Who the ****
Do you think you are
To go around telling lies?

You use my lips,
My eyes,
My thighs,
Put on a bold new show.

But all it does
Is bring me down
Where's the sparkle --
where's the shine?

Nothing but pretty lies
And uglier truths
Escaping from the stage.

My heart cries --
But you'll never see the tears.

I am not your **** toy
Not a plastic doll
Your fantasies
Don't get to come
True on my account
These aren't your fun bags
My *** is not to smack

My skin longs
For the touch of fingertips
But crawls at the thought
Bristle before, relax
Never knowing
What unwanted touch
Is coming next

Never knew to say no
Never knew wrong was wrong
Until it was all too late

Doctor in the barn
Damaged on the trail
Grabbed my wrist -- was I wrong?
Drank it all away
Faded into blackness
Forcing through the door

Older now
Learning once again
They only want one thing from you;
You're just a last resort
So feign for their attention
Gave as good as got
Dove right down that rabbit hole
Trying to drown it out

And still -- trapped, touched
Touche
But then again, and "No"
That famous word
So infamously hard to hear

Too ashamed to fight back
Give in
Then
Live in
FEAR

Let me say again
Because it bears repeating:
Give in, then
Live in fear
Bare --
Repeating

R-A-P-E
Say it with me now
Such an ugly word
How does it make you feel

Do you feel ashamed
Are you feeling scarred
Do you feel her fear
Or is it not so clear?
Do you feel
Powerful now
Or is it
All her fault

Such an ugly word
So,  say it with me now
R-A-P-E
Found out what it means to me.

Patience little girl
Tedium bludgeons me here
Waiting in nature's patient grave
Lost among the roots and worms

My joy is killed here
Upon the leaves and frost
Of the forest floor

One drip of red
Standing crimson
Against the autumn hues
Stains last thoughts
Burning images in the aftermath
The media's watchful eye

She screamed here --
But it's silent in my head

Flocks take flight
The sound of the shot
Reverberations echo long

Stars spin
Eyes blur
Last gasping breath, escape
Saliva strand,
stained and dripping strings
The vibrancy of life
Departs

Silent now

Falling
With the leaves and
Flakes of first snow

Kneel or don't
Stand if you please
But won't
Once a sign
R E S P E C T
when was it taken awry?

All it takes is one
One
Bad apple spoils the bunch
One
Squeaky wheel gets the grease.

They say time flies
But not fast enough
Remembering hurt
We've never felt

Only when generations
Lost in time
Can tie their binds
To that time
Will we begin to remember
To forget
Not forgotten
Just scarred.

As flesh heals
And wounds bleed no more
Will we, as a Nation,
Come together
And stand as one
Indivisible
Against all odds.

And no One
Shall be
ONE.
We all,
Our whole...

I wish
This peace should come
In my time
But all
Will be
A memory
Of dust.

sadness floods my heart
Panic grips my wounded soul
tears flow,  breathe,  let go.