I'm vexed to stay
waking up
With a head full of holes.
Each day repeats its
Punishment
For things I can't recall.
Sleep till midday,
Curse the days wide expanse.
Scrape words from my skull,
Chop meat from my bones,
Sew my mouth shut.
Still it's not enough.
Trying to reach you
But there's no forgiveness
for this clumsy emotion.
I'm a cold fish,
Or loving beyond control.
Hold me, generously
Undo my buttons —
                  talk *****.
Lose control and find me.
I was something once.

I don't think you realize how big of a hole
you really left behind -
I'll be bleeding forever unless you return.
There is no cure to this,
the worst withdrawal.
Without you, it's hard to breathe
To walk
To love
You're my drug, and you've been taken away
I think the symptoms of this withdrawal
might **** me just before the day
that you return, and into you I once again fall.

And with you goes a piece of me...
lost as long as you are gone.

Ah...
Talking to you again, seeing you smile, hearing you laugh
is like
stepping into an old library
that was once a favored childhood hideout
Taking a deep breath
and letting the warm scents and memories wash
over me and remind me
How it feels to be content.
Memories stain the paper
and I smile as I read.

I won't give up
I don't give up
I can't give up
I have not given up
*on you.

So I must learn to be without you,
but I promised to never let go,
Didn't I?
And when you've returned
from your journey through the darkness,
You will find me, waiting, arms open
Smile wide
I hope that you'll be happy to see me
I will wait here forever
*I've been waiting for so long

Fleeting moments
Slipping through time

Moments spent
Looking back

Moments spent dreaming
Of future joy

Moments wasted
Looking nowhere

Only in these moments

Holding you

Kissing you

Loving you

Am I living

In the eternal
In the absence of time

My heaven
Is in the moments
Spent with you