Monotone

Monotone Apr 2018

And forever she sat, alone on the edge.
Waiting for someone she knew to be dead.
While simultaneously still holding the hope
That someone, anyone, would give her a shove.
So she could fly, and play pretend
while losing herself to the void within.

Monotone Apr 2018

I almost did it again.

I almost did it again last night.
Almost let the crimson blood show.
Three months free, but I almost did it again.
I felt the pull, the aching, the need.
I ignored it, but I'm scared.
Because I know it'll pull me in;
Wrap me in comfort the way you never did.
So yes, I almost did it again.
I'm sure I will do it again,
and it could even be as soon as tonight.

Monotone Apr 2018

Last Breath

I smelled the deceit before you made it known.
I heard you speaking, sharing with your friends.
I watched you break your promise, a secret till the end.
I felt myself break when you turned and laughed at me.
I tasted the defeat, it's been two years why wait?

I don't understand.
Why now?
You have her now.
Why me?

Why torture me?
Why humiliate me?
Why take every shred to annihilate?
Why destroy what you know to be me?

It's ok.
I'm Fine.
I'm Done.
I'll give you all what you want.

Monotone Apr 2018

Watched

I'm watched, antagonized
held back by societies lies.
It's been so long since I've felt.
It scares me to know
That I can never be myself.

Apr 2018

c

If Life Were A ****

Hey *****--
Lucky you:
You've fallen into my trap!
...

Oh, what to do with you?
Bury you deep in your own ***** greed?
Or paperwork up to your knees?

Or do I feed you just enough?
The ***** to basic human need

After all, I know your hunger well,
I practically invented human will

I pay a sum--a dying wage
That you'll pay back
Till your dying age

One time a year
I'll slice a chunk
Piece by piece
Down to the bone

You'll bend the knee
And do me right
I know you won't
Put up a fight

I am your god
The beast you serve
Now turn around
And get to work

--
c

#life #fear #humanity #greed #work

Monotone Apr 2018

Life's a Rerun

I feel like I'm a music playlist put on repeat.
I'm bled out, tired of the same old thing.
I could go about my daily routine with my eyes closed.
I could go about this routine whilst sleepwalking.
Which is why I'm able to go about it even after you leave.