See, I don't burn bridges.
I jump off of 'em.

No reason to feel guilty,
Just know that I am not
Responsible.

Even with hint after hint,
You sit so comfortable.

Wallow in your silence,
Block my violence,

So that none of this can
Trouble you.

They're "special" to you, I've noticed.
In a way, just so familiar
I was special to you like that, once.
But now things are peculiar.

And if I remember correctly,
I was quite special to you, indeed.
Their "special" can't compare
Because my special just exceeds.

You're simple if you think on it.
Not much to really ponder.
Sweet-talk you just enough
And we become your godly wonder.

Yeah, I've seen this all before.
"Oh, I've found somebody special."
No darling, you love anyone who
Can cater to your mental.

But eventually, they'll grow tired
And leave your *** alone.
And as quick as special comes is
As quick as special goes.

Me and the devil do this dance
With the pole.
He said put it to my head, spin around
And let it go.
He said if I spin faster, I won't
Even know.
He said he gon count to three and
He gon take my soul.

All you see is red spilling from my
Thoughts.
All I hear is y'all sobbing for your
Faults.

Hopelessly, I hope
The rivers flow in your
Direction.
Then maybe, one day the
Thought of me won't latch
To your attention.

It's funny, quite amusing how
These people claim to
Hate me,
When I still seem to linger
In their minds, never so faintly.

I'm sick of indulging in
Calamity.
You ain't God, but there tryna
Examine me.
You can play the role like you
Care for me.
But you don't.
You front for all the
Family.
So, ****** is me
If I let it be.
If I let you do it, but
I ain't dumb, you see.
I ain't gon pay a fee
For the things you do,
Or your sins pursued.
That's insanity.

With frigid fevers felt in this
Frivolous fairy-tale,

One could only hope they're drowned in
Swamps or dragged to Hell.

Too many times, false prophets have
tried to trick me with their light.

And too many times, the serpent and
Its venom proved me right.

The poison runs freely, and coincides with
Your veins.

The good within your heart
Begs you keep the beast slain.

But what good could that do,
When all despair has breathed you life.

Heard angels won't agree nor
Put up with this strife.

With a long kiss goodnight,
Their complaints run dry.

Watch them slam the gates of Heaven,
Put a lock in the sky.

Try to banish all us fools,
Whom are forbidden by fate.

At this rate, the flames of Hell
Are slowly creeping towards the gate.

White-cloaked demons using
Purity to ****.

Manipulation of the mind
As a rememdy to heal.

Pastors and preachers.
Prejudice militants.

Good and bad seems to relate,
With such diligence.

Attractive ignorance. It's all
Corruption of the soul.

They market you the flames, and
Even deliver you the coal.

But at night when you weep and you
Sob out your sockets,

They rest with sweet dreams.
Your tears, feeding all their pockets.

They try to guide you towards a light
They say can save your spirit.

But like the dark, there's only impact
If you really seem to fear it.

So the fearless are ****** in the
Eyes of the holy.

But in the same breath, please
Notice they are lonely.

The fearless can't stand by the sides
Of the goods and the greats,

But the fearless don't wanna join
The side of the hate.

The hate and the evil nor the good,
So they're doomed.

And yet, it's the good and the evil
Who praise empty tombs.

They gonna put blame on me
Like they always do,
But I'm holding all of y'all
Responsible
For the results of your
Decisions.
I said it, I meant it.
Don't you ever forget it.
Laugh now, cry later.
I'll never regret this.

Oh,
Cold
Sharp, yet
Inconspicuous
Movements of
Death or even
Life... I call it
Quits when It
Hurts too good
I call it quits
When it burns
Well. But if it's
Too **** cold
There is really no point and will
Absolutely never be a true point
In feeling the point of
This inconspicuous
Death. Blades of
Regret and that
Remorse and the
Lethal nostalgia.
When you feel it,
When you feel
This you'll know
There's no place
Like home.

Highs never take me
Gradually down.

I drastically drown.

Dramatically,
Falling to
The pit of the ground.

Falling upside
Down,

So this smile's a
Frown.

And vice versa.

Can't compete with
Inertia.
But somehow, getting high just
Throws me into a
Circle.

The cycle never ends,
It's never-ending.

I keep forgetting,
That this **** is
A curse and
Blessing.

Soothe the wounds of
Endless miles

With warming sights of
Fearless smiles.

I think then drink from
The cups of time

And only savor these
Thoughts of mine.

And those thoughts of yours
That I wish to hear.

