fun
drink in hand
straight mix times to time
music loud
no one around
sometimes found in a crowd
drinking when sad  
drinking when happy
not falling down
talking to few
breaking all the rules
holding in tears
becoming a fool
faking  a smile to hide pain
going home to sleep it all away
laying down
lonely nightmares a wait

VS

Days vs nights
Happy vs sad
Glad vs mad
Beautiful vs ugly
Rich vs poor
Sunny vs rainy
Awake vs sleep
Loved vs alone
Run vs walk
Pink vs purple
Flowers vs seeds
Mountains vs hills
Grass vs sand
Dog vs cats
Life vs dealth
Light vs dark
Hot vs cold
Summer vs spring
Winter vs fall
Movies vs TV
Music vs headphones
Money vs change
Stand vs sit
Nature vs wild
Animals vs humans
Bus vs car
Drinking vs drunk
Smoking vs high
Hurt vs pain
Pictures vs memories
Time vs watch

walking home all alone on a cold winter night herding nothing but silents
so peaceful you don't know if someone is crying if someone is lying if someone is talking if someone is sleeping
but it doesn't matter cause you are alone
walking home alone in the dark thinking  i  can overcome these thoughts
walking home all alone in the dark you see two people holding hands
while walking home all alone in the dark you reach home and look around crawling to bed
sound asleep you are dreaming of nothing but when  you wake to *** you see me standing there
what should i do
but stand there watching you .

Wall stands tall
Wall stands high
Wall stands alone
Wall painted with colours
Wall wants to come down but won't
Wall needs new wall
Wall runs for miles with out stopping for air
Wall not what you want but what you get to feel safe
Wall time heals from scars
Wall can be beautiful when need be
Wall can come down when the time is right
Wall stands tall
Wall stands high
Wall stands alone .

i watch you walk
i watch you talk
i watch you listen
i watch you sit
i watch you  just being you
i don't know why i do the things  i do just to watch you
but all i know is i could never leave its like a drug and drink just for awhile you feel nothing but then when its gone you feel unwanted so i watch as you do the things you do just know ill never leave you all lone.

Here comes the bride all dress in pink
sweating like a pig
standing , waiting  for her to arrive
Feeling
Happy
Joyful
Loveable
Nervous
Say the words
I love you
sharing with the family ,friends
Hug
Kiss
Dance
Smile
Picture
Video
Forever until the end

What the workds needs
What the world needs is more love not hate
What the world needs is more sharing not greedy
What the world needs is more housing  not homeless
What the world needs is more cheaper not rich
What the world needs is more food not hungry
What the world needs is more finding ppl not missing
What the world needs is more living not dying
What the world needs is more understanding not judging
What the world needs is happy not mad or sad
What the world needs more help not depressed
What the world needs is more kindness not heartless
What the world needs is more self care not loneliness
What the world needs is more love I can’t say that enough but  what the world really is you

Poem by me
When
When you talk
When you walk
When you sleep
When you cry
When you hold me
When you dance
When you smile
When you write
When you read
When you look at me I feel all warm insdie
You make me feel there's nothing I cant do and that makes me happy I'll never want to cry

When I get lonely
When  I get happy
When I can sleep
When I am a wake
When I get sad
When I cry
When I get short of breathe
When i walk
When I run
When I sit
When I stand
When I talk
When I'm quite
I think of you

When I'm gone
When I am gone dont cry
When im gone worry
When im gone love
When im gone dont pray
When im gone dont care
Whe  im gone dont wish
When im gone dont give flowers
When im gone dont ask
When im gone dont talk
When im gone dont act
Cause you do that now so dont when im gone

When I'm gone

I'll be free
I'll be where need be
I'll stay near by
I'll watch every move you make
I'll be the trees
I'll be the water
I'll be the animals
I'll be the moon
I'll be the starts
I'll be the sun
I'll be the love
I'll be the hate
I'll be the wind
I'll be the rain
I'll be the dirt
I'll be the clouds
I'll be the feathers
I'll be the voice you hear
I'll be in your dreams
I'll be in your soul
I'll be free
When I am gone

WHO I AM

Tina Lombardo first
I was born 1982
I was young child
I was teenager
I am
Daughter
Iam
Granddaughter
I am
Sister
I am
Aunt
I am
Mother
I am
Smart
I am
Wise
I am
Nice
I am
Happy
I am
Beautiful
I am
Tina Chesley second
I am poet
I am
Photographer
I am
Pink
I am
Me

Will you remember me when I'm gone
Will you remember me when I'm a live
Will you remember me when I was there for you
Will you remember me when the sun goes down
Will you remember me when moon shines
Will you remember me like the flowers do
Wi ll you remember me like the animals do
Will you remember me like  my Angel's do
Will you remember me like my demons do
Will you remember me like rain does
Will you remember me like my tears do
Will you remember me at all

i sit and look out the window wondering what the world is doing
i sit and look out the window wondering what the world is saying
i sit and look out the window wondering what the world is talking
i sit and look out the window wondering what the world is crying
i sit and look out the window wondering what the world is walking
i sit and look out the window wondering what the world is laughing
i sit and look out the window wondering what the world is sleeping
i sit and look out the window wondering what the world is feels like
i sit and look out the window wondering what the world is running from  
sitting looking out the window

