i do not have the confidence.
i do not have the popularity.
i do not have the gorgeous face.
i have sad thoughts.
suicidal thoughts.
mental breakdowns at 2 AM.
the struggle to sleep.
but , what i have that nobody can compare to ,
is my love.
i will love you like i've never loved before.
you will not find a love like mine.
but you can always find a pretty face like hers .

the fire

i was the fuse.
you were the flame.
when those get close
the flame lights the fuse.
then the flame stays
then it's goes.
and that's what you did
you had your fun
you left.
i liked you flame .
the warmth .
the light .
the happiness it brought.
sadness when you left
i did not like.
although , i am used.
i still continue to love .
i continue to care .
although you killed my fuse
i still love you .
i was the fuse
and you were the flame...

One day my skin will be wrinkled
my teeth will fall out
my memories will fade
and one day, my heart will stop
my body will rot
and I'll just be another person time forgot.

But while I continue to age
I'll make friends
I'll have children
I'll leave a mark on this world
so although I have gone
part of me will continue to live on

your absence.

when you are gone
away from my body .
i crave you .
nothing ******
but the heat of you
to warm me
the sound of you voice
to calm me
your finger laced between mine
your chest against my head
to where i can hear that heart beat
and without you
i'm alone
i'm sad
i don't wanna be here
without you
because i love you
because you were my everything .
and now it's just
your absence
it's here
i don't like it
i'm a goner .
goodbye .

scared
that is what i am.
you threaten
all day and all night
you make me fear love
you make me fear people just like you
then you lie to me through your teeth
claiming that you love me
and that you care
but you say the words i wanna hear
to make me forget
to make me believe you wont do
the awful things you say
you want me to keep you close
so you can hurt me the most
but why do i stay
why do i chose to get hurt
because you were suppose to love me most
a father is supposed to care about his little girl
not scare her into suicide
so this will be the last
last time we speak
last time you say those things

toxic.
your love,
was the drug
that I loved
great at first.
but killing .
but why did I come back
becuase you said
you loved me
and I belived you
I was blinded
lost.