Your smallest dreams and
Greatest fears.

I listen and drift in the
Lakes of distance.

They say a goddess won't
Love a misfit.

Yet, we sing and swim
In sheets of dreams.

Kiss and fight in
Smoke and steam.

Flames of zeal and
Oceans exquisite.

We walk and fly to
Go the distance.

Slits on your wrists
From a life that don't exist..
That's the perception that these
Relatives have.
Depression and pain, things that
Make you insane, ain't exactly
Something that most black people
Grasp.

They so used to the struggle that
We're given at birth. When you
Venting to them, they'll say we cursed
From the womb.
So ain't no venting to them because
They'll deem you ungrateful.
The **** ain't that serious until they're
Facing your tomb.

They hang us.

Aimlessly using bullets to
Tame us.

There's no reason to sit and
Wonder
Who is willing to
Save us.

Veins bulging, I been absolutely nauseous.
Ingesting all the bullsh!t of my monetary
Losses.
Approach me with a caution, for your being.
I ain't perfect..
I done blacked out on my morals,
See the dullness on the surface.
My blood it roams within the cracks
I've felt the time around me lapse.
Malnourishment to be exact.
The brittle bones protrude attached.
The gut it growls and eats me slow.
I pray my heart don't rot the most.
My soul, it bleeds. Intentions soaked
With great remorse. My severed hope.

Better get your girl because
If I find her,
Ima touch her.
Ima touch her...
But not the way
That you think I
Wanna.
Ima hunt her.
Ima hunt her...
Down and ima have to
Bring her torture.
Bring it to her.
Hurt her, force her-
And coerce her
To tell the truth.
If she lie on me, ima have to
Scorch her.
And since she did,
Know I got it for her.
Out to get you.
Call a lawyer.

Since you're testing me, there's a
Game to be played.
First, I grab a lighter and I gotta
Have my blade.
I put the knife to your stomach
With this slight pressure made.
The blade has a shadow. Hide
Your fear within the shade.

Hide your fear away from me
Because I see it as a feast.

You were a monster to my heart,
So I'm at the belly of the beast.

With a knife and a lighter.
I could slice you with the fire.
I could split your flesh open
And strip you of desires...

All the desires of a lifetime.
You're playing with your lifeline.
You expect me to sympathize,
But *****, you on my time.

And the clock ticks slow when
There's a lot you've been through.
So use this time to pray for them
Regrets and sins too.

And don't beg or plead because
I won't give a ****.
I'm not God. When I look at you,
I just see another man.

That means we have the same
Status and get the same respect.
And after I **** you,
Tne same afterdeath.

I'm willing to meet you in
Hell for the pain you caused my
Life.

So I say a little prayer, then
Glide across you with the
Knife

I'm sweating, don't you sweat me.
With this steel beneath my belly.
Cross me once, I'll let you test me.
Test me twice, you won't forget me.

You'll regret the way you played foul.
Ain't it hard for you to stay proud?
When I see you, play your cards well.
I poker face and lay them face down.

I seen some shadows much like you,
But they don't scare me.

No, they don't scare me,
'cause lately, I'm so daring.

And I've been stepping into potholes
With my bare feet.

Since you've had me,
I don't hesitate with sharing.

And there's a strong, strong scent
From the pits of hell,
For you.

Probably a stench for me too,
If they question what I do.

'cause I've been staring at these blades
And assorting pills by hue.

But I ain't tryna touch that plant,
Because the famer's guilty too.

Now, I don't got no quick fix or a
Hit list.

I know my woman just might leave me
If I miss this.

So, into an abyss, goes all my wishes.

I can't stand it. All the pain makes my
Decisions.

I need some help out here,
Something better than this.
I ain't no sensitive kid
Unless they speak on my pancreas,
Then it is what it is.
I blow a malevolent kiss
Because the love I receive
Comes from a satanic abyss,
Full of the souls I've betrayed
In my past lively days.
I didn't pay much attention,
Now karma is who I must pay.
And to the higher above,
I must always go pray.
We have prayers for pain
And prayers for laughter.
Heavely Father, I'm a disaster.
After this wound,
There can be no more after.
Afterlife is unknown,
But I believe in the best.
But for people like me,
Only looking forward to death
Due to the instances pushed on
The mere flesh,
We will have no chance,
It's a one way ticket to flames.
But for this pain, I have great disdain.
Whisper my name when you visit
My tomb.
Understand you can
Never be gone too soon
When dirt and death and
All things below that bury your
Smile
Are meant for you.