a little girl of only nine years old
forced to grow up too fast
just looking for a hand to hold
praying this pain won't last

she remembers mummy's wrongs
daddy trying to do right
but this little girl only longs
for a little bit of peace tonight

at only nine years old
she's sick of the hunger, the pain
all the nights left cold
she's trying not to go insane

she remembers the drugs daddy took
and how he tried to stop for her
she remembers how badly he shook
when his demons started to purr

she was only nine years old
when she tried to go away
once the thought of suicide took hold
she couldn't find a reason to stay

daddy quit drugs for his baby girl
and mummy let her go
daddy prayed he wouldn't lose her
mummy's love didn't show

after just nine years of life
a little girl died
the pain cuts through daddy like a knife
only then did mummy cry.

every time you're mad
i take a blade
sink it into my skin
to stop the pain you made

every time you yell
i fade away
it scares me to think
i won't be okay

with every hit i take
i die a little inside
within my own mind
i'm trying to hide

with every word i hear
my soul fades away
i want it all to end
maybe it will someday

with every step i take
i go back two more
i'm always one step behind
i'm always on the floor

with everyday that passes by
my heart grows weak
this could all end
but words i dare not speak

every time i fall
i get back up again
the battle's still raging on
maybe it'll never end

she was so happy
nothing could tear her down
she had so many friends
and not a reason to frown

she got perfect grades
she was headed for ivy league
wherever she went
she was watched with intrigue

but then one day
her world started to fall
on the day her sister died
she felt like she lost it all

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she was so sad
she fell so fast
all of her friends have left
she's stuck in the past

her grades started to slip
so ivy league forgot her name
people stared as she walked by
like it was all just a game

but then one day
she saw an end to her pain
with a gun in her hand
she said good bye again.