Man I'm feeling sad but good, sliding on the leatherwood, **** near wrecked,
Up in the hood,
I'm misunderstood, my city like a ghetto, hollywood, so I should,
Let it off my chest, never grow soft, real man dont shed no tears,
Now that yall no longer here, I gotta embrace the fears, my death is near,
But dont shed no tears, when I'm up out of here, out of here,
Yosef get a control, of ya soul, **** Im in hidden in the valley of skulls,
Closet opened, now see all the pain unfold, I'm still living for the city,
Like stevie, and I wonder, will ever get a break from the thunder,
Under the lightening, it's kind of frightening, tryna be writing,
To ya in the afterlife, dayum you left behind ya wife,
I cant think straight , see double visions, while driving on the interstate,
**** it's too late, too late, why so many up in a crate,
Smiles and tears, as the caskets appear, closer and closer mayne,
And I'm a sit back cruising in the slow lane, while I focus on the puffs, of mary Jane,
Im So high so high, I'm lookin at em, so low so low, six feet deep they go,
Bangs on my mental, how i keep myself sane, in a world that so insane,
Mayne, it's enough to make ya wanna blow out ya brain, with no remain,
Tryna get a strain, on the devils mane see me up at 4 way holding it mayne,
I wish I could change, the world but too many love the evil that curls,
Love into pain, submission I'm giving, all that I got, til my body is shot,
Open for the plot, I see the enemies sitting near me, waiting for me,
To put a gun to my head, man I'm half dead see my thoughts, is half read,
Cant see through the Hennessy, demons shaking me, and the angels, tryna walk with me, at the same time,
Put my thoughts on rewind, so it dine, mayne I gotta stay on top of mines,
Grind, sunday to sunday, so many living the life one way, everyday I treat it like holiday, no matter what the haters say, I pray,
On bended knees, hoping one day I'll see, my babies, what up heaven?
What up hell? Will ever get a break, through this madness out of my shell,
****, first it was my uncle calvin, then next was my baby zekara, ****
This can scare ya, now I see the rapture, my baby Lelei, got caught up in the capture,
Mayne, im.being real, I miss yall laughter,
Now pops is gone, you was strong, you used to play the same ol song,
Now I'm humming, the band played on, them jheri curls was on, on and on,
You used to to get me gone, with your infinite wisdom, another kingdom,
Added **** I wish I didnt bat it, the bases is loaded, with spirits, wait to be loaded,
At home plate, where the angels await, another heart is on the stake,
Another family at the wake, silence sighs see the water in they eyes,
It's no surprise, another limo ride, in black for the disguise, I peep wise,
My eyes glow red, when I see another soul that's godspeed, my thoughts red,
Nothing but pain, I can see the grains, off wisdom stretching on my brain,
I cant maintain the goetias mayne, somebody come save me, pray for me,
I feel for any, you got pity, in they heart beware glowing darts,
Splitting apart, evil and the dark, I'm paced up happy as a lark, as I park
A bullet for ya mind, not even one time, can stop this shine, I miss yall,
I miss yall, man we gonna have a ball, celebrate ya homegoing call,
No more pain no more rain, only the sunshine, that gathers the opening lanes,
Clouds of joy, hands comforted around me, let my invisible wings, fly freely,
I'm feeling glee, spirits all over me got me, freaking out violently,
Cant sleep, cuz my eyes flowing like a creek, feel the sorrows of the weak,
Beckons like concrete, so watch ya speak, I only promise,
Hang with the wisdom of Thomas, I'm not a teacher, or a preacher,
I'm just here to reach to ya, how many people gonna read, embrace my philosophical seeds, I'm here to breed, nothing but peaceful creeds, see the Rasheeds,
Out here throwing techs, for greed my soul only feeds, to the real indeed,
I bleed, nothing but war inside of chaos live life everyday, as a coin toss,
How I can see wins, if I'm stuck at a loss, one hand ya soul like Randy Moss,
Suckas get tossed, out my battlezone, many nights I've battled alone,
PTSD just another clone, many of soldiers ain't never seen home,
Visited many nights, of the unknown tombstone, so many hearts is gone,
Chasing, something they cant even chase, im.just sit, copy and paste,
Coming off my mind, its goes dine, I'm gripping on my iron, like mike,
I see enemies in my sight, I'm hallucinating got my brain creating,
Scenarios, scenarios, black mirror got me feeling homicidal, hits like a tidal,
Wave only for the brave, I see the crave hibernate pain, like a bear in a cave, naw I cant be saved, i dont wanna be saved,
Dear lord can you hear me, take me, away from the webs of humanity,
I know you see me as a key, like Joseph to Mary situations scary,
Can even look at my family, the same I see them as the same, adversaries stay lookin for me but they cant blast me,
Blast me cuz I got the armor of soldier, hell spawns all in me ya feel me feel me???