Just found out.
She’s got Autism.
Yet she’s the smartest girl I know.
They say it.
But she ain’t disabled.

She's six now. I love her.

Kinda

Sad Case Nov 2018

Kinda

I kinda wanna sleep forever.
Kinda wanna close my eyes. (Be blind.)
I kinda wanna die tonight.
Yet I wanna live my life. (No strife. No knives.)

Laughing

Sad Case Aug 2015

Laughing

She wakes up. Knocks softly on her older brother's door. Asking if she may sleep with him. There is thunder outside, and she's scared. He tells her to go away, and to leave him alone. She creeps silently downstairs, to her mother's room. Say's, "Mommy may I sleep with you?" Her mum tells her to go back to sleep. She quietly goes back up the stairs to her room. Closes the door and hides in the closet. Listens to the thunder and lightning crackle within the night sky. Shy cries wanted to be held. Her demons laugh at her calling her a cry baby, wimp. She cries harder and harder. The storm outside shielding her screams. She falls asleep in her closet. Wakes up to her demons still laughing.

Lights

Sad Case Sep 2017

Lights

The lights blind me of darkness.

Listen

Sad Case Mar 2015

Listen

Listen, cant you hear?
Her cries? Her Fears?
Cant you see?
Her arms?
All bruised and ******?
She doesn't speak.
Not a word. Not a peep.
All she does is writes in her diary.
While she sits in the back of class.
Hoping the teacher won't notice her.
Hoping that he doesn't care.
Hoping that one day.
The world would be fair.