I sell myself so cheap,
Give my soul for so little,
In hopes that I might keep,
A half loved love so brittle.
In handing him my body,
I am weakening my mind,
And in keeping saying sorry,
I leave myself behind.
I wish that I could hate him,
And remember who I am,
But dangerously I love him,
I’m his sacrificial lamb.
He’s killing me,
But I like it,
I’m dying,
I am.

It’s been said that old habits die hard
But how hard do I need to try
To make this old habit die?
The lengths I’ve gone to
In order to forsake you
The conclusion I have come to
This habit won’t die till I do

You can’t just create a person
Then leave them alone.
I scream silently at
My father, my
Lover and
My life.
You can’t just make me like this
Then tell me that I’m crazy.
I scratch at the walls of
My apartment, my
Mind and my
Prison cell.
You can’t just love someone then
Treat them like they’re nothing
I whisper to my happy
Memories, my exes
And myself.

I hope he’s kind
This future of mine
I hope he’s clever
Loses his temper never
I hope he’s a man worth loving
I hope he’s sweet
I hope he comes to me running
Will I know when we meet?

I
Am
Just
Dying for
Somebody to
Finally prove me wrong

God I’m so angry
I’m never the one
I’m always just one
On a list.
Wow I am furious
It never works out
I just work hard
And end up with ****.
**** I am livid
Why isn’t it me?
Me who’s loved and lived for
and kissed?
Jesus Christ I have never been madder
At all the things I don’t have
And have missed.

She just wanted to be loved
She just wanted a child
She just wanted a home
She just wanted to smile
She just wanted to be safe
She just wanted some calm
She just wanted to feel good
She just didn’t want harm
She just wanted to be happy
She’s just sick of the crimes but she knows
No’one has loved her in a very long time