Winter
Nights are way darker
Nights are way colder
Winter
No more swimming
No more bbq
Winter
No more hot sunny days
No more camping
Winter
No more paid vacations
No spending time with family
Winter
Here comes Christmas
Here’s come new years
Winter
Many wishing it was spring or summer
I am one of them
Winter
I say why do we need it
I say the hell with winter
We only need 3 seasons
Spring summer and fall
Winter
Winter
Oh I cant wait for spring

Woman cry part 2

Look for love though you found it
But all you got was pain
Look for love they might make u think I'm right here
You think  that's what you need
How do you know
Cause right now all you is what ur said
Y0u wanna cry but no tears fall down
You sit and wonder why me
Y0u can't help but wonder why
I took the blame
I took the name calling
I took the love
Took the beating
Was right
Right?
Nope it wasn't cuz if did I wouldn't he left wondering
Why did I love you
Why did I care
Cause I think I should
But time went on
I found new love
Not what I need it
Time over time
I did
But God took you
I was lost
Though I couldn't go on
But God bought you to me
I couldn't let go
You make me feel loved
You make me feel safe
You make me promise
You make me feel protect
You make me feel...
All I know is might have found when sad
But your all i need
An i wont let you go
I love you

Word of mind

I have alot of words running through my mind
They wait to be heard
They wait to be listened
They wait to be loved
They wait to be sad
They wait to be angry
They wait for something to happen
What esel can  I say
Need to make room for new ones
My mind is full

Words hurt but yet i do not feel
You see what you want to see not what i want you to see but yet i do not feel
You say so many things but yet i do not feel
I live as free as i want  but yet i do not feel
I go where i want but yet i do not feel
I want to learn and feel the warmth of the touch but yet  i do not feel
I lay down looking up at the stars wishing i could find the moon but yet i still do not feel
Maybe one day ill feel as free as the birds seem to be but until that day comes i will not feel

ove my Italian Queen...
that makes me feel like life is so serine...
makes me feel like a teen...
makes me feel like life is but a dream.

i find myself thinking of you
i find myself dreaming of you
i find myself talking to you
i find myself crying for you
i find myself wishing of you
i find myself wondering about you
i find myself going crazy over you
why why why
do i feel this way i never wanted to
i don't want to feel anything but i do
i know  you don't about me but a girl can wish
i wish you cared
i wish you would
i wish you lay next to me
i wish you look at the moon with me and the stars too

you don't see me
you dont like me
you dont need me
you don't love me
you dont talk to me
you don't see that it hurts me i feel like cutting but i wont cause your not worth it
you don't  spend time on me
you don't  how i feel
you don't hear me
you don't see my heart
you don't  see the damage
you don't see tears
you don't see walk towards me
you don't see me but i wish you did.

YOU DON'T KNOW ME
You don't know the things I know
You don't know the way I think
You don't know the way I feel
You don't know how I deal
You don't know how I care
You don't know how I swear
You don't know how I love
You don't know how I feel
You don't know how I talk
You don't know how I walk
You don't know the pain I feel
You don't know cause you don't care
You don't know how I trust
You don't know how I burst into tears
You don't know I fight to stay a live
You don't know that's is why i'm me and you are you.

Tina lombardo

Tell me one thing
Say something
Looking at me
You  try to hide
I see it  all the time
I know things
I see things
I feel things
Dont tell me not to cry
Maybe might not but you did
You try to hide it like it's a crime
But why
You never even gave me a try
You  think I'm no good
You make me wanna die
I'm nothing but cold air
You  want a thing who doesnt care if ur alive
But yet you wonder why I cry
I just want you  to know engery doesnt lie
Stop your feeling just fine
Maybe you  care maybe you dont
But your words are nothing they all went a died
So now will you clue in and give it a try

You know my name
But not my story
You know my heart
But not my pain
You know my strength
But not my scars
You know my body
But not my love
You know what I say
But not how I feel
You know my tears
But not my fears
You know my life
But not my fights
You know my angels
But not demons

you know what hurts

You know what hurts feeling forgotten in a world full moons and stars
You know what hurts feeling like sun only shines on the ones who see it but not need it
You know what hurts crying waiting for a reason why an takes you days to figure out why
You know what hurts waiting to talk but dont want to make people think
You know what hurts walking and crying and running until you cant breathe
You know what hurts laying in bed wishing
You know what hurts when you can't tell if your feeling anymore or just want to cry
Days
Nights go by
You know what hurts I do

your the sun when i'm sad
you the tears that fall down from my face
your the air that i breathe
your the cuddle when i'm cold
your the happiness that i see
your the help that i need
your everything i wanted
i could be the air you breathe
i could be the cuddle that you need
i could be happiness your longing for
i could be the help when you need
iam everything you ever wanted