I want to tell you
So many things
I want to tell you
How I love the way the sun hits your face
I want to tell you
How much I think about you
I want to tell you
How much I don’t deserve you and
I want to tell you
How out of my league you are but
I want to tell you
How we can make it work
I want to tell you
How you wouldn’t regret taking a chance on me
I want to tell you
How much it hurts that it may never happen
I want to tell you
How I want you to take the pain away
I want to tell you
How much I am in like with you
I want to tell you
All my funny stories
I want to tell you
My favorite songs and
I want to tell you
How insuperior I feel to you and
I want to tell you
How hard it is to say a single word
To someone who so effortlessly swept me off my feet

Tell them I'm in a mood
A constant spiraling mood
******* me in deeper and deeper
Not even wanting to admit to myself
The intensity and severity
The more I try to climb out
The harder the fall
Neer completely escaping
But momentary relief
My own silence deafening me
My mouth dry, empty of word
My heart, empty of anything usefull
Just letting myself freefall
Further and further
It's easy for everyone to not notice
The quiet girl in the corner
Screaming for help

How can I scream so loud
And you still can't see
What it is you mean to me
How can I stare so long
And you still don't notice
How much you mean to me
How can the kisses I plant on your feet
Not seep through the sole and show you
How much you mean to me
The flags I wave in your face
Lay limply
Waiting to pick up wind
That may never come
M y pleading and begging bounce off your ears
And fall into the pile of longing
That may never be cleaned up
My heart beat is pulsing so hard
Thrusting itself against my chest
Yearning to be spilled of its contents
But once that's done
Still not feeling fulfilled
You trample my soul
Day after day
But you don't know it
You don't even know how much you mean to me

you cannot break me down as I break myself. you could try but my subconscious has you beat, my entire being has you beat.