I wonder why i stay when it is so hard to breathe,
Why i hold on even though i want to leave.

In my darkest moments i search for a light,
I'm hoping for a reason to make it through the night.

I wonder why i stay when i'm feeling so small,
with no one to catch me when i stumble and fall.

And i don't want to give up just yet,
But i'm lost in the dark unsure of what's next.

i wonder why i stay when thoughts of ending it all haunt my mind,
part of me wants to go but yet i'm trapped and confined.

I want to live, not just survive.

They say they're listening but they don't get it,
Asking why i feel this way when nothings wrong.
They see my life think its all laid out,
But they don't see the weight i carry,
All the reasons tangled deep down inside me,
The pain i feel, but i can't name.

They see the surface never the storm,
And they wonder why i can't just move on.
I'm lost in thoughts that don't make sense to them,
fighting these battles i can't explain.
Feeling a pain that no one around me understands.

I try to say whats haunting me,
But my words crumble, falling apart each time.
I realise they don't know the war behind my eyes,
And how i can't find peace within my own mind.
And this stinging pain that i can't place.

People think its all in my head,
They say it'll pass, that i'll figure it out,
But they don't know the maze i'm trapped inside.
The pain i feel that has no name.