Are you okay?
Are you alright, are you fine, are you good?
Are you adequate, are you decent?
Are you emotionally stable, sleeping without crying, smiling because you want to?
Are you breathing without questioning, are you waking up without trying, are you eating without throwing up?
Are you reading this poem right now and thinking no?
Are you thinking for the first time, will I ever be okay?

You will be okay.
You will be alright, you will be fine, you will be good.
You will be adequate, you will be decent.
You will be emotionally stable, you will sleep without crying, and smile for the happiness blooming inside of you.
You will breathe without questioning, you will wake up to a new day, you will eat easily
You
are going to be okay.
So please smile sunshine
It’s a fine new day
To be okay :)

- a.g.

words
               are
                       simple
               yet
complex

they can mean
                                everthing
and can mean
                                nothing
they can
                                hurt
and
                                comfort
even
                                confuse
sometimes
                                scare

but
               words
are
                                 just
words

If I breathe a word,
or even a thought,
It would crack my bones,
cause unimaginable pain,
If I whispered my mind,
or perhaps my emotions,
It would set me off
scare them away
If I chose to be silent,
or just say I'm fine,
It would cause alarm,
make someone wonder,
If I want to speak,
just to have someone listen,
it wouldn't do much,
but cause more pain.

Alone,
Hiding away,
waiting,
watching,
wanting,
a change.
The vines
Entangle me,
surround,
my being.
I´m suffocating.
I can´t breathe
I´m lost,
in the dark,
in the trees,
in my sorrow.
Yet you see
my pleasant
little smile,
telling you,
I´m okay.

The words.
They seem to fall out of me.
Like an endless waterfall.
Mindless,
Yet pleasant.
Confused,
And well aware.
It´s frustrating.
I dont know
How I feel,
How I want to feel
Words cannot express my pain,
My sorrow.
The crimson waves stain me,
Surround,
and hide me.
Leave me,
wondering
Where have I gone?

In the dark of the night,
when my soul becomes real,
Dancing in broken visions,
that only the dark can heal.
And my dreams,
wait here,
forever inside.

To feel your heart,
to touch your skin
slowly breathing
from within.
And my dreams,
wait here,
forever inside.

It´s cold here now
and I suffer alone.
My throat, it burns,
I´m left to wonder how.
And my dreams,
wait here,
forever inside.

I can´t speak
I can´t think.
All these feelings,
make me weak.
And my dreams,
wait here,
forever inside.

What is left?
A drop of sorrow?
A tingle of happiness?
Or just a dream?
My dreams,
wait here,
forever inside.

If I were to leave, would you go with me?

If I were to disappear, would you look for me?

If I were to die, would you care?

If I couldn't breathe, would you be my lungs?

If I couldn't see, would you be my eyes?

If I couldn't hear, would you be my ears?

If I couldn't talk, would you be my voice?

If I couldn't live, would you teach me?

Can you show me?

How to be brave?

How to love?

Without getting hurt?

Without being broken?

Can you teach me to be stronger than i am?

Stronger than i was?

Stronger now?

Stronger forever?

Stronger with you?

Be with me.

You chose me.

Don't lose me now.

As my breath fades,

Catch me.

Save me.

Would you even care?