I burn bridges down
Because I'm a prisoner..

who doesn't want to be found

Hello my name is Neroamee
Alucard if your nasty
and I'm a nerd,
I've gone through most of my life
socially awkward
Now you'd think at the age of 19
I would've gone out of my cocoon
and become a social butterfly
but I'm a walking Pariah
I'm not even close to fly
Just for liking manga and listening to music
that is older than me
I ended up ostracized
but I did gain friends
and we became like family.
So yes my Name is Neroamee
and yes I am awkward socially
I'll admit I'm sensitive, a nerd and don't fit into a culture homogenously
but I promise you this
you'll never encounter someone like me,
I guarantee you this

Take a second to listen to these words
they climb up and down in this hollow room
oh please just give me a chance to explain
to explain to you everything thats in my head
pull me closer, tighter against this
and realize these sins
lay my body on this burdened bed
shut our eyes and dream forever

Sick and broken to the core, how do you go back to normal?
Was this really what I wanted, or did I only make things worse
But now that you're gone, I need to find a way to move on because
every time you cross my mind, I try to smile while I die inside

I am crushed under the weight of this crush.
I am crushed under the feelings of endless yearning
Of wanting to be more than we are;
Of wanting to be the one who holds you when you are sad,
and the one you hold when lonely;
Of wanting to kiss you under the stars
Of wanting to talk to you when there is no one else to talk to;
Of wanting to hold your hand as we stroll down the street;
Of wanting US to finally happen