I wonder how many time a heart can be broken
Before the shattered pieces just give up and stop beating

I'm sorry, you say
Your words are like a dance
Choreographed
Practiced over and over
Flowing
Smoothly, delicately, gracefully
The apologies rhythmically flowing into the "It-won't-happen-again"'s
The section where you tell me you want to fix it
To make it right
To go back to how things were.
You'll do anything,
Be anything,
Say...anything.
You pause
It's my turn to join in the dance
My moves are rough in comparison to your elegance
More jagged
I'm hurting, angry, broken, unsure if I can trust what you say
We continue the dance side by side
Your moves getting bigger as mine get smaller
I slowly begin to dance more like you until our choreography becomes the same
Soon we are matching in our "I-love-you"'s
The dance slows to a graceful finish and we are in each other's arms
That is...
Until the music starts again.
And we repeat until the end of eternity
But what....I wonder.
What happens when I finally stop dancing?

Five years we've been together
And everything has been great
We've shared our deep dark secrets
And stayed up talking late

I know what you are thinking
With just the slightest glance
And with every passing minute
I know we didn't meet by chance

From the moment that I met you
I felt a connection to your soul
And with every single "I-love-you"
I've felt my heart becoming whole

Whenever I am with you
It's like my heart is set aflame
And I feel it skip a beat or two
At the mention of your name

I can't imagine spending life
Without you by my side
And if you got down on one knee
I'd happily be your bride

More than anything in this life
I want to spend my days with you
Building our lives and future
And knowing our love is true

You are the one I want
My only love is you...
*But I know you don't really love me
You only think you do.

Its starting again
I can feel it wrapping to claws around me
Squeezing until I can't breathe
As oxygen escapes my lungs
I feel the world going dark around me
I can't move
I can't speak
I.Can't. Breathe.
Im falling into a pit of darkness
And no one can help
Because no one even knows
But it is happening again
And I fear that this time
This time when I hit the bottom
I won't be able to climb back out
This time,
The darkness will consume me.

As I slowly...
f
  a
     l
        l
asleep......
     I land a better